I have to give this context, so spoilers if anyone hasn't yet watched episode 11 of Terror in Resonance:
I don't really post about anime I've watched on here like, ever, but I feel like I need to get this out of my system. I have never once had a deep emotional connection to any anime before, no matter how much it paralleled whatever situation I happened to be in at the time I watched it. For the past few months, I have been watching Terror in Resonance to the point of obsession. The finale aired last Thursday and I can tell you that that ending pretty much broke the whole fandom emotionally.
I don't even know why, but for some reason, I really connected with Twelve emotionally. The scene where he, Lisa, and Nine played together and acted like happy, normal teenagers was what gave me hope that the ending wouldn't involve anyone's death. That hope was dashed when we see Twelve shot through the heart by the American forces eager to cover up their involvement in the whole Haneda airport debacle. It honestly came completely out of nowhere for me. I figured hey, they're surrendering peacefully, they'll get jail time maybe but they will get out due to extenuating circumstances and everything will sort of be fine. When I saw Twelve get shot down, dying literally without even knowing what hit him, I physically broke down. A fit of uncontrollable sobbing right in the middle of my college's lobby with at least five people staring at me. It hurt me like I had just watched someone close to me die. I don't cry at funerals, or even at stuff like a sad movie, but I BAWLED. Of all things, a fictional character's death had such a profound impact on me that I did something I hardly ever do.
This response is honestly really surprising to me, because I feel so distraught over it, and how the ending was handled. I felt the death was merely done for the shock value which is a really cheap and lazy way to grab a waning audience. This response has led me to draw my feelings out, I have at least five or six pages in my sketchbook filled with Terror in Resonance fanart, some for Tumblr, some for here. I have never been this hurt by an anime and I honestly don't know what I should even do with it.
~Lumi
