So, I don't have asthma....actually, there's nothing wrong. Apparently it's all in my head. That I'm doing this to myself. I'm depressed and will have to go back on medication. I have to go back to therapy. I will not be like that bitch I call my mother. I don't want to be here. I don't want to go back on medication. I don't want to go back to therapy. I'd rather die then go back to that.