Once upon a time, there was a femme transboy named Lukaiel. He was very insecure, artistic, imaginative and lived in a very un-magical place called Kansas. Someone he once trusted, an evil, ugly witch cast a spell and manipulated the boy into having a romance with razor blades, fire, and self-destruction, and made him hate every inch of himself.
But this all changed when he met his knight in shining armor, Jason. Jason broke the spell with an enchantment called "love". Jason made Lukaiel's grey world flush with color. Along with friends of every kind, Jason brought Lukaiel to a vision of self-love and acceptance for everyone, no matter how different. Lukaiel became a prince.
But the prince is in distress-- his temptation to destroy himself, his doubts, his inner demons. But he, with the hope of loved ones, battles these off even when it appears he is losing the war. He will always find himself victorious with the wonderful people he grew to love on his side.
The prince finds joy in writing, drawing, acting, costuming, designing fashion, listening to music, making odd crafts and jewelry, and reading/watching things. Sometimes he finds himself among faeries, who he believes and finds his faith and ability to cast magic in. Other times, he appears as a fallen angel, a tragic hero. But most times, he's just a submissive and clumsy cat boy who wishes for affection and cuddles. His anxiety disorder cripples him, takes him away from his desire to be around people, and though he values his alone time, he craves company.

Though his life is not spent in a castle, he continues on and loves life. This is his story of romance, acceptance, and finding the beauty in everything.

--dA--facebook--YouTube--tumblr--my knight <3--

bat out of hell

Another questions thiiiing.
I've been doing a lot of these. Out of boredom, probably.

1: What is your name and does it mean anything?
My name is Kyle. c: Ah it's just the male version of my birth name. My birthname meant "pure one" so there's that.

2: How long have you known your best friend?
My best friend is my boyfriend, who I've know since like the middle of middle school? We didn't really start talking until freshman year.
My other best friend is Tah-Tah, who I met in English class during my junior year.

3: What position do you normally sleep in?
I sleep on my stomach, like a ballerina with my leg bent at the knee. I alwaysalwaysalways have to be cuddling something.

4: Were you a part of any “clique” in high school?
For a while, I was a part of the scene/goth/stoner kids. xD While I remained friends with them, I still migrated to being part of the more artsy kids.

5: Who was your favorite teacher in high school and why?
This is tough. I really liked my illustration/pottery teacher. She was really funny and understanding. Then I also think my theatre teacher was pretty cool sometimes. I had a major love-hate relationship with her because when she was upset, you could really tell. But she cares deeply for her students and she was really supportive of me, and still is. But I'd have to say my seminar and special art production teacher was my favorite. I had him since my sophomore year and I was the only kid left at the end of senior year that was apart of his original class. The others had left, and the new ones were all new students and class transfers. But he was really funny and awkward and had a lot to say about things. He was a typical hipster-y art teacher LOL. I still remember that he showed us Don't Hug Me I'm Scared on the first day of his drawing and painting class.

6: Do you wish to travel a lot?
Yeah!! I wouldn't die happy if I didn't get to travel, I don't think.

7: Did you participate in any sports while in school?
In elementary school. xD I was in basketball and cheerleading.

8: Show a sample of your handwriting:
I don't have one on me at the moment. >.<

9: Have you ever given blood?
I can't. :< my blood is too difficult to get out of me. My veins are too faint and deep in my skin.

10: Do you like the way that you grew up?
Yes and no. I was unhappy as a kid. But I do think that My experiences made me a stronger person than I would've been. I'm also very much an individual and I'm thankful for that.

11: Do you like your siblings? Why or why not?
Depends on the sibling. xD My half-brother-- no. He's a six year old, and he's SO RUDE AND GROSS. But my real brother, yeah. We're really close actually. I used to hate him but now he's like a friend. He's 14.

12: How did you meet your best friend and why did you become friends?
She was another quiet kid in class, but she had pink and blue hair, wore dressed and had a tattoo on her foot. My ex bestfriend and I used to have fun with her and how quiet she was. Eventually my ex best friend kept pushing us into eachother so we just became really good friends. I love her.
Jason, I met him here on TheO actually. He was my childhood best friend's new best friend after she moved away. He messaged me and at first I thought he was a bit weird but then we really became friends. We didnt get close though until I came out as trans and he helped me figure things out.

13: Name one movie that made you cry.
Moulin Rouge. omfg. It made me cry in the first three minutes.

14: Do you prefer to read poetry, write poetry, or neither?
I like to read it. c:

15: Things about someone that you find attractive?
I like nice hair, a sincere smile, pretty eyes, dominance *~*, and gentlemanliness.

