Okay, so I'm in school right now, but today's a make-up work day. P:
So I figured I was gonna post, right? >_< WRONG. D:< My worlds aren't ready for me to post. x-x
I'm gonna check my guest worlds in a moment, but seriously. D'x I don't wanna post unless I can actually post for every character, you know. xP
So I MAY be able to post when I'm in class, buuuut... That's every other day at school. P: High School 101. But remember-- I might still be late because of the fact that I actually do my assignments in here. xP
So uh... I was pretty depressed this week. ;A; Joe got a boyfriend and started bragging about him and all... Then we had a really bad argument, and said things we didn't mean... We forgave eachother and moved on, so we're cool now. Yeah...
Then I keep having really horrible nightmares... Ever since I've started having them, I've been pretty sad lately... I don't really know why. They attack the people I love in them, and they make me think bad thoughts. They're absolutely horrifying too...
And before I started having the nightmares, I started this... Thing... Like everynight, I wake up at EXACTLY 3:08am. EXACTLY 3:08am EVERYNIGHT. Then I can't go back to sleep until like 4:30-5:00... And the whole period I'm awake, I'm freezing, and it's pitch black in my room, I get a terrible headache, and my heart's like racing/pounding. D'x
So just here lately is when the nightmares started. They show my worst fears... Like demons and such... And killing off my friends and them leaving me and all of that...
I haven't seen the Fallen Angel dude in a while... But Easter morning, I woke up and on my ankle, was like... You know when you get sunburned, and someone pokes it, and it leaves a mark. Well, it was like that on my ankle. Only not sunburned, and it said, "ALONE." in capital letters and in a really fancy cursive font. It scared me. >_<
But yeah. People haven't really been nice to me here lately either. No one really seems to care about how I'm feeling other than Ashley and Joe... I just need my bestie back to actually talk to and vent prolly, but I can't. So I'll just deal with it like I have been...
Anyway, on a good note-- The story I was talking about last post, is turning out really well. :D Okay, so I lied last post. It's not a new story, but is a re-write of SacrificeXEmber if you guys remember that one. It's getting almost completely changed, with new characters-- Except the main two, Sacrifice and Ember-- of course. I've even got a title for it. ^-^
Drawings are good, too. c: Improving, slowly but surely. Now that I have more free time on my hands, my grades and drawings and writing skills are actually going up. Not that I don't miss TheOtaku and DeviantArt. I think it's mostly because of my boredom. xDD
What the helllllll.... Our teacher is ALWAYS leaving the classroom at random points of time.... ._.
Well, I shall go see if I have anything to post anywhere, so later.~
EDIT: Oh, how I FAIL AT LIFE. Of course there's nothing for me to post... I told everyone to move on with their characters that were with mine.. x'D Okay, you guys should still do that. I don't think I'll be able to keep posting consistantly anyway, considering the school year is almost over in like a month or so and I won't have anything then...
If my co-leaders would like to post for my characters for me, that would be okay. You two know how my characters work anyway. P:
If there's anything you need to know about them, if you're gonna do it, just message me on Facebook. I'm ALWAYS on there. xP
Just really not wanting my clubs to die. xD Or anyone else's that I'm in. So yeah. Pleaseeeeee keeeeeeeepppp postingggggggg.
-Kyle, craving sex with Audrey and cupcakes. Like usual.
D'x So right now, I'm in class... I sadly can't post because of that..
I'll be going back to my dad's Thursday, but there's no computer anymore. Also, the laptop doesn't work either, so that sucks quite a lot. However, I think the internet MIGHT work, but idk. Don't get your hopes up.
Also, I've been pretty happy lately. Last weekend was the Renaissaunce Faire, and it was so much fun.~ I claimed a new Gypsy guy, named Alabastor. x'3 He was so sweet and adorable. He was EXTREMELY pale compared to his 'brothers.' I took a ton of pictures, and there's more to come whenever Jessica gets internet again.
Hehe... I think Alabastor actually liked me. >///<; He definetely acted like it...
I miss him. :c Have to wait until October to see him again. ;~; But ah well... And Ashley's man Ziri is so INFATUATED with her. c: He wants to marry her. x'DD He was funny too.
But yeah, I had a really good time. It was awesome, and totally worth all the sunburns and sores I have from it. x'D I'm really sunburned-- Back, shoulders, neck, arms, face...
If you want to see the pictures, go to facebook/add me. They're in my Mobile Uploads album--
Since I can't actually make picture albums using my phone.
Joe and I... Well, I guess we're both moving on for now. We still love eachother a lot, but it's obviously not meant to be right now or anytime soon. So we're just moving on until something good happens.
