I hate politics.

No. Seriously. I remember when I was in high school, my History teacher had mentioned in class that there are three things in this world that you should never bring up and they were religion, politics, and...I can't remember the third one. Anyways, I can talk religion. Sure, it is a touchy subject, and there may be a clash in beliefs and blah and it's okay...well, much more bearable compared to politics. Ugh politics = not my thing. At all. AT ALL. (WARNING: this may become a post where I'm just ranting and bashing on the government. just saying)
Religion and Politics. Okay, so it's not a good idea to bring those things up even when alone, how much more when they're combined together? I.e. whatever the crap this health care plan is. Ah yes, based on the way I'm beginning to string my words it does seem that I'm a bit TO'd at the fact that this goes against our freedom of religion. What in the world would our founding fathers think if they even knew this was happening! Okay, so I guess for the general public there is more to consider than that, since the economy is down and money is an issue, but really? Making EVERYONE who pays taxes have to pay for this? WHATEVER HAPPENED TO CONSCIENCE? WHATEVER HAPPENED TO RELIGION? HAVE YOU NO CONSIDERATION WHATSOEVER?
I get it. You can't make everyone happy, but at his point some people are beginning to change who should be number one on their hit list (and no, I am not referring to the music kind). Despite the fact that you can't please everyone, you still have to abide with their standards and somehow make it work, not just slamming on whatever you think should be the proper way and therefore making it so. That's the road to dictatorship, not democracy.
We have our rights.
We have our voice.
You have ears, correct? THEN LISTEN.

The Reason.

http://koreanwavetimes.blogspot.com/2012/04/shinee-reason-lyrics-translation-in.html

I love this song. It's probably my favorite one on their album: Sherlock. If you don't know yet, this is the kpop band, SHINee. (If you recall from a previous post, I let you all in on my Asian crush? Yeah, he's a member of this band. Anyways, yeah. I thought maybe I should share what I'm currently listening to over and over.
But. Now that we're on this topic, I must say, my little sister is the funniest thing ever. We were watching videos of SHINee on youtube (What? They're amusing. :3 ) and anyways, I kept on commenting on how funny and oddly talented Onew was, and then she was like "Oh no! You say you like Key, but secretly, you like Onew!" and just the fact that this sort of assumption would even flow out from her mouth causes me to burst into laughing convulsions. Honestly, don't tell me that she's going to become a ridiculous romantic too when she gets older! She's so silly. ^_^ On a side note: I really hope she doesn't get sucked into teen blah love triangle drama that Hollywood seems to feasting on...nah, she's too cool for that. ;P

Anyways. A lot of things have been running through my mind lately, and there have been many insane thoughts on so many different levels that have developed a little office cubical inside my brain. Silly files.
I've come to realize that some things are easily done when I'm away from home at college, and some other things are better done at home. Today though, it was so weird. I had a meltdown and actually asked something aloud (I'm not even sure to who, whether it was directed to GOD or just to myself). I said "Why is it so much easier at Franciscan?" and that honestly shocked me. I then began to contemplate on it and as I was doing so, frustration just took over and I broke down crying. I don't know. It was like, stupid feelings of doubt and self worth and other insecurities that haunt the back of our minds I guess. Maybe because the atmosphere is so much more different and unique at my university that it makes being out in the real world, well...it puts things in a different perspective. I'm able to see a lot more clearly, but I guess being home for so long is starting to dig up old problems I used to have with myself, and that bothers me a bit.
I have to be stronger. Fortunately, during my breakdown, I was trying to adjust my mp3 to some song, but it automatically went to "Yellow" by Coldplay. And I was listening to that song, I thought of GOD. And I thought: "Your reward shall be great in Heaven." "Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted." and then, I really payed attention to the lyrics of the song, and how it says how the person singing did all of these things for someone, and how they said "it's true, look how they shine for you." And then, I gradually began to feel better, because I remembered that GOD has done all of this and so many wonderful things for me, and that I should be happy and never forget to count my blessings. Life comes at you fast, but the point is to focus on GOD, and He'll take care of you.
Whenever I think about it now, my high school art teacher had given us all advice before we graduated, and she said "Do what you love and the money will follow." And you know, that's basically just another way of what I had said in the previous sentence. I love GOD. Therefore, I need only pay attention to HIM, and everything else will follow. :)

P.S. I'm going to try to upload another picture. Again, this is another one taken from the internet. I wonder if this will work this time.

What's the difference?

No. Seriously. What's the difference between a draft and a submission on Otaku fan art? I'm new to this whole thing and so I don't really know what I'm doing! (HELP ME PLEASE!!!) >.<

On the upside, I now know how to upload my stuff. I don't know what it is, but I've had an account for so long now and I'm just now starting to experiment with all of the other things theOtaku has to offer!

