THIS IS WHERE I TALK ABOUT THINGS THAT ARE AVERAGE IN MY LIFE. REFER TO *~REGRETS~* TO HEAR ABOUT REALLY SAD THINGS FROM NOW ON THAT I REGRET DOING. ENJOY YOUR STAY!

WHYYY!?

Okee dokee, peoples...so you see, Tsumi is in school, and she has a strange school schedule. Her school has A days and B days. Well, the problem is, she doesn't have a 4th hour class to go to for her A days, and she doesn't feel like or want to talk to the people in the counseling office to get it fixed just yet, but she kind of has to. She doesn't really have a choice. But she doesn't know what to do when she gets there, and then, when she tells them, what are they going to tell her to do!? are they gonna give her a slip of paper and tell her to get it signed by the teacher of the class she selected? or are they just going to enroll her in the class and tell her where to go? This is why she hates school sometimes. She wishes she could drop out sometimes, but she so very badly wants to stay and get into college...it sucks. But anyway...other than that...Tsumi wants to know why she has to deal with boy confusion at THIS MOMENT!?!? Three guys are hitting on me. One had the courage to ask me out. The other doesn't want to get into a relationship because he thinks he will hurt me, but he's the one I like and want. And the third is her ex-boyfriend. What should I do? Why would this happen at such a bad time!?!? anyone got any ideas for Tsumi...?

Regrets...

Tsumi did something bad on Sunday. She is regretting it at the same time that she treasures it. That guy she likes who texts her nice stuff and also dirty stuff sometimes...Tsumi and him cybered. For those of you who are young and don't know what that means, nevermind it, and forget you ever read this. It was a very...intense and detailed text cyber. I'm sort of giddy that he chose to text me that way and not someone else, but I'm also regretting doing that because now I feel like I'm nothing but a toy. Some kind of whore toy for men. And not only that, but I'm afraid to face him now. I can't stand being this way! He's so...tempting. All the time. And somehow, I'm able to tempt him easily. I don't want to tell him how this is making me feel because I am afraid he might not like me anymore or he'll say I ruined the moment or something. I don't like hearing those things...that is why I wrote that song. Also because I want to be with him. I want to shove my face onto his chest and cry, and I want him to hold me close and never let me go. But it won't ever happen. And so when I think of him, my heart hurts, and I want to cry away all the pain. These are the exact words I said to my friend when we were typing to one another about what hurts us right now. But anyway...please don't think of me spitefully. If you want to call me a whore or a slut, go ahead and do it. It won't effect me in any way, because, I know it is true.
~Tsumi~

Recent Song Idea

Okay ppls, I had an idea recently for a song that is currently being written by me. Tell me what you think.

"I Want To Cry All The Pain Away" *verse 1*The love that you once showed meHas slowly faded away.Because she came along, she won,and stole it all away.It hurts, the way you treat me now,saying how it'll all be okay.I want to talk to you, it's true,but you won't let me find the words to say.*chorus*I was hurting from the beginning,it feels like there's nothing to say.If I lock myself in the darkness,then I can cry the pain away.I never thought it would happen,me yearning for you each day.I want to make myself numb on the inside,I want to cry all the pain away.*verse 2*A physical relationship,a love that is a lie.I hate you for the things we do.How dare you ask me "why?"The pain that comes from being with you,the hurt that grows inside...I wish I could be left alone...I wish that I could die...!*chorus* *bridge*Tell me, where the Hell did we go wrong?I thought you loved me, but that love's not strong.She only touched you once that dreadful day,I can't believe it's all slipping away...

I still need to write the third verse and second chorus, but...anyway...

HURTING AGAIN

*sigh* okay, so like always, Tsumi is in deep pain. She is falling for a guy who texts her a lot when she texts him first, but he keeps strutting around with this one girl who, I don't hate, but am jealous of. I can't stand to see it, to be quite honest. It hurts. Tsumi is only just now coming to terms with the fact that life is reality, and reality is life. She doesn't like that fact very much right now. It makes her go through pain. She is losing everything she loves, including pets and people. A girl recently commited suicide over break. I didn't talk to her, but I knew who she was, and the loss weighs heavily on my heart. The very next day, after this girl's viewing, one of my pets died. And I continuously forget that he will not be in his little cage when I look for him. I look into the cage, thinking he will be there, making the same annoying squeaking sound he always used to make, and then when I do look for him, he isn't there. He never will be there again. Everything is dying as of late. I don't understand why it happens anymore. And now I want to die, too. It seems so pleasant in so many ways right now...to be at peace. But don't worry. I made a promise to someone, and I intend to keep that promise to him. But until next time, farewell.
~Tsumi

alright, but not quite...

Okay everyone...Tsumi is okay. But not entirely. She lost two friends today because she had to take a serious piss. And they wouldn't leave her alone, so she said she was getting pissed off. And they called her a bitch. And are mad at her now, all because she had to piss. So Tsumi is going to NOT watch her language for a moment and say...FUCK THEM! ahem...pardon that bit of language there...I apologize. I am on my "monthly bills", or shall I just say that "Aunt Flow" came to visit...so I'm EXTREMELY IRRITABLE. Anyway...I'm not going to kill myself, and that decision is final. I made a promise, and I'm going to keep it. So don't worry anymore, my friends. I shall be okay. Well, I hope all is well with the lot of you. Tsumi loves you all.
~Tsumi~