16: What song are you currently listening to?
When the Day Met the Night by Panic! At The Disco ~ this song is one of Jason and I's songs. He's my sunshine and I'm his moonlight.

17: Have you ever broken a bone? If so, how?
I haven't. owo but I have dislocated my collarbone before.

18: A random memory from you childhood:
My brother and I liked to play in my grandparent's huge garden. We'd make up little stories and swing on tire swings and pick flowers for my grandma. One time the tree branch snapped while I was on the tire swing. LOL

19: Where did you grow up?
Kansas, in the same city I'm in now.

20: What was the last thing you watched on tv?
Friends. :D

21: Do you think you’d make a good parent?
No. v~v I'm not responsible and I lose my temper way too quickly.
I do have a maternal instinct though. I would say paternal but really I just want to make sure everyone is happy and well taken care of. I'm not a very good protector/provider. But my friends and I all joke about how I'm their mother/mommy.

22: Would you like to meet any of your Tumblr friends in person?
I don't really have any tumblr friends xD I literally have 11 followers. I've never posted anything that's mine on there, though I might.

22: What was the last dream you remember having?
Something about me murdering this guy trying to kidnap me. I was sent to a reform school and I was punished there for not obeying the rules. I had to walk around nude as punishment ???? Then I held a rebellion and got assassinated.

23: When is your birthday?
May 15th, 1996.

24: How many pillows do you sleep with?
At the moment, none xD I haven't slept with a pillow since summer started. I just use my arms or a blanket or a stuffed animal. I don't know where my pillows went cx

25: Do you wear glasses? If so, how long have you been wearing glasses?
Yeah. owo I've been wearing them since 3rd grade.

26: What color is your hair?
As of right now, it's a dark red-brown. I really like it.

27: Name 5 facts about your appearance:
-I only have freckles on my right shoulder.
-My body/facial hair is all blond. o_O so I don't really worry about shaving except when I feel like it.
-I'm 5'6. Annoyingly tall because I always think I'm shorter than I actually am.
-My eyes are weird. They're a greyish green, leaning more on the yellow side than blue.
-I'm anemic, and I have a blood disorder. I bruise really easily and I'm really fragile. And I bleed for literally forever. It takes at least 30 minutes to stop myself from bleeding from a small cut, even with pressure on it.

28: What is your favorite soda?
Ah I like mostly any Fanta. I don't drink dark colored soda except rootbeer.

29: What is a strange talent that you have?
I'm not sure. owo my talents are pretty normal.

30: How’s the weather right now?
Probably cool-ish for a summer. It's 2:30am.

31: Why did one of your friendships end?
Because she gave up on me. But I'm glad it ended. She was a manipulative bitch.

32: Who do you miss right now?
My boyfriend. I've really been craving his kisses and cuddles for a while now.

33: Why did your last relationship end?
He wanted to change me. I was gender-confused, he was sexually-confused.

34: Are you still figuring out who you are?
I think I know a lot about myself.

35: Have you ever been admitted to a hospital? Why?
Suicide watch, irregular periods, and my rapid/irregular heartbeat. Stupid and hilarious that I have a rapid heartbeat when I also have a heartbeat fetish. LOL

36: What is your favorite restaurant?
Buffet City. Chinese food *~*

37: What is word that you always seem to spell wrong?
Ah, definitely. <---

38: Would ever adopt kids?

39: What is your favorite kind of pizza?
I love it all, but I think I like supreme the most.

40: What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?
"What time is it? Please don't be 5pm."

41: When was the last time you got really really happy and why?
Hm. Hard to tell because I'm pretty happy these days.

42: What’s the strangest thing you’ve ever eaten?
Pickled green beans, beets, and asparagus. Actually really good by the way. Really addicting.

43: How do you start a conversation?
I don't. LOL but no, I usually compliment or say something that reminds me of them.

44: What’s a band you’ve been obsessed with lately?
I would do anything for love... BUT I WON'T. DO. THAT~~

45: Do you come from a family “of money?”
HAHA no.

46: Do you have a bucket list?
I do. ^.^

47: What is your favorite series of books?
Knight and Rogue, Fallen. c:

48: When was the last time you laughed so hard your stomach hurt?
Probably laughing with Jason about Ed, Edd and Eddy xD

49: Where do you go when you’re sad?
My room, or if it's really bad, my bathroom.