I'm not going to date anyone unless I truly have feelings for them. I refuse to settle for someone like I did to Matt, again. And they'll have to understand that a piece of my heart will always belong to Joe, no matter what happens.
He's a really good guy, you guys. He's only doing it to make me happy and I know that he loves me. ^-^
Haha... If I dated Alabastor... That would so AMAZING. >////<;; Fawking Gypsy... He's so smexiiii.
lol. I think Ziri would kiss Ashley and take her away if he could. :3 That would be so cute.
Uhhh, but yeah. Life's pretty nice right now.
I miss you guys, I really do. SO ADD ME ON FACEBOOK, darn it. x'D
Ohyeah, Make sure to post guys. Just move my characters on and deal with it. 'Cause I don't want the RPs to die. ;A;
I may get a computer sometime later, depending on my mom's mood. P: And I'm thinking of getting a summer job to pay for internet.
Oh yeah, I'm writing a new story. c: But no one's read it yet except for me. It's just something I'm working on in my boredom, since I can't write in LiamXTrip. :C
My drawings are getting better... FINALLY. 8D Too bad no one can see those either... ;A; Welllll, maybe on facebook... Maybe I can take pictures of them and such. Idkkkkk. But yeah. I've improved on anatomy, and face structure. Also with coloring and character ideas. As well as hairstyles. :3
Once I get a new phone. My phone's internet finally went down, and now I've been using my mom's phone for facebook and stuff. However, I should be getting my new one pretty soon, if not today.
Anywayyyyyy. I'm gonna go bug the hell out of my friend Autumn until next hour when I can slap the fawk out of Nyk for poking my sunburns this morning. >D
Alright. Until I come back/Am able to post, my Co-Owners shall take over as Owner. Any characters that are interacting with mine can either wait (though I don't reccommend it) or move along/go with the flow. Basically, just move my characters along.
So here goes-
-Evil Angel- LoVeRsPaIn.
-Bloody Rose Caf'e- LoVeRsPaIn.
-Xbeth's Modelling Agency- Wellll... That one's small, so you guys will be okay. P:
I have my reasons for choosing these people. ^-^
Any clubs that I'm joined into, if you're interacting with my character, please just move along and go without me.
Thank you guys, because I know you'll understand.
Tonight I'm leaving my dad's for good.
Life is going completely downhill.
Unless you have me on facebook, you probably won't hear from me much. Yeah. I'm more than likely losing my computer, until the summer so I can save up money to buy a laptop and internet for myself.
This is probably goodbye.
I don't know when I'm going to be able to post again, or even scan anything again, but so far, it's not looking good.
I'm sorry for the sudden leave, I really am. I didn't expect this to happen, honestly.
So if you want to talk to me, add me on facebook.
I still have internet on my phone, that's how I'm able to get on Facebook. Once I get my new phone, I may even be able to post with that too... We can hope, at least.
Also, you can E-mail me as well.
Message me for my phone number, or my mom's number. My phone is disconnected, but I'll let whoever wants it know when I get it working.
I'm only staying with my mom until my dad gets his own place and job and everything straightened out.
I don't know anything about what's going on. I don't know...
Life is going to hell and I can't stop it.
I love you guys, I want you to know that. You've made my life worth living and I hope you remember that.
-Cancer, My Chemical Romance.
Today went slightly better. And by that, I mean, no it didn't.
Well, I woke up to hearing my dad tell my grandmother how much of a slut I am. 'Cause that's cool.
Basically did chores all day until I cleaned the entire house while putting up with his verbal abuse.
We argued more, and I had a mental breakdown. We decided to go for a walk. I told him that my ankles were messed up-- He didn't believe me.
You see, I have really small ankles and they just barely support my fatass. So I can't walk very far. So we walked for a while, and I fell. Got back up, and I sprained my left one. Then kept walking andddd...
I got freaking hit by a car.
Yeah. The driver fell asleep at the wheel and woke up when he hit me. He was really upset and offered to drive me to the Hospital, since he hit my side. He bruised me up pretty bad. I have a really huge bruise from my ribs down to my hip on my right side, and I had to pop my knee back into place, but otherwise, I'm alright. I can't walk that well though. I'm kind of limping around...
But I didn't go to the hospital-- Apparently my dad didn't want me to go for whatever reason, so I didn't go. I forgave the driver, after all, he was sincerely upset.
Got home, cooked dinner for the family and slept.
I've learned to not carry emotions around my family anymore after today. I give up. After the mental breakdown, I really havent said much to anyone there. So it doesn't matter.
So I'm not upset. Just reallllllly in pain...
I don't know how I'm going to survive school tommorow...
Well, I'm off to go write for Ashley. And thanks for the support guys. It's friends like you that make life worth living.