Hello world,

Let me introduce myself. I'm Jessica Moore and this is the world where I'm going to set my poetry, fanfictions and stories. I've been crazy busy recently. But I'm working on posting more poetry and such. I've got tons of new work to share with everyone.

Here's my basic information for those who aren't familiar. I turned twenty-seven on the 19th of July 2012, I just got engaged to my one time highschool sweetheart after having been together for three years. We are building our own house and are getting married August 31st 2013.
I'm female, caucasion and follow the Gothic lifestyle. Supernatural is my favorite non-animated show ever. And I'm a huge manga/anime freak. Naruto is my biggest guilty pleasure. Rozen Maiden is my only love of dolls. And I understand why Hell Girl takes people away. I've been a fan since Sailor Moon aired back in the U.S. many moons ago.
I hope you enjoy the work I've placed on here. I'm just looking to connect with new people who love manga/anime/poetry/stories the same way I do. So... Welcome to my world. Enjoy.

After It's Over {A Poem About Feelings After Sexual Assault}

Blood runs down my legs.
Scars bleed inside my mind.
How did this happen here?
You always seemed so kind.
And I was just so blind.

Your hands are on my body.
And they've no right to be.
Please, please don't do this.
You're scaring me.
Was that to hard to see?

I wish I couldn't feel it.
That there was a way.
To leave nothing for you to torment.
But I can't get away.
Is this the price I have to pay?

For being oh so foolish.
And trusting once again.
Opening myself to ambush,
by my supposed friend.
Why doesn't it seem to end?

You leave when it is over.
But I still feel you near.
Every sound strikes terror.
Nightmares caused from fear.
And I wish I wasn't here.

I sometimes wish you'd killed me.
So I could be free of this shame.
That you shoved inside of me.
When you broke me down with pain.
The memories have left their stain.

The dark has never scared me.
Until you stole my light.
Lost I am and so alone.
Inside this endless night
Sometimes I believe you were right.

Because your words are poison.
Within no matter what I do.
There's no escaping them again.
Because some of them were true.
My whole life lies raped by you.

Dark Angel Born

Tragedy cuts me down and tears me open.
I fall before you bloody and broken.
Screaming angels come and grant me shattered wings.
I fly now for malice and darker things.

From a valley of thorns to a sky of flames.
I bask in your suffering and dream of your pain.
I’ve crossed the line and I shall not return.
I worship the darkness that allows me to burn.

Hatred envelops me but allows me to breathe.
I offer you visions and you take what you need.
I am the ghost that you all come to fear.
I don’t envy you because you wish you were here.

Dreams are objects that drown inside my sea.
I may be cruel but you’re no better than me.
I only offer you what you’ll never have.
I know you want it and that’s to damn bad.

Once dull razors become sharpened steal.
I am immortal and you were never real.
I torment you with visions behind your own eyes.
I am the shade that once living will die.

A dark angel born, once human, on a bed of ice.
I am eternal and you have only your worthless life.
I hold the power to destroy or to create.
I am the bearer of your fate.

Mortal hands slide away and bid me farewell.
Where I am going the Gods will never tell.
I take my place in darkness and leave you to your hell.
I give only my past for the world to mourn.
I was once like you till I destroyed my human form.
Now I stand with tainted wings, a dark angel has been born.

B-day

Happy Birthday to me on this coming Sunday. I turn twenty-four. Almost a quarter century old. Wow, that made me feel slightly depressed when I wrote it. Oh well, can't stop the clock, might as well age happily. I'm moving into my new apartment with my sister on Monday. That's the best gift I get. Also went to Borders yesterday because I work all tomorrow and got my gifts from my mom, neighbor and sister. Lot's of books and manga to keep me happy. Yay, for me. Okay, I'm done prattling along now.

The Scent of Salvation: A Guide to Buying from Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab

