What is going on inside my brain?

Hello! Today I am here just to mindlessly rant, honestly.

I'm still married, so no worries :P I got a part time job so I can do things but it's super flexible and I think that I'll like it a lot. I want to ease myself back into work but I definitely feel like it will be exciting to do it again.

It's funny because one of my goals for when we were married was for my now husband to eat and sleep consistently and well, but I didn't realize his goal for me was to finally be able to relax. I will admit, it's been so nice but also at the same time I feel like I haven't been contributing to anything aside from work around the house, which honestly isn't my forte aside from cooking.

Also, my car is almost FINALLY ready for me to drive around in!!! I've honestly missed it and also just having my own car to run around in, even if it's old it's still reliable :)

I'm feeling strangely productive and not at the same time these days lol but I guess that's okay for now. For some reason I keep having a sense of urgency but that may just be because my life has always been so hectic until now, who knows?

I need to register for CPR classes but I was told it would be payed for but online it says I need to pay $40 so I haven't done that yet and will call my supervisor later on and figure out what's going on, but for now, I'm just on here. The dishes also need to be washed, but I really don't want to do that either.

Hahahaha I guess you can say that I am procrastinating

I've recently gotten addicted to this kdrama, Doctors. If you like medical dramas, I highly recommend it! It's so good!!! Not only does it have actual issues you find in a drama (i.e. love triangles, people with traumatic pasts, etc) but it actually covers legitimate issues that are going on in the medical field right now. It also makes me wonder what I would have been like if I followed through and actually went into the medical field, but it also reminds me of what I didn't like about it too. Haha it's been interesting and surprising that I find myself incorporating aspects of it into my own life and past experiences. Sometimes kdramas cover issues that are things that I've actually had to deal with, such as always being told what to do from my parents and the pressure to live in their shadow and follow their footsteps.

Maybe it's because I'm married and moved away and everyone else is so busy back in my hometown, but Mom hasn't pressured me to go back to school to become a nurse or something anymore. Of course, I haven't told her that I would be working part time for a Recreational Center as a playroom attendant, but I'm sure that she'll take it worse than Dad haha Oh well. She likes to think of a new life plan for me every day. Well, it used to be like that anyways. I know both of them just want me to be stable and earning the big bucks, but I need to also discover who I am at the same time.

Ha, discovering myself. I'm convinced that is a life-long process. I have no idea who I am lol but I'm working on it. According to the Myers Briggs, I am an ENFP. And according to all of the funny things that I find on Pinterest and Tumblr about ENFPs, I can agree with them for the most part. It's funny. I learned in Psychology that they aren't meant to put you in a box, just to show what your natural tendencies are, but I can definitely tell that I have had some nurture and nature things that have influenced who I am today. I know that I am unique, but it's so funny seeing how relatable those things can be. I guess even though we're all unique, and I definitely take pride in being my own person and being unique, we as humans still crave community of some sort.

Well, I guess that's all for now. I'll be back again soon. Thanks for reading this, who ever you are. You're great!

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