Once upon a time, there was a femme transboy named Lukaiel. He was very insecure, artistic, imaginative and lived in a very un-magical place called Kansas. Someone he once trusted, an evil, ugly witch cast a spell and manipulated the boy into having a romance with razor blades, fire, and self-destruction, and made him hate every inch of himself.
But this all changed when he met his knight in shining armor, Jason. Jason broke the spell with an enchantment called "love". Jason made Lukaiel's grey world flush with color. Along with friends of every kind, Jason brought Lukaiel to a vision of self-love and acceptance for everyone, no matter how different. Lukaiel became a prince.
But the prince is in distress-- his temptation to destroy himself, his doubts, his inner demons. But he, with the hope of loved ones, battles these off even when it appears he is losing the war. He will always find himself victorious with the wonderful people he grew to love on his side.
The prince finds joy in writing, drawing, acting, costuming, designing fashion, listening to music, making odd crafts and jewelry, and reading/watching things. Sometimes he finds himself among faeries, who he believes and finds his faith and ability to cast magic in. Other times, he appears as a fallen angel, a tragic hero. But most times, he's just a submissive and clumsy cat boy who wishes for affection and cuddles. His anxiety disorder cripples him, takes him away from his desire to be around people, and though he values his alone time, he craves company.
Though his life is not spent in a castle, he continues on and loves life. This is his story of romance, acceptance, and finding the beauty in everything.
Can I just express something? Something wonderful?
Jason/Kyle is the sweetest boy I have ever had the privilege of meeting. Even more so lucky that I'm dating him.
He accepts every part of me, and even embraces these parts. He loves my weirdness and my nerdy-ness. He loves my body and my face. He loves all the things that I'm insecure about. He loves my strange little kinks and fetishes.
He makes my days brighter. He tells me that I'm beautiful. He's always there for me for when I'm sad and he listens to my rants and raves.
He doesn't make me feel belittled or neglected. He understands that I have major issues and has never once made me feel bad for them.
With the end of a great 2013, I'm very happy to start another delightful year with him. And I hope that each and everyone of you can feel the way I do someday. I hope you can find someone wonderful who makes you feel special. Someone who knows and values you like the treasure you are.
Good... very early morning, lovely people~ it's about 3am right now lol.
I haven't updated you on things in quite some time. So here goes.
Let's see. This winter break has been mostly good so far. Though there also have been some very not good days. Days where I broke down and cried for several hours on end. I was pretty much unconsolable save for talking to Kyle. He helped me get through that weird funk and now I'm better.
I don't really know what happened. It was in the days before Christmas and I just felt so disappointed because I was going to be alone on the holidays. My family was home but when they're home, they don't pay much attention to me. And we weren't planning on celebrating Christmas. Then Christmas Day actually came, and I spent half the day sulking about and being a negative nancy until I went to my dad's to hang out. :3 we played video games and watched music videos and some Christmas specials.
Then the next day, my grandfather came over and just unloaded a ton of Christmas stuff for us. Apparently my mom's side of the family decided they weren't going to celebrate this year. But we still exchanged gifts anyway.
So~ for Christmas, I recieved:
-clothes and makeup
-lots of candy and sweets
-coffee and more coffee
-dapper bear figurine
I'm soon to get more though :D I'm supposed to be going to Kyle's soon and getting some hairdye from my friend Rikki sometime.
I'm hopefully gonna get my haircut tomorrow or soon before I go to see Kyle. I may be blonde for a while before I actually go blue. But wheeee. I'm so excited. I love my dark hair but I want a change, it's getting a bit old and my confidence isn't too great lately so I feel it'll give me a boost. :3
What else? Ah. Well Kyle changed his name and he goes by something else now. His new name Jason or Jace. Yeah, we're no longer Kyle and Kyle ;-; but it's what he wanted to do, so I'm happy for him. So I'll refer to him as either Jason/Jace or Kyle (if I slip up) but just know that they're the same person and that we're still happily together. Cx a year and five months~
Well I've decided to scrap the Homunculus story idea. I'm just going to keep it as a small backstory for Yuki. But yeeeh.
If anyone wants to RP anything with me, please do so!! I can do pretty much anything original under any genre, though romance (smutty or lovey) and fantasy are my strong points. I prefer to not do anything fandom-related. And the format for my RPing isn't specific, I can roll with anything. We could start a world or just keep it one-on-one. Either is fine for me. So yeah~ I'M DESPERATE. Seriously though. It's an opportune time to RP with me because no school and I'm feeling creative.
But yeh, nothing else is really happening. Which is good. I like peaceful times. :3
Anyway, I'm going to post some artwork and just chill. So if anyone would like to talk, I'm here now or I'll get back to you in the morning. n.n
I'm just letting you all know that I am currently DEMANDING art trades so if you're up for it, let me know!
Another thing is that I want to RP with people a story idea I have in mind. It could be a one-on-one thing, or multiple-people thing. And I want to sort of RP some things out as to make it more interesting.
The story is about a war. (Haven't decided who is fighting or what they are fighting over yet, though) It's a fantasy story, so it's not modern times. I haven't actually come up with what time period it is set in, though.
And a sorceress creates a homunculus (this whole story is about homunculi) to be a killing machine. His name is Yuki and he turns out to be a androgynous healer type guy who's main element is ice. He doesn't have any emotions. Until he meets an enemy who he falls in love with. This enemy is a warrior hero named Tristan, who is a homunculus, but a defective one born with emotions. He is unaware though that he was created by magic. He thinks he's just a human.
Anyway, so Yuki is all heartbroken because he can't be with this guy. He doesn't want any emotions at all. So he goes on a quest to find a way to not have emotions and meets other characters who make him feel even MORE and he hates it xD
That's all I have, and it's not very good. But if I have people interested in RPing with me and helping me with it, there will be changes. :3 so yeah. Lemme know if you'd like to be part of this. :D
I had plans to actually post here and in EA but I've got a lot of things to get done before tomorrow. O: this week is finals week but after Thursday, I'm free for winter break! :D
Anyway, I just wanted to show you guys the first of many videos soon to be on my youtube. :3 I did a drawing tutorial. So if you were ever wondering what I sound like or see how awkward I am, here's your opportunity xD
Comment and let me know what you think! I plan on doing another video next weekend, which I'll also post here of course.
If you have any ideas (such as my views on something or a rant or just some questions for me) for my next video, tell me.~