Meaning to say, that I have a draft! And I thought that a draft was for only your view, and published is for public view, so I clicked on draft but then it still be viewed? So what does that make publishing do? And then, when I went to see if I could upgrade to having it published, I had no idea how to do that. I really don't know what I'm doing. Experimentation time! I've got to get my Stein face on! (Yes, Soul Eater reference :) ...now, allow me to dissect you...mwahahaha)
But seriously, if someone knows how to do this or any suggestions or some sort of commentary or advice (whatever you know, I'm sure it's more than me) on how to go about with this feel free to leave a comment, or PM, or brain wave, or whatever is in your capabilities. :)
Oh, and check out my fan art too!!
Thank you!!! :D :D :D

For the Record...

Okay, I just have to include this. First of all, this is not my photo, I found it online and absolutely love him uhh I mean, it. (But yes, I find him very attractive...celebrity Asian crush much? Well.........) Anyways, the real point of this was actually to see how the picture will look like once I embed an image, since I've never used this part of the posting thing on this website yet...I honestly don't know why either, I guess I never really just paid much attention to it. Another thing is that I guess now you all know who my Asian celebrity crush is. Yup, Key. (Kim Kibum) Actually, that wasn't even the main thing I wanted to point out, but I bet a few of you out there are amused and are laughing at me right now, but you know, whatever. He's adorable, even you (whoever you are) have to admit at least that. Well, I don't exactly know if you get that vibe from this particular picture, but yeah.
The MAIN thing that I really wanted to point out in the picture was the awesome hat he's wearing!!! It looks so awesome and I want it! I wish to know where he got it...but it would be fantastic if someone just gave it to me for a holiday or just for the sake of it being a day of the week or something like that. It could even be a "congratulations on breathing!" gift or something like that...hmm...if Key were the one to give me the hat, I guess that would be even better...
*shakes head rapidly to snap self out of it*
Anyways, sleep. Now. I'm really starting to lose it, and now you all now all this extra information about me. Great...LoL

I have a "brain" but sometimes it becomes "Brian."

You know, I think I've become more right brained like normal now that my brain isn't experiencing extreme stress and sleep deprivation syndrome. A.K.A. college. But concerning the title, seriously, it took me forever to finally type down B-R-A-I-N instead of B-R-I-A-N. Good grief, it's amazing what the little things like order can do to a person's language...not that I speak English anyways (why yes, I am quite fluent in Gibberish). Anyways, yeah, back to the point. But first, allow me to explain that the left brain is in charge if the right side of the body, and that the right brain is in charge of the left side of the body. The left brain is associated with things such as mathematics, science, detail, etc. and the right brain is associated with seeing the big picture, art, creativity, stuff like that. I can't remember exactly music, but I thought it was mainly left, but involves both. Now back to my story: I was putting my contacts in, and during college, it was the weirdest thing, because it was so much easier for me to put in my right contact compared to my left, and that's not the usual case. Looking back on it now, it's probably because I was exhausting the use of my left brain, what with the math and science classes I had....I think I nearly exploded (Thank you skull and skin for preventing spontaneous brain dismemberment). Now that I have a chance to be at home, I can see my creative side coming back. Also, today, I was putting in contacts, and it reverted to the normal thing. I had quite a bit of a challenge with my right eye, but my left was perfectly fine. Maybe it's the break (THANK GOD.) and that I get a chance to rest more compared to those "college nights." Unfortunately, my sleeping schedule is quite outta whack, but it's okay I guess. The sleep deprivation is sparking the creativity. The hallucinations help as well...no wonder the artists in Europe would drink Absenth. It supposedly gives them hallucinations which would spark creativity...I guess that's something I have to try out in the future. Hmmm...
Anyways, yes, that is my theory. I'm also going back to playing all the instruments I can get my hands on, but of course mainly the piano (it's my first love, after all). Along with this, I find myself with my sketch book. I love how sometimes I can just see images in the paper and I just draw them out how I see it and then go about with it as I please, it's great. Another thing is that I feel I work best at night...but then again, the moon has been out for the past few nights, and it has a habit of shining through my window. Well, you know what they say about full moons-that's when the crazies are out-and let me tell you, yes we are. ;) But not every night is a full moon, but I guess psychologically you can experience a certain degree just when the moon is out, and that it doesn't have to be entirely full. Anyways, there goes my rambling, which might I point out, is actually happening once again. There have been several times where I just stare at this Post Body and think to myself "I know I have things to say, so why isn't anything happening??" so yes, I am quite happy with this post. It's been awhile I guess since I've just come up here and typed my thoughts that didn't have to with some event that triggered some thought, then again, I guess that's what the majority of my posts are hahaha ummm nevermind?
I guess I need to really sleep now, especially if I plan to get up at a decent time tomorrow er, today, and attend Mass...it's already 4:07 a.m. Meh. But I'm glad this happened, and hopefully you'll hear from me again, soon. Thank you!