THIS IS WHERE I TALK ABOUT THINGS THAT ARE AVERAGE IN MY LIFE. REFER TO *~REGRETS~* TO HEAR ABOUT REALLY SAD THINGS FROM NOW ON THAT I REGRET DOING. ENJOY YOUR STAY!

shaggy dog...

Hehe, so last night, Tsumi asked oka-san to cut her bangs a little for her. I made certain that she only cut them short enought to still cover my eyes and the bridge of my nose. I wear my hair like that now. In my face. Hehehe! I was called shaggy dog this morning, and honestly, I couldn't give a flying fuck what everyone else thinks of my hair. Heh. So anyway, that's a really fast thing to share. And I may be dying my hair black soon. O_o
~TsUmI~

Hoooooly library!

Okay, so lately, other than during my free time at school, I have had to wait until trips to the library to update things. It's RIDICUOUS. But, at the same time, it's so funny. I spend more time here than at home now. And I'm okay with it. It gives me something fun to do instead of just sitting at home watching Amityville Horror and getting scared crapless. Haha. I'm a wimp. But anyway. Just letting everyone know. I'm not sure how often I will continue to get on here. There is so much to be done at school, and I must succeed. For my own sake. I need to be successful! But yeah. Anyway. I guess I better go. I have some book browsing I need to do. I must study some things for my Japanese class. Bye bye.
~TsUmi~

GONE

He's gone. My ex fiance, with whom I became close to even after the engagement fell through, has moved. At very least, yes, he came in the morning just so I could say my goodbyes and get one last hug, but...it's not good enough. It's not fair. I didn't want this to happen. I wanted him to stay here. But no. Forget it now. He's gone, and I'm tired of it. All of it.
~TsUmI~

Have you ever noticed how sometimes that frightening pocket knife sitting in front of you has looked friendly to the wrist? That's what I'm noticing now.

stupid

Okay. I'm an idiot. I know it. Because I got back together with my ex fiance from SLC that had dumped me. Oh. My. Gosh. How stupid can I get? Jeez. Roido-kun is right. EVERYONE is right. i DO just jump from guy to guy. Ugh. Whatever. I have a new post on my randomness site. Tis about my new passion. And art. Hehe. Tsumi is still waiting for a magical scanner to come to her. But her art is changing. Hehehehehe.
~TsUmI~

F**k it.

My ex boyfriend is moving. Far away. In two friggin weeks. And i still...well, I still love him. We had already planned everything. Marriage through eloping together...devotion to one another...stuff like that before he dumped me. And we were starting to get close again. I had hopes. Hopes that he would realize that he does want to be with me. Because, he in fact, does. But now he's moving. And he isn't sure if it's going to be for good or just temporary. I cried when I found out. Everyone I know, everyone I'm close to, is moving far away. It hurts. Maybe it's my fault...? I don't know anymore. So I'm saying f**k it. I'm so freakin done. i dont want to be close to anyone anymore. F**K IT.
~TsUmI~