I may be online more often now. I don't have anywhere to go or friends to hang out with at breakfast/lunch at school, and the computer's open. :D
I'll make a real life post in here later.
I passed my math test (shocker?) and so I have free time on the laptop. :'D
Anyway. Life is pretty fantastic right now, actually.
There's really nothing current to complain about, so I'll summarize my life (
Hmm, well. Joe and I don't talk at all anymore. Quite a bit of shit happened between us. He faked his death to get away from me, and apparently lied to me about every ounce of his 'feelings.'
He's a game-playing bastard. The only feelings I have for him anymore is the one where he burns in hell for everything he's done for me. Even after he faked all that, I tried to give him a chance to be my friend, buuut... He's too far gone. Everything has gone too far in hell between us to even start over. He's ruined a lot of things for me.
As far as friends go; I've lost two. Cheyann and Sammi.
Cheyann caused a lot of drama between me and Ashley and I can't forgive her. She doesn't let anything go, she's always sad though she's a spoiled brat, and she's just all around a bad friend. She wasn't ever there for me, and she laughed at all of my feelings.
Sammi, well, she's just simply a conceited bitch who can't keep her big mouth shut. She thinks she's 'holier than thou' and she's ridiculous. Confronting me about how she thinks she knows the whole story between Joe and I, and taking his side. SO yeah.
And the situation about my father. I officially moved out in October, to my mom's fulltime. He just stressed me out until I couldn't take it anymore. I rarely speak to him. We're on good terms, sort of, but I can't live with him. It's too much pressure.
As you might be able to see from this post so far, my personality has changed. I no longer give a fuck about bullies and 'haters.' I'm perfectly happy the way I am now. I'm more thankful for what I have, instead of depressed because of what I don't have.
There's about three reasons why. But I'm only going to speak about the main one.
This summer, I discovered that I'm a female-to-male transgender. It's the reason that I've always felt so awkward as a female. Why I dislike being referred to as female and 'Kayla.'
So I officially go by Kyle now. And I'm male inside. So I'd prefer if you guys could start referring to me as Kyle now, and male if you don't mind. I know it's a habit change. But please respect my preferences, please.
And yes, I am a gay male. Sexual Identity and Gender Identity have nothing to do with one another, so yeaah.
Hence, I left all my sadness and depression with 'Kayla.' Now that I've dispelled her, I'm much happier. c:
By the way; I am a dirty hoe. xD and a 'gay little whore.'
~With love, Kyle. <3
I'm sorry that I have to be so inactive. It bothers me, it really does. >_<;;; But I still don't have a computer and it's a very rare chance when I'm able to log on at school. (like now!)
But I will post as much as I can. I sincerely apoligize guys.
PLEASE still try to be active. :b I'd appreciate it.
BAAAIIIIIII FOR NAO.
~Kyle still loves TheO. <333
I still don't have a computer at home. Don't get excited, :x
I'm at school, giving up mah lunchtime to post. :B I have no idea when my computer's gonna be up at home.
I'll make a REAL BLOG post in here sometime tommorow, after I finish posting.
Confusing, is prolly my best word to describe Life right now.
I'm sneaking on my dad's computer while he's at Work.
Okay, so Finals... Well, I was failing four classes before I took them, so I'm hoping that I passed at least. If not, I'll be going to Summer School. Which isn't that bad because I have no plans anyway. I'm failing Algerbra, Biology, Gym, and High School 101. I know I passed Gym and High School 101, but the other two, I don't know about.
Connor and I are talking again. He's been flirting with me a lot, but has made it clear, we're only friends. That's kind of how Connor is. He'll totally play with your heart, but only if you let it get to you. I know better now. But he's been making me happy, and I don't know. He was my first love. And I'm kind of getting some little, insignificant feelings back for him. Nothing major, just some butterflies every once in a while...
Drawings have DEFINETELY improved. I'm actually really proud of myself for my newer ones. I got new colored pencils for my birthday, so I've been abusing those as well. :3
As for my birthday... THANK YOU GUYS FOR ALL THE WISHESSSS. <3 I really appreciate them. My birthday went well, but not as I would've liked it. However, it was alright. Charles, Rina, Cheyann, and Jessica showed up and we had fun. I got: Dippin' Dots Cotton Candy chapstick, Butterfly Balloon, Sketchbook, Colored Pencils, Cupcakes, Cookies, Candy, Jones Soda, and $80, which I've already spent. P: IMVU card for Ashley and I, Purple Hairdye, Food, Candy, Hairspray, and other things that I can't remember. xP
About Joe... Well. We're no longer together or anything now. He fell for his boyfriend really hard and told me that his love for me was fading. Yeah, it hurts like hell, but there's no sense of moping around about it. Just gotta move on in life and forget him. We're still gonna be friends though, once I get over him.
My writing skills have gotten better, so that's good. C:
Anyway, besides being broken-hearted, I'm pretty happy.
I'll have to disappear again. :c But if you want my number or facebook, just message me.