50: 5 random facts about yourself:
-I'm always really cuddly.
-My hands are always cold, but the rest of me is like a heater. My friends like to use me to warm them up in the cold weather by clinging to me xD
-I have really shaky hands. How I'm an artist, I'll never know.
-I really want to be a model. But I think that's a very impossible dream for anxious, non-photogenic me.
-I narrate my life in my head in a writerly way. And I can never stop it. >.<

hope you don't mind~

tea questions

earl grey: how do you take your tea?
Usually hot, with sugar. Sometimes with milk depending on the flavor.

lady grey: favorite outfit?
A pajama outfit I wear. xD it makes me feel cute. It's a black oversized shirt with a white tiger graphic that has teal and purple colors on it. Then I wear mint colored panties and my colorfully striped spa socks.

irish breakfast: what country do you want to visit?
Any European country really. c:

chamomile: comfort movie?
Moulin Rouge or Rocky Horror Picture Show. n.n

peppermint: what's your favorite holiday and why?
Christmas, or Halloween, or Valentine's Day!
Christmas because I love winter and it's just such a romantic time for me. Halloween because I get to dress up in costumes and get candy.
And Valentine's Day because everything is so pretty and flowery and cute! And so much chocolate exists~~

milk: do you have any allergies?
There's a spider I'm allergic to, but I don't know what kind it is. I'm also allergic to a certain type of sunblock. -.- found that out the hard way.

sugar: tell me about your first crush
His name was Justin, and both my friend and I had a crush on him. He was this little rocker dude in the 5th grade. I tried to emulate him to get him to notice me but he never saw me as anything more than a friend. Eventually we got older and lost contact. Then we met again and he told me he liked me, but yet chose my friend over me. Oh well. That's kind of how it used to be with me.

honey: type out the last text you sent
/)w( I'd rather not. It's a cheesy goodnight message to my boyfriend okay.

green tea: where do you feel most at peace?
Just chilling at home in my room late at night. Usually talking to my boyfriend on the phone. Sometimes late at night I'll go out in the living room to draw and listen to music.

bubble tea: what ride would you pick at an amusement park?
I really like the Ferris wheel, or Tilt-a-Whirl. I'm not one for crazy rides, but I do enjoy them sometimes.

mug: when/where do you normally drink tea?
Mostly at night when I'm trying to chill. But lately I've been drinking it a lot more because it helps to soothe my tummy.

chai: what do you order at starbucks?
nothing cx

oolong: what are you hoping to be doing in ten years?
Being a part time housespouse and working at a decent job. Hopefully selling my own crafts and performing at the renfaire and writing.

herbal: post a selfie
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This picture is instagram'd all to hell omg. But this is actually what I look like right now. c:

coffee: surprise coffee question! how do you take your coffee?
With creamer/milk and sugar. c: pretty much any way except black.

Comment Spree~

The comment spree thing is today!! I just woke up so I hope I haven't missed too much xD

not that it's three in the afternoon or anything

Anyway, if you'd like to join in and have more details about this wonderful plan to liven the site back up, check out this post!!

So I'll be here all day c:

-happy commenting<3, Kyle.

when the day met the night

Hey guys~

Not much is happening lately. c: which is good tbh.

I went to the library yesterday! FINALLY. I've been meaning to go since the beginning of summer lol. I got five books. c:
I got a book about King Arthur called Dragon's Child. It's been pretty cool rediscovering my love for King Arthur. I was such a huge nerd for his stories as a kid. I would constantly read about him.
Then I got a book that I actually finished this morning. It's called Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe. ;~; it's so good. It made me cry a lot. It's about these two guys who kind of complete eachother and it's really interesting. The characters are really fleshed out. The dialogue is a bit weird but it fits the story I think. It reminds me a lot of Perks of Being a Wallflower (the movie), probably because it makes me feel deep and a bit of a hopeful sadness.
Then I got three other books, two being the last in the Knight and Rogue series. It's a really great series, I forgot how much I love it. It's about this guy- Michael, who's an aspiring knight. But there's not really any knights in the world anymore, so people ridicule him for it. But then, he sees this guy- Fisk, about to be hung. But Michael bails him out and now Fisk is debt to him. To settle the debt, Fisk has to be his faithful squire. And they go on adventures and it's got magic and stuff. It's a fun read.
The other book I got is called Between the Devil and the Deep Blue Sea. I've yet to read it much, but I hope I like it!

Oh yeah, I got hit on earlier on facebook lmao. One of my best friend's friends. I knew this guy because Tah-Tah and I had math class with him first semester of senior year. He was a funny guy, not one I'd date though. Anyway he messaged me and told me I was pretty cute. I told him thanks, but then I broke it to him that I'm a dude. He was like "oh shit sorry. I'm not gay omg I thought you were a chick". I'm just glad he wasn't a dick about it like a lot of guys are.

