This is a site about my life, how boring it is and how wonderful I wish it could be. This is also a site about writing, for sometimes I think that writing is the only thing that keeps me alive.

catching up.

Hello to one and all. Sorry I haven't posted in a while. Things have been really busy. I am now a sophmore in high school, I had a short trip to the ER(asthma attack), my best friend's in the hospital and my seven year old cousin had surgery yesterday to have her face put back together after a tree limb fell on her. Other than that, things are going good. It's actually really odd, so many things are going bad at the moment, and yet I'm pretty happy. I don't know if I'm just resilent or crazy. But yeah, school is school. I was hoping this year might show signs of a few new friends or a boyfriend but so far, everything is pretty much the same as it was, even though it's different. Oh well. School only started two weeks ago, so there's still plenty of time. I have geometry,honors english,U.S. history,lunch and spanish II this semester and I like all my classes. My friends are still my friends and everything's looking up right now, even though my world is coming down around me. Like I said I don't know if I'm resilent or whatever. My random thought for today is: blue spiders and silver webs sounds pretty, like a song title or something. I need to give EVanescence a phone call....later people.

Long time...no see.....my bad.

Hi, I am SO SO sorry about not posting for almost 4 months!!!!!!! Here's an overview of what I've been doing:
1)Got over my crush on Cody
2) Was a bridesmaid at my cousin's wedding. I saw true love, had my first champagne,sips of mimosa and a wine cooler, and had my frist slow dance with my new cousin-in-law to a really long James Taylor song....it was fun.
3) Had my first kiss, not on the lips but on my jawline, kinda awkward positiong for a first kiss, I still don't know if it was a kiss. One of my guy friends was hugging me and then I felt something warm and soft press on my jaw joint. He walked away and I spent the rest of the day in a happy daze. So, yeah. Go figure.
4)I finished out my freshman year of high school with straight A's on my final exams. It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be.
5) Started helping a total stranger learn stuff about the Catholic faith and she is now my best friend.
6)I was a junior leader at jr.conservation camp. I had to watch about 25 kids and get to camp activities. It was fun. I saw all my camp friends, fell in love,fell out of love,cried a little and had a good time. It was great.
7)My brother went to Europe through most of July and I got to be an only child.
8)Went to Sandstone falls with best friend mentioned in #5. Had a fun time and took lots of good pictures. Maybe I should become a photograhper.....I'll have to think about that one.
9)Went on a missionary trip with a group from church. Painted railings, picked up wet drywall(that stuff is hard to get a grip on...), hammered out a few nails, joked around with my friends,made fun of Alex for being a garden Knome(long story how that joke came about) and realized that the little things I think are going wrong are nothing in comparison to someone whose home is litterally coming down around them.
10)I am right now visiting family and I promise to post more on here ok?
My random thought for today is:cheese crackers make good decorations, they're multi-seasonal XD. Ta-ta for now!!!!!

Twists, turns and tears.

My title basically sums up my life since I last posted on here. So yeah on Good Friday we got a call saying that my great aunt was going to the hospital. Then a little while later we got a call saying that she had been diagnosed with congestive heart failure. I thought she was going to die, even though I had this feeling that I knew it wasn't the end for her. I spent most of the day crying and hellping my mom pack up her clothes. The next day we drove up to my grandpa's house and we stayed the night there and we went back home the next day, without mom.She's staying up there to take care of my great aunt(who came home the Tuesday after Easter). She'll be back after my cousin's wedding which is two weeks from today. So yeah that was the tears part. Right now its just me my brother and my dad, that's the twist part, I never saw it coming.
The turn part is that I've been infected with this little disease called L-O-V-E to a guy in my history class. I don't even know him, I just know his name, which is Cody. I catch him looking at me and smiling sometimes in class and I like the way he looks at me. I don't know if he likes me, but I hope he does. Hopefully he doesn't play me like the dude did earlier this year. I'm hopeful though.
My random thougth for today is: rock out cold, harsh, brutal world that is strangely beautiful. Love yall!

Hey.

Hey those bouts of random depression have stopped since I got over my heartbreak and now everything is going good. Holy Week has begun so I'm going to be spending most of my evenings this week at church which is alright with me. Any time spent in the prescence of the Lord is not wasted. So I'll post again soon. Four day week at school and then spring break! Yay!!!!!!

LIfe is up, life is down.

Hey how are you doing? I'm okay, just my life has been up and down. For almost all of February,and some of this month, I've been plagued with bouts of random depression that leave me feeling hopeless. But for the last few days they've been becoming more and more scattered, which is good. I'm doing well in all my classes and the weather's warm for once. Its hard to believe that last year I was that sheltered girl who thought she'd seen all of life and still wanted more. Boy, has that changed. Ever since I started high school, its been a whirlwind of emotions,expierences,laughs,tears,ups,downs and self-discovery. Now I only have about two more full months of my freshman year and the time between now and college is looking sickeningly short. But I know I can't worry about it to much just now because I have other things to get through before I start to worry.Yeah in case you couldn't tell I'm in one of my bouts of depressiong right now. I mean I just feel like theres no point.No point in my even exsisting. I know its horrible for me to say that but its true. My random thought for today is: I don't know why I'm not content, I just want a little more than I already have.