Therapy for the broken
You know it's hard but theres always a way..
- Created By Blood Moon Wolf
Family matters... *sighs*
*sighs*
My mamaw's brother James died today this morning...
Dear lord, I wish he hadnt, Every moment its like damn...
My mamaw is heart broken...
Im Hungry as Eff!
I'm So fucking Hungry..
I havent ate since like fucking 12 this morn, Or was that 11, I dont pay attention to this shit. I woke up my grandpa to try to get him up to get Soda, or Pop from Wal-mart but of course its a no. Next I'm just going to ask him to give my mamaw the money and we go get Subway Sandwhiches, She must be starving.. She hasnt ate a thing I dont think, She never eats at all... She gave me her Tortilla Chips from our Mexican resteraunt and I scarfed them down like the Animal I am. But I am terribly Hungry, tired, Exhausted and i want to cry.
I've been used as a cats walk way, Raven, Alice and Misto all have walken on me and my laptop. But they're so cuddly when its so cold. I'm thankful for them and they dont mind my Vanilla Body Spray. ha!
Also I got called Beautiful and Tristan said I didnt look horrible. Because I was using my Ipod for a mirror and I growled that I looked Horrible. And he said I didnt.
I want my Mamaw home now... I'm so fuckin' Hungry I think I'll just die from the hunger, And for the past days I've only been living on Diet Mnt. Dew, Half bags of Sunchips, Tortilla Chips & Jalepeno Cheddar and Sour cream Dip and Milk.
I feel so weak.... And so unlike me... And to top it I keep getting in Fights with CJ.. *sighs exhaustedly* I wish it would just go away..
Yup Its official.
Yup its official, I love my Reading teacher coz' I can relate to her so much.
Shes so much alike me, i showed her a Song I made and alot of people liked it.
And its official, I DISSAPOINT CJ. D:
Now Im going to beg for forgiveness because I sort of cussed at my Grandpa under my breath.. *sighs*
I want Subway.. >.>
X3
Mood; Happy-ish
Listening to: 3's by MSI.
Time: 6:52 PM
Hey Everyone.
Dont know how much time I got.
So I'll make this Quick! Sort of.
Been okay so far, I'm going to try to get a HIM messanger bag and ect. And Bracelets. Pshh. I think its amazing, 5$ is not bad for a HIM messanger Bag and 100 bracelets for 5$. Not Bad Not Bad. So I'm going to talk my lovely grandpa into it. XD
Hopefully he says yes. xD
But I really need to try saving up money.. *sighs* I need to buy Christmas presents! D:
And Im still looking for stuff to Buy. WTF>
My Papaw's not home yet. Again a WTF moment.
Cutting Addiction
I have realized resently I am still very much in love with Cutting.
I miss cutting alot.
I want to cut so much...
I tried yesterday.
I was playing around with Scissors yesterday and I cut my leg open by accident.
I hate to see things, My body is against me but my head is with me.
"I am my heart’s undertaker. Daily I go and retrieve its tattered remains, place them delicately into its little coffin, and bury it in the depths of my memory, only to have to do it all again tomorrow."
"It is not seen as insane when a fighter, under an attack that will inevitable lead to his death, chooses to take his own life first. In fact, this act has been encouraged for centuries, and is accepted even now as an honorable reason to do the deed. How is it any different when you are under attack by your own mind?"
"What's the big fucking deal? Lots of amazing people have committed suicide, and they turned out alright."
"I can explain myself: If you want to be safe, walk in the middle of the street. I’m not joking. You’ve been told to look both ways before crossing the street, and the sidewalk is your friend, right? Wrong. I’ve spent years walking sidewalks at night. I’ve looked around me when it was dark, when there were men following me, creeping out of alleyways, attempting to goad me into speaking to them and shouting obscenities at me when I wouldn’t, and I suddenly realised that the only place left to go was the middle of street. But why would I risk it? Because the odds are in my favour. In the States, someone is killed in a car accident on average every 12.5 minutes, while someone is raped on average every 2.5 minutes. Even when factoring in that, one, I am generously including ALL car-related accidents and not just those involving accidents, and two, that the vast majorities of rapes still go unreported […] And, thus, this is now the way I live my life: out in the open, in the middle of everything, because the middle of the street is actually the safest place to walk."
