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i took it off because it doesn't feel original sorry........

compare

keep comparing yourself to me,
if me is what you want to be
really i can't stop you
though it brings a lot of pain to my mind
why would someone want to suffer as much as i?
you will find out that you want to go back
it's never too late but it's hard to crawl out of a hole
sometimes you're so close but you get pulled back down
your skin and nails get wasted.
your blood and tears mix together.
your smile becomes something rather interesting
leaving you thinking or misunderstanding
happiness? is that what you want
if so turn around and forget about me
all you will hear from me is negativity
4 times sometimes and maybe not at all
when i smile i think of blood,
sometimes it's tempting to lose myself to sin
but i try to resist
a lot of times i win
but the rest i lose, next thing you know
you're bleeding, crying and laughing all at once.
care for me? make me fall in love with you
break my heart
yeah that's the order more common than anything else
i posses the darkness and light of the world
but what keeps it in me?
i wish i could let it all out
but last time i suffered a big loss
a memory came back and this time i defended myself
but that memory did not understand and took me as a friend
though it's how it worked out i'm ok with it
i will try to keep moving though getting held back
the future is the only thing left to live
the present is now,
so what is my future?
should i just find peace with death?
or should i suffer with her sister life?

my heart

sometimes i think i don't have one.
but sometimes i smile and i feel it beating
though i wish it was like that forever
i can't be because i'm not that good at life
or to me that's what i think
what are my thoughts anyways?
my negativity has become the control of my personality

like that man

Like that cursed man
i will take my eyes out
so i can no longer see
all this shame that haunts me
all this shame that is me
so ignorance will protect me
though it's protection won't last forever
it will be enough for now

why?

you lie to me
why?
i don't understand?
i'm freaking begging but
you just don't tell