“There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.”
Friedrich Nietzsche
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Alright
i know i haven't written about the two weeks that gabe was here yet, and i've been meaning to for a while. i couldn't do it immediately after, it just hurt too much to talk about that soon after he left. so here goes.
it was without a doubt the best two weeks of my life and exceeded my expectations in every way. we were both worried about disappointing the other in some way, since we'd never met in person before. we laugh just remembering that worry now. XD
when we first met at the airport we hugged for 20 minutes before doing or saying anything else. i know it was 20 minutes because i wasn't keeping count at all, but mom says when she was in starbucks waiting for us she looked up 20 minutes later and we were still hugging.
anyway after that it was almost like we'd been together like that forever. we got comfortable with each other really fast and it didn't take us long to start acting like retards in stores together and all that good stuff. we had especial fun when we got lost on the way to chincoteague island on some neverending back road i didn't even know existed. it was epic.
we went to the beach a few times, the movies, the mall... i think i enjoyed it most though when it was just the two of us watching movies together at home. although i loved all of it. including when we made up a whole method of communication using the word "chips."
i really miss having him around now that he's back in quebec, but i've got a train ticket that says i'm going up there in november, bitches. >:D
so yeah.
i just wrote this to let those of my friends on here who haven't heard about it yet know how it went, since they've been hearing how excited i've been about it for a long time. also to laugh in the faces of anybody who says or thinks that internet relationships can't work. so there. :D
Life: 09/01/08 | Posted By: ShadowsCastByDusk | 1 comment |
wonderful world of having a thousand children
woot. i just did my yearly round of THE WORLD'S BIGGEST MIXED BAG EVER.
i am referring of course to summer camp. every year my friend sarah and i are counselors at a kids' art (with one little science class for some reason) day camp. it is INCREDIBLY tiring and draining alternately screaming at, hugging, helping, prodding, scolding, encouraging, and getting to know thirty little kids all at once, but it is so rewarding. the pay is total crap, but i don't care. i love those kids. for some of them this was the third year they were in my group. in addition, sarah and i have come to be "mommy and daddy" to them... yeah, i gotta be daddy because her boobs are bigger. tchah.
so the camp is two weeks long, but i only did the first week this year, because gabe is coming next week. HE'S GOING TO BE HERE IN THREE DAYS! *gets a paper bag to breathe into*
i'm so freaking anxious but i can't waitttt.
i'm going to take him to meet the kids one day next week.
anyway, all week i've been getting horribly tired and irritated by the end of the day cause.. that's just how it goes. you're with the kids every second from 8:30 am to 5:30 pm so it gets pretty intense =D
and yesterday sarah and i had a huuuuge falling-out with the temporary director (who by the way is a bitch, but whom i'm not really mad at anymore)which left me feeling headachey all day after crying in her office and telling her she sucked and didn't care about the kids. =D
i really don't want to talk about what the whole issue was since i've had to explain it at length like five times since it happened.
so anyway, today (of course on my LAST day!) i had a wonderful day, never really got tired, and i became increasingly more fun to be with and entertaining and hyperactive as the day progressed. not sure what kind of drugs were in my tea today, but it's all good. i do feel sad i'm not doing the second week, i miss the kids already (we're obsessed with each other =D) but if given the choice i'd much rather spend time with gabe XD
ohh and next year at camp i think i'm going to be a teacher instead of a counselor. it pays more, you don't have to stay the whole day, and you get to see all the kids, not just a group. which is good since all the kids that are my "children" aren't all in the same group anymore. only downside is, you dont' get to spend as much time with the kids and you don't have as much of a special relationship with them. but since i already have that with a ton of them, i'll settle for just being able to see them everyday for two weeks.
aaah, that's all i got for now.
except that i just got both seasons of the honey and clover anime. it ROCKS.
Life: 07/25/08 | Posted By: ShadowsCastByDusk | 3 comments |
Yay for Stuff
so i made an amv which has been formulating in my head for the better part of a year. i always wanted to make one of cher and hubb from wolf's rain with the coldplay song "the scientist." it reminded me of them from the first time i heard it. but i went through absolute HELL to get all the stuff i needed, downloading the episodes and converting them and all that unspeakable shit. torrenting is always either wonderful and effective or frustrating, misleading, and ultimately a big fat waste of time. but i finally found them for direct download, which made my day. of course they were in a weirdass format, so i had to then download like six different trials of converters (wasn't about to BUY one!) to find one that DIDN'T leave a big ugly watermark in the middle of the video. finally found one. AND THEN I LIVED MY DREAM!
yeah, i know. it's sad.
so humor me.
look at it.
LOOK AT IT!
....oh yeah and on a totally unrelated topic, comments are fun. :D
just sayin'.
you know. :D
...so yeah. here. it's got a few glitches in it cause my movie-maker was skippy and i couldn't watch it without it freezing till i'd already saved it as a movie and it was too late. but i like it overall. :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=40PSZIW_95Y
Life: 07/18/08 | Posted By: ShadowsCastByDusk | 2 comments | Wolf's Rain |
Life is Rough
well, tohru168 came to my house today to escape a boring 4th of