I fucking love the MineCraft nerds in the library in the morning. XDD
Don't mind the title. :L Just posted a line of lyrics lolol.
though i do want my boyfriend all to myself quite a bit right now...
Anyway, I'm partially listening to the MineCraft nerds in the library. XD They are way too funny for this morning. They get all excited over stuff and angry with the other players in here and it's just so great. Although my friends tend to piss them off by crashing their computers. Ah, raging nerds are pretty hilarious.
But anywho, I'm pretty tired right now. ;A; I haven't gotten much sleep in about a month... and I think I might be coming down with something. I've been feeling sore and weak and waves of nausea come over me a lot. Although the nausea could just be from my anxiety problems. ._. It happens.
Speaking of my anxiety problems, I think I'm getting a little better. I rid myself of one of my main triggers to it-- Ashley. Yeah, that's right. We were best friends, but she basically got tired of my shit and told me we weren't friends anymore. But that happened at the beginning of last month. I've been absolutely PERFECT without her. And honestly, I hate her. I don't know why I was ever her friend. Because she wasn't a friend to me. She controlled my mind and who I hung out with everything. She was also a hypocrite. But you know, I have a mind of my own, and I'm way happier now. I'm better off without her. :3
Plus, my boyfriend is my new bestfriend. XD And he's way better of a bestie than Ashley ever was. He actually is there for me, and makes me feel like I'm good enough. He has faith in me when no one else does. He's just... perfect. *-*
GOD, I'm cheezy XD
Shut up okay. I'm really smitten by him. >.< Yeah, Kyle has finally fallen in love with a guy who isn't a cunt. WHO WOULDA THUNK IT.
Anyway, I gotta go. :P Bai-bai.
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Seriously, I am way too fucking tired to even be at school right now. ._. I almost fell asleep at the computer a moment ago. XD
But anyway, you guys should message me more often. Not being an attention whorewait i lied yes i ambut I get really bored on the computer in the mornings. cx So yeah, message me or something. I can't reply to comments on the school computer ;-;
Yeah, that's all I wanted to say. :P
Yeah, it seems that I have returned to this site. I won't be able to submit any art however. ._. Sorry lol.
n.n I missed you guys quite a bit. o:
But as of now, I have more free time to be on the school computer. Mostly in the mornings, though. Ah well.
Well, anyway, my life has become absolutely fantastic. I'm open about my gender to basically everyone and I've had a lot of support. My family is still kind of "ehh..." about it, but my friends have been awesome. Everyone has warmed up to my name (incase you forgot, I go by Kyle now) and have been using the correct pronouns. So that's been really great.
As of last friday, I now go to a therapist. I've been having really awful panic attacks due to my anxiety and I just couldn't live with it anymore. I've also been having trouble with old self-harming issues. Not too long ago, I relapsed back into cutting... However, that has stopped, I think. And my eating disorder (bulimia) has been resurfacing but not completely. If anything, it makes me not eat for a day or so. But I'm okay now.
My therapist's name is Diana, and she seems pretty cool so far. She already helped my mom to at least acknowledge that I identify as a boy. That was a fun experience lolol.
I've been doing good in school, except math and photography but I'll survive. I've been really getting into Drama though. It's really fun to just get up on stage and forget who you are, only if it's just for a moment.
My art has improved majorly. I'm not exactly happy with it, but I'll get there. I've also finally gotten serious about my writing and am starting on a new story. I hope to work on it until I graduate. (I'm a junior, by the way.) And I'm still going to write my 'gay porn' on the side, under an assumed name. derp.
Oh, and I have a boyfriend. :D Of almost four months. (Our four-months is in four days xP) His name is Kyle. Yes, I'm dating a guy with the same name as me. Problem? lol. But anyway, he's amazing and absolutely perfect. Even though we live an hour apart from eachother, we still see eachother from time to time, but we talk everyday/night. I love him soooo much, and he's become my new best friend. He's always there to listen to and comfort me. And even though he doesn't always know what to say, he still manages to cheer me up. He's sweet, funny, and adorable as hell, and is just all around perfect. XD
So yeah, my life is just awesome.