Welcome, friends! This is basically my life update world, where I pour all the crap going on in my life at the moment. I don't expect people to give this place much attention, to be honest. Well, make yourself at home, anyway!

Look! A baby!

The evening of my last update, I was informed that my sister was going to be induced, and she had her daughter that night. Just wanted you all to know.

It's Been Awhile

I haven't posted here in a good while, ey?? A few months, I believe. Well, lots of things have happened since then. Too much, even, to cover in this meager post, so I'm just gonna skip over the small stuff. Well, lesse, where to begin... as, per usual, we're drowning financially. It's been the cause of lots of events since my last update. Oh, my sister is gonna give birth any day now! That's pretty big news, yeah?? She's super nervous, as I figure she would be :'D I kinda am too. I mean, my brother already has a son, with another on the way, but this is my sister's first. And, honestly, I'm closer to my sister than I am my brother. Anyhoo - what else?? I'm trying to do this in order, but my memory is crappy... Oh, forget it - I'll do it as the memories pop up.

Most recently, my dad's dad is going to force us out of home so he can sell it. He paid for it in the first place, and I guess he's been having to pay tax on it cause we're dirt poor. I dunno why he thought it'd be fine to buy us a house that was way out of budget range, that was really a stupid move on his part. I hate him, you know. I refuse to refer to him as my grandfather. He's not family to me. He's treated my father like garbage for the past 9 years. I'm sick of him. I wish he'd leave us alone. What kind of father forces his son out of home, just because he's poor? He's like a loan shark, nagging my dad to pay him back for the house day after day. We have no money. We have no means to obtain money. That's why we needed help paying for the house, in the first place! He'd really rather see his son homeless, than let go of this supposed debt?? It's not as if he's hurting for money!! He owns multiple properties, which he leases out, and he's a small business owner. He's pretty much set.

Anyway, enough talking about him. My friend is in a rather bad situation, so I asked my parents if she could live with us. With how our own situation is, I feel pretty confident they'll say no, but I have to do something for her. She's been such a good friend of mine for 5 years. She deserves better than where she's at. I just... want to be of more use than giving her advice over Facebook. She's a wonderful, kind, funny, and incredibly talented girl, but her family treats her like trash. Maybe she wouldn't want me posting about her situation like this, but I have to get this out there. I have to get it off my chest. I'm scared for her. I'm afraid one day she's going to kill herself, and I can't lose her. I try everyday to let her know how important she is to me, but I don't know if it's getting through to her. For the time being, I feel like it's simmered down a little, but I have no way of being sure. I'm not there with her.

Aside from that, there's also some good news! I have a 3DS, finally!! Graciously donated by the older brother of my sister's fiancee!! If you'd like, we can exchange friend codes! I haven't got any games for it now, what with being poor and all, but I've still got some of my old DS games to play. That's enough for now. Aaand, I feel like that's all I got to say for now. Just wanted to quickly update anyone who was interested in reading. By for now C:

My first con!

Next month, I'll be attending my first con: A-Kon!
My sister and her fiancee offered (more like decided) to take me with them, and I'm pretty excited! But, I'm also very nervous. With my social-anxiety, those crowds are gonna be hard to brave. I'll have people I trust with me, though, so if I start to get anxious, I know they'll have it covered. I won't be cosplaying, by the way. Cosplay is too expensive XD

Some advice, please?

do you think it would be a dumb thing to set up a gofundme thing to pay off my families debt to my grandfather?
we need about $80,000. he payed for our house, because we literally had no money. our lease was up on our previous house, so if he hadn’t we would have been homeless. my dad was very grateful and surprised that he’d do something like that, as my grandfather was basically the worlds shittiest dad to him when he was younger.
thing is, we never imaged my grandfather would be so persistent and pressing about paying him back. my parents are unemployed, and trying very hard to find work. they spend all day putting in applications - they only occasionally get called back. my grandfather constantly (and i mean like once or twice everyday) calls asking if they’ve found a job yet. since they don’t, my grandfather works my parents to the bone, and pays them nothing for it. My dad has bad knees. Standing up and standing in general is painful for him. My mom has Spinal Stenosis - her back is in constant pain. I hate to see them come home each day in so much pain. I’d love to get a job, but I have severe social anxiety. If I’m not accompanied by someone familiar to me, and even in some situations when I am, I have panic attacks. My Grandfather has the power to evict us from this house, and has threatened it many times. We don’t have the money to rent a house, we can hardly even feed ourselves. Would it really be such a bad thing to set up a gofundme?


So, for a few months now, I've had this thing called tinnitus. It's essentially when you're ears ring constantly - but sometimes it's not ringing. Sometimes is a roaring, buzzing, or whoosing sound. It's agonizingly annoying. The medicine for it is kinda expensive, and I can't really go to the Doctor for it, also for lack of funds - so my mom tried to see if there was a cheaper kind at the dollar store. Turns out there is. It's these weird little diamond shaped chalky pills that I have to let dissolve under my tongue. They're taking a little bit longer than I'd like to work, but in the end as long as I have them, it's better than not. I've only had them for two days, but I'm really hoping they start working soon. Like, really hoping. This constant ringing is maddening.