THIS IS WHERE I TALK ABOUT THINGS THAT ARE AVERAGE IN MY LIFE. OR RANDOM THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT I THINK SHOULD BE HERE. ENJOY YOUR STAY.
- Created By Tsutsumi24
18 Years Old!!
WOW!!!
So yesterday, October 30th, I turned 18!!!! :D I'm an old lady!!! XD I want to thank the friends here that wished me a Happy Birthday, I really appreciate it. :)
I spent all of yesterday with Tyler, just enjoying my special day as an adult finally, up until around nine fourty or so when my mother finally found out about me and Ty...which is something I'm stressing about right now. See, I planned to wait a little while to tell them, you know, till I was ready...mom found out by looking through pictures on my old red phone after I had asked her to take my house key off the key chain and put it under the welcome mat for me so when I got home I could get inside the house. That's NOT how I hoped to inform her and my stepfather, but...the cat is out of the bag now, and when I get home today, I'll have to face up to it all.
Luckily for me, Tyler isn't scared of my parents anymore. He has offered to, if I get too scared and can't handle it alone, confront my parents with me. How sweet, right? :) Still....I'd rather he didn't, considering my parents HATE HIS GUTS.
I'm just a bit nervous (is actually so nervous that she has almost thrown up at the thought of dealing with her parents) about what'll be said, but I'm an adult now, and I really hope my parents will treat me as such and leave it be. Not only that, but my mother said herself, "Those are your decisions." So they shouldn't hound me about it too much...right? I hope so.
I've been drawing a lot, just so everyone knows...but I haven't had the time to post any photos. It's a long process for me now, since I have no scanner and no internet of my own on my computer, but I'll do my best to get something figured out ASAP!!! I'd very much so like to share my newer artwork with everyone here on theO! >.< When I do get art uploaded, please, feel free to comment on it and share friendly criticism!! I'd like to know what I can improve on and/or what I've done really well.
I plan to try and update on here more often, if time will allow. So please read some of my posts, okay? :)
I'm writing some songs, so, I'll post those when they're all finished!!!
Until next time!
~A~
New fanart :D <3
Ooookie dokie!!! :D
So it's been like, FOREVER since I last updated this! But, I just uploaded some new fanart!
"Walking On Air," "Army of Love," and "Yuki&Yami Chibi" are now in my portfolio. :3 You should go check them out and tell me what you think of them. :D
As for updates life-wise, well, what can I say? :D I'm happy as ever! On May 28th, Tyler and I got back together because of my best friend having an interesting conversation with him in which he revealed all of his true inner feelings about me to her without me knowing until after he had left. Later that night, he told me the truth, and we talked through our worries about getting back together, and what we wanted to do about it. I'm happy to say that we're still doing well. :)
My hair has grown out quite a bit since last summer, and I'm very excited about it! :D Soon, I'll get it re-layered while it's long, and I'll be doing the scene girl look with just my hair, no stupid extensions! :D WOO!!!
Well, there's really not much more to say, I'm doing well, and I'm very glad to be back on here! :D
~A~
Keeping in Touch...
Alrighty people....
So, Tsumi hasn't been getting onto Otaku as much as she used to since Junior year started. There's been too much going on for me to find the time. Currently, I'm busy looking for a job, and trying to figure out what I'll do in order to be able to get through summer school. Yes, summer school. This year hasn't gone as well as I had hoped.
I'm usually at friend's houses on weekends, so I have a tendency to be hanging out with them during those times, or else I'm online updating my facebook and myyearbook pages.
A lot has changed in a short amount of time. For instance, my emo style is now a mix of scene and emo. I quit one bad habit, but started smoking. That does include getting stoned every now and then, but not always. Never always. However, I have abstained from sexual activity. Ten points to *points at self* this chick right here. I still have a thing for my ex fiance, yes, but I'm working on getting over it. I've tried to branch out and look for other guys to date. It's not working out so well on account of me being a naive fool and hanging out with that ex a lot, and whenever alone with him...being the way we used to be. If anyone has heard the song "Love Song" by 311, you'll get how I'm feeling. Haha. Some other songs that describe how I feel are "Torn", "Leave Me Alone", and "Smoke" by Natalie Imbruglia, "Sober", "I Don't Believe You", and "Who Knew" by Pink, "Almost Lover" (I don't know who sings that...), and lots of other...past-love songs.
I'm an idiot. I know.
Now, for people I'm friends with on here, if you'd like to keep in touch with me more often, then look me up on facebook. I'm under the name Ari Okami. If you send a friend request to me with a personalized message letting me know who you are from on here, I'll gladly accept it.
I've been getting really deep into Dubstep, Drums n Bass, Techno, and other dance genres. But if anyone has some suggestions of different music I should look up and listen to, please let me know.
As far as drawings go, I've got over a million new ones that I need to find time to upload here. So many improvements have been made, and I'd like to share them with the world. So please put up with a wait for a while, as I need to find a way to scan and upload my pictures again.
Until next time, love always your faithful Otaku,
~Ari~
Looks update...
So this is just to update what I look like...anyway...
I think I look just lovely. :)
December...
So, it's always around this time of year, ever since March 14th of 2008 that I start getting depressed. Which is what is happening right now. See, on that March 14th, my great aunt passed away, I'm pretty sure it's something I've posted about before. Before then, we always used to get a card from her in the mail right about this time. For the past two years...that has been awkwardly different. We don't get a card in the mail from her on any occasion anymore.
Lately, every time my mom brings the mail in, I have this bad habit of looking for a card from her. Just in case. I think, "Maybe it didn't really happen. I went to someone else's funeral, not hers. She's still alive." But the card I keep hoping to see in an envelope, with her name on it, never comes. I'm fighting with myself, just trying to be happy for this time of year, because I'm supposed to be cheerful. If I get sad, my parents and friends all worry, and they begin to wonder. It's best to just let go, I'm aware of this. But I can't stop thinking about it for some reason.
Every time her memory comes to my mind, I start wanting to cry. A few minutes ago, I had to leave the classroom I am in, because I felt like I was going to start crying, and I didn't want to disrupt the class or make Ty have to fidget over my being sad. People have enough to deal with, so I'm trying not to be a bother to any of them. But this, this is killing me all over again. Just like the past two years have. It is painful, because I was close to her. It didn't matter to me that there was a huge difference in how far away we lived from each other, I still felt very close to her, and I was able to tell her everything. She was so easy to talk to, and so easy to get along with.
What kills me the most is that I had wanted to meet her, and never got the chance to. I was selfish when she was sick and in the hospital, and instead of worrying about getting out to visit her, I was worried I would miss my friend's birthday party. Remembering that, I feel like in some way, I took part in her sudden ill health. She had been improving...and as soon as that selfishness took hold on me, within a week, she was gone. Just gone. And somehow I knew that she had passed, the night it happened. I felt something, like an occurance had happened that I couldn't change, and it scared me. And I found out that very next day.
