Tommorow, I'll post after school.
I wanna dedicate tonight to writing for Ashley, plus my dad wants to have a talk with me and my brother and my grandmother tonight. I also have to go to bed early since it's a school night.
So it's a busy night.
By the way guys, I'm alright. I feel okay. I'm not down or anything, just... Stressed, you know?
I still don't know about my computer situation... But I'll have my computer until he leaves. There's time, because he still has to make sure he has things settled down in Wisconsin. Job, House, Girlfriend, etc,..
I'll talk it over with my mom after my dad tells her. 'Cause she doesn't know about it yet.
So... Things are changing and I don't have any power over it. I'm failing almost all of my classes, and honestly-- I don't give a fuck. Not right now. There's too much shit.
My dad's going to be leaving town-- for good this time. Yeah. He's moving to Wisconsin.
Well, he's hasn't got a job, wife, or life here. He finally had enough when Tina, his ex-wife and best friend, finally got tired of waiting for him to come around, so she got a boyfriend. My dad got pissed since he doesn't want anyone other than himself happy, so they hate eachother now.
OH. And I'm not allowed to have ANY contact with Tina anymore. ISNT THAT FUCKING GREAT.
So, he called me last night-- I WAS ACTUALLY HAVING A GOOD DAY FOR ONCE-- And told me that I'm getting my phone shut off soon. I asked why, and he said because Tina's not paying for our's anymore.
My phone situation is cool though-- My mom's gonna buy me a new one and put me on her plan THANK GOD.
So yeah. My dad's basically disowning me and possibly my brother sometime before August. Who knows. He's not going to keep contact-- He's not buying a cell or get my email-- and he's not even going to claim that he has a daughter. His exact words were, "I'm leaving everything that makes me unhappy."
So it's cool. We talked about it. I'm allowed to scream and cry at him as much as I want. But I won't.
As far as my computer situation goes, I think my mother will allow me to have internet when that time comes. Maybe. Hopefully.
You know. I do hate my dad. But that doesn't mean I'm happy he's leaving. He's going to just pick up and leave and yeah. You have to care to hate someone, and I suppose I will miss him. But in this case; "It was nice knowing you."
So whenever he leaves, I'll consider myself father-less. After all, He's daughter-less, right? Maybe I'll even call my step-dad my dad, who knows. All I know is, Once he's gone, HE'S GONE. I won't allow him back. He chose his own happiness over me so who gives a fuck.
"Why stay here where I have nothing, when I could go to Wisconsin and get a job, friends and a girlfriend?" Yeah. That's what he said, so whatever.
I'm done with him.
So now that Tina's gone, that's another person kicked out of my life. FUCK. I barely have anyone to talk to as it is...
I want my best friend back.
I want my lover back.
I want my happiness back.
I'm getting really sick of these people who are always fucking depressed and have no reason to be. Or when they have a reason to be depressed and someone asks them what's wrong and they say "Don't worry about it."
Anyone who cares about you is gonna worry about it, even if you tell them not to. Or they say that nothing's wrong. If there's really nothing wrong, why are you so upset?
And then you have the people who'll tell people what they want to hear because they're trying to be nice. You might have good intentions, but you're going about it the wrong way. I mean, oh my god. Telling them what they want to hear will only work for a short amount of time.
And then you have the totally insentive people who are just completely rude to those who are feeling down. Telling them to 'get over it' and 'grow up' isn't going to help their situation.
People these days need to work on themselves-- Me included.
:D I got bored, and they were mah inspiration. I started this a while back when the 3 of us were on the phone and finished it today.
This is seriously how they act. xD