Ok so i spent $125 of my money at best buy today. i FINALLY got myself an MP3 player, and im putting music on it right now... and i got earphones for it cause i hate the stupid crappy ones that come with them. and i also got the whole Speed Grapher DVD boxset. so im gonna watch that to get my mind off of shit...
and uh, Michelle and Fluffy slept over last night... and that was cool. i was happy when they were here, but once i was left alone the depression took its place again... i also had to work today from 10am to 6pm, so they werent able to stay over very long.
and i work tomorrow too.
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i was actually really close to just quitting today. cause i was just not in the mood to go to work you know. and of course theres a few other reasons why i wanna quit...
Oh and i also ran out of the school yesterday and ditched the assembly. and 2 teachers tried stopping me, but i just walked away from them. i also kinda yelled at them... and i swore... but whatever, i did not wanna be there, so i really dont care. but i am kinda worried about whats gonna happen on monday.
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*sigh*
anyways...
you know i wrote out a huge fucking post the other day, but it got deleted. i fucking hate that... but anyways... well no, itd be weird to try and re-type it. i wouldnt get it right.
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it was just all like, i thought this year was gonna be like a great year, and now i think its gonna be the worst year of my life.
like acen, i thought that was gonna be awesome this year... but now im not even gonna go.
and homecoming... theres no way im going to that.
and then theres senior prom... i was gonna go with Justine in a pink tux, and her in a pink dress, and oddly enough i was really looking forward to that... but once again, theres no way thats EVER gonna happen now. so no prom for me...
*sigh*
i also dont know what im gonna do after high school now either... ill probably just be one of those losers that live with there parents.
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everythings ruined... and i have nothing to look forward to anymore. theres no reason for anything.
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i just dont understand what i did wrong... why is this happening... what did i do to make things turn out like this.
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but i guess this just proves that i was right all along... no one could ever love someone like me.
so whatever.
i guess ill go be emo now.
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