Um
Hey
I'm still here just lurking. This site is so dead, amiright?
Well um... Here's the situation. My brother and I got our technology earlier than we should have, and that resulted in us getting grounded until we completely cleaned our room.
So we cleaned it. And it took my mother and father all day to get off their lazy asses and go check it. Mind you my sisters room and basically the rest of the house is also fucking trashed. But guess our room is more important :T
So when it hit like 7:15, my mum got up and checked it. She told us what else we needed to do and I went to do that stuff with my brother. So when we did that, it was too late to go on our technology.
So then since I hadn't been on my ipad for since the morning, I started having an anxiety attack because I literally have no friends anymore other than online people. I am always last to be invited to things, I am only ever spoken to when people want something and I just feel utterly useless. I mean, right now I'm sitting alone in class. No one wants to sit next to me :T
Guess this is life now.
So then my mum asked me what was wrong coz I had started crying. I told her nothing, but of course she didn't believe me. So I told her what was going on in class and she blamed it on the fact I didn't go on my iPad all day.
Yes. I have no friends because of technology. Very logical.
So I got up to go to my room and she said I couldn't then she asked why I was going there. And I said:
"Because I'm a freaking attention whore. Even you said it"
And then she shouted at me, saying that she didn't, when in fact she actually did the other day. So we had a small argument, making me even more upset. Then my dad gestured for me to follow him into the room. I followed him, sat on the bed, then cue 'motivational' pep talk. It did nothing. He started talking about fate and how all the shit that's happening right now is part of my fate. I didn't have the heart to tell him that I don't believe in that crap, so I just let him continue and just nodded sometimes and popped in a few words. And I did listen, I can promise you that. I clung to every word like my life depended on it.
I swear to god if I die any time soon, I'll ask to put 'It was fate' on it.
So yeah... That's something...
I haven't cried in ages and now I'm super fuckin tired.
Alright Imma go browse YouTube and DeviantArt. Catch ya later guys.