That Scent Offers Salvation
Written by: Jessica Moore

“Black Phoenix Alchemical Laboratory; Purveyors of Fine Esoteric Goods, Perfumes and Potions.” The opening page of the website beckoned to me and I clicked the black and white depictions of magical creatures and macabre designs. It was everything I’d heard it was. A perfumery based on the stories of Neil Gaiman and H.P. Lovecraft. An apothecary of scents created to smell like Ghosts and Spirits. All that was mythological or arcane is done here in the form of highly condensed body oil.
I am a person who has an addiction and it’s to perfumes from the Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab. I have tried other varieties but none have come close to the grandeur that “BPAL”; as it’s fondly called, makes me feel. Perfume oil is over 90% scent; the other 10% being a base of vegetable or olive oil. It lasts longer than regular perfume which is mostly alcohol because it absorbs into the skin more naturally.
I hate to smell; I simply hate it. I do not wish for people to walk by me and think; “Oh god that girl smells like a chicken wing” or someone who is sweaty and grimy. I prefer to smell like the “Singing Moon” which is a limited edition scent that BPAL offered that has a blend of herbs including meadowsweet and Irish moss. It makes me smell like the woods in the dark of evening; cool, sweet and fresh.
The Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab has over three hundred scents and offers Limited Edition blends on holidays and on the days of full moons. Each scent is hand blended to order. They are never made up ahead of time. And sport names that make even the most hardened perfume shopper laugh with a feeling of sheer ridiculousness. For example “BANANA PEEL IN A GRAVEYARD” a scent based off of Neil Gaiman’s “The Graveyard Book” that has *gasp* banana as the strongest element. Or try “MME. MORIARTY, MISFORTUNE TELLER “ which comes from the Lab’s specialty Carnaval Diabolique line and has pomegranate and vanilla as head ingredients.
Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab has offered to me choices of a huge variety. I have over fifteen large bottles; large size being a glass 5ml bottle from $15 dollars to $25.50, depending on which section of the site you purchase from. And over forty little bottles; those being 2ml size for $3.50 excluding Limited Editions. I tend to purchase scents heavy with herbs and fruit as those last longest with my chemistry. Such as “BEWITCHED” described by The Lab as Deep, luscious green and berry scents that evoke images of woodland witchcraft and the raw power of nature: blackberry, sage, green tea, wild berries and dark musk. And “LADY UNA” from Neil Gaiman’s “Stardust” story described as having Honey musk, green tea leaf, blackberry leaf, vanilla bean, and fae spices.{Just to note that Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab takes great pride in their perfume descriptions and most are very long, incorporating the use of the stories that the scents are created from.}
Perfume oils work very different on people than regular perfume. They interact with each person’s signature body chemistry which makes a scent all their own. I have an example to explain. One afternoon I decided I wanted to try a more flowery blend of perfume. My best friend Katie; whom also enjoys BPAL perfume handed me her bottle of “Dragon’s Blood” which is a blend of flowers like lilacs and tuberose. On her skin it smells like an bright spring flower garden. So I placed some at the pulse points of my wrists. And this is what she says, “Hey Jessica, do you smell something burning?” My reply, “No, well, yeah maybe.” It turns out that lilac doesn’t just not work with my body chemistry it makes me smell like a burning tire. On the contrary, Katie has attempted to use some of my more food like scents such as “JACK” which is described as The scent of warm, glowing jack o'lanterns on a warm autumn night: true Halloween pumpkin, spiced with nutmeg, glowing peach and murky clove. And ended up smelling like a rotten pumpkin while I will smell like sweet homemade pie. It’s all in the body’s makeup. You never know how something will smell on you.
It’s bit like playing Russian roulette with a loaded squirt gun. It’s going to be on you but you just cannot know if it will smell right until it is. I’ve only ended up with a couple bad blends for both Katie and I. An example being “AZATHOTH” from the H.P. Lovecraft line; it has a blend of darker herbs like vetiver and smells to Katie and I like blackened charcoal. The blends that do not work out go on Ebay.com and get sold to people who enjoy those darker scents. Which in turns supplies us with money to purchase new and hopefully better attuned for our chemistry scents.
So to end this article I will say that if you have an obsession with not smelling like old gym shoes and sweat socks, you should look into the Lab as a place to find scent salvation. It’s a refuge of perfumes that strike the senses and make you entice the crowds around you. I’ve had people tell me I smell “like tasty candy” or even better “you smell like something magical; it’s wonderful.” That’s what I want to hear.

You can help yourself by heading over to www.blackphoenixalchemylab.com and searching through the many categories and blends. And if you are nervous about a blend not working for you try heading to www.bpal.org and looking up the scent. All BPAL.org members have detailed scent reactions to a variety of body chemistries. I found that out after that one rare bad scent occurrence. As for me, I’ve already made my next purchase and I am happily awaiting it’s arrival. Let’s have a round of applause for being able to smell like magic; how many of you can say that you do?

Seraphim Adrift {A Person is Poetry}

Adrift she floats towards her greatness.
Always aware of the obstacles ahead.
But never faltering because she is fearless.
She braves places others have never tread.

Angel wings drawn on her back.
A Seraphim awaiting at the start.
She awakens freedom from her creations.
Vibrant are the pictures from her heart.

Her voice speaks with understanding.
And even when wounded she stands tall.
She remains steadfast and never demanding.
Even though sometimes even angels may fall.

Through darkness, sorrow and frustration.
Her smile and kindless ever shine through.
For she is friendship and strong motivation.
This C-chan is my dedication to you.

DEDICATED TO CAPRISHA CHAN {aka Seraphim Adrift} for always being the one of the best friends for me to turn too. And keeping the faith in me when I've been scarce and anti-social. For pushing me to do better. For believing that I am at the best of my abilities. I love and respect you for all that you've done and will do for me. And I promise to always try and return the favor. Thank you.