i got really upset today. and for the first time in a long time i seriously tried to kill myself. and when it didnt work, i decided to just cut the shit out of my arm. afterwards of course, i realized how stupid it was, and i remembered that i cant hide these cuts like the others, so i kinda freaked out even more. so i ended up calling Sammy and asking her to beg my mom not to admit me. but that didnt work. im here right now. in one of the waiting rooms, and i asked if i could go on the internet and they said yes so i was just like OMG i love you. but deviantart doesnt work here. T-T
anyways, at first i was all angry, and depressed and shit, but now im starting to think this is going to be a good thing. i get to get away from my life for a while. isnt that what everyone was telling me to do? to just get away for a while. so here i am. the only thing thats really bugging me is the strip search they're gonna have to do... yeah, thats not gonna be pretty. o_o
so yeah, im probably gonna be in here for a while. at least a week or so. it depends on how good i am and if i follow the rules and crap. at least this time i get my own room. cause gays cant have a roommate...
soo... i guess thats it. i want to apologize to K, i know im worrying you, and i plan to call you once im good enough to get a phone call. if this place is anything like it was the last time i was here then i should be getting it pretty soon, maybe even tomorrow. they're pretty nice here. except that damn strip search... im really not looking forward to that.
*sigh*
i guess ill go now.
im sure everyone at school will be happy that im gone for a while, so they dont have to deal with my depression anymore.
...
later everyone.
or just K, since your the only one who ever comes here anymore.
luv ya
