My life feels like nothing ever changes...
4:30 wake up
6:40 go to school
8:00 school starts
1st period
2nd period
3rd period
4th period
5th period
6th period
3:00 go home
I've been doing this almost every day for about 10 years.
Nothing ever really suprises or excites me, even if my schedule is changed because some one is sick or if i'm going on a trip. I hate it if I get mixed up in other people's affairs (even if the person is close to me). I don't feel like anyone close to me, like someone I would give my life for. I've never felt giddy if a guy kissed me or felt emotionally moved if I thought that a guy liked me or when my guy friends want me to do anything sexual with them (I just say no).
The main thing I ever feel towards anybody is anger. I felt mad at my mom when she went to the hospital. If she wasn't so stuborn and went to the doctors when she first started to feel sick then things wouldn't be so bad now. I was mad at my dad when he gave me $60 instead of $50 like we had decided because We will be needing all the money that we have for mom's medical bills. I was mad at my guy friend Jesse when he found out that his girlfriend was cheating on him, but he wouldn't break up with her. He knew that she had a history of cheating on other guys, yet he still thought that he loved her. I got mad at my friend when she was crying because she thought that she might be pregnant after getting drunk with a bunch of guys and waking up naked. She knew that she gets crazy and strips off her clothes when shes drunk.
I'm just kinda tired of living life like it feels like it's never changing.
P.S. I'm sorry to people for my ranting :3
