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Lost, and on Hiatus

Two days ago, I lost my mother. Cancer was too much. Chemo wasn't enough. I understand I haven't done much as far as drawing or photography lately, but I HAD planned to start up again...and now I'm planning to just...take a break from trying to be creative with a pen/pencil or camera. I don't even have much inspiration to write my fanfictions right now. I will be in a period of mourning. Please be understanding. Thank you in advance.

On Hiatus: Sincere apologies.

For those who are subscribed to me and read these, I regret to inform you all that I will be on hiatus for a while. Things aren't too swell right now. We finally got internet at the new house, yes, but a lot of other things have been going on as well.

With us still not fully settled in yet, there's a lot of stress, and sure as luck would have it...not long after moving in, we had to say our goodbyes to a dear family member. I know that many don't consider pets as family, but there are also a fair amount of people who do. We are some of those who consider them to be family. Our nine year old German Shepherd, Sasha, had to be put down because her Degenerative Myelopathy had progressed so much that she wasn't able to properly walk anymore, and was so numb that she didn't know she needed to urinate, so she was holding it in, thus causing kidney problems. A day before we took her to get euthanized, she looked at us with sad, tired eyes as if she were trying her best to tell us she didn't want to struggle anymore and was ready...so we took her in the next day. My mother, stepfather and myself were all there when it happened, and I need to clarify...I thought it was hard to lose a pet when you didn't get the chance to say goodbye, but it is far more difficult when you're right there saying goodbye to them, and you see the moment they leave this world in their eyes.

Sasha was one of my best friends, and at present, I am still thoroughly heartbroken that she is no longer with us in the physical world. I know she's no longer suffering, and for that I am grateful, but the selfish side of me wishes she were still here.

On top of that, I've also just recently gotten into a new relationship, and I mean COMPLETELY new...and I find myself already second guessing it, for reasons I won't mention...I can only hope I'm over thinking.

I'm far beyond stressed out right now, so please bear with my absence. I know I keep saying I'll announce the winners to the contest, but while I'm in such a spot, I don't feel like I would put enough time and thought into my decisions, and I want to be completely alert for it. So please be patient.

Again, my most sincere apologies...I will get back to things the moment everything is completely cleared up and I'm thinking straight again.

~A~


So long, precious darling. I'll see you on the other side.

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