My boyfriend is currently taking his permit test. Hopefully he'll get his license soon and we can see eachother more <3
Tomorrow is our two year anniversary! We're going to celebrate it later though. He's going on a trip tomorrow to Worlds of Fun with his friends.
I think he'll probably come to my city so we can go on a date and give eachother presents and we can chill around my area. He hasn't seen much of it, so I want to take him around. I live in an area that's close to downtown and an art district and such so they have galleries and such and I think it'd be a nice time.

I've been trying to get back into writing, but it's so hard. Omg.

Also, I dyed my hair all dark brown again.

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Anyway, I think that's all I have to say now. So yep.

Have a lovely day, everyone!


dearly beloved

Cute Flower Questions

I saw these on Tumblr, but seeing as how I only have like 5 followers there, I'm just going to do all of these here.

Daisy: How old were you when you had your first kiss?
I was 16. o: I actually thought I'd end up being a lot older than I was. I never had a boyfriend that I could actually see in person before except one guy when I was like 14. But he was scared to do anything with me, and I never had the desire to kiss anymore until I got with Jason.

Carnation: If I handed you a concert ticket right now, who would you want to be the performer?
Ah, Fall Out Boy, 30 Seconds to Mars, or AFI.

Jasmine: What color looks best on you?
Black makes me look pale, so that's nice. Purple and brown make my eyes stand out. c:

Foxglove: Name three facts about your family?
-My mom was almost a model after high school. But she was pregnant with me instead.
-My family has a running theme of rebellious boys ending up with innocent girls. My grandma was a cute cheerleader who married a goth boy, and my mom was a little preppy chick who married my punk rock dad.
-On my dad's side of my family, we are actually descendants of a Scottish king. c: also, I'm Scottish and some form of Indian on my dad's side. But on my mom's side, I'm Swedish and Greek.

Allium: What's the best thing you can cook?
Pastaaaaa. Or cake.

Orange Blossom: If you could pick the gender and appearance of your child, would you?
I don't think I would. I'd like to see how they grew up to be. I would prefer a boy, but a girl is just as nice.

Calla Lily: If you died right now, what song would you want to play at your funeral?
I don't know. >w<

Poinsettia: Favorite holiday dish?
Green bean casserole, and peppermint EVERYTHING. Pumpkin Spice anything is usually nice.

Oxlip: Would you ever get into a long distance relationship?
I have, and am in one. Jason lives an hour drive away. I'd never date anyone who lived more than a state away again though.

Primrose: Favorite kind of soup?
Chicken noodle, or Italian vegetable.

Daffodil: What's the most thoughtful present you've ever received?
Ah, for my birthday this year, Jason wrote 52 reasons why he loves me in a deck of cards. Each card had a different reason. c:

Rose: Are you currently in love with someone?
I am. c: <3

Amsonia: Would you ever become a vegan?
If I had to.

Peony: What's your favorite hot beverage?
Peppermint Tea, or tea in general. :D or coffee.

Tulip: For your birthday, what kind of cake do you ask for?
Usually a cookie cake.

Myrtle: Do you like going on airplanes?
Never have been before.

Hibiscus: Did you ever play an instrument? If so what?
I used to play guitar when I was 11. But I didn't play for a whole summer once and ended up forgetting everything I knew. Then I played a bit of piano in 8th grade. Thinking of taking that back up again. I used to be able to sing well until I got to high school. Probably got bad at it from not taking choir in high school.

Zinnia: Who was your best friend when you were six years old?
Honestly, I didn't have any friends until I was 10. Other kids were scared of me, or made fun of me.

Poppy: What color was your childhood home?
White. ^~^

Hydrangea: Starbucks order?
I've never had Starbucks. Too damn expensive. x~x

Violet: Do you like where you're from?
Kansas is okay. It's very chill and not as conservative or "country" as most people think.

Locust: What was your favorite book as a child?
Uhm, this one book about a cat? It wasn't a kid's book though. My grandma read it to me. Can't remember what it was called.

Rhododendron: What's the scariest dream you've ever had?
I've had a lot of those. >.< uh it's hard to choose.

Queen Anne's Lace: Would you rather carve pumpkins or wrap presents?
Wrap presents. c':

Magnolia: Favorite kind of candy?
I think Reese's? Or sour patch anything.

Aster: Would you rather be cold or hot?
Coldddd. I love being cold. Cold weather is cuddling weather, and it's when I look the best because fall/winter fashion is layerable and dark colored. *~* layers are a transguy's best friend.

Marigold: Do you listen to what's on the radio?
Sometimes, yeah.

Heliconia: Do you like when it rains?
Yesssss. And I love thunderstorms even though I'm a little afraid of thunder.

Azalea: What's a movie you cried while watching?
Moulin Rouge, or probably any Disney movie that I watched for the first time.

Dandelion: Do you think you're important?
Yeah. .///. I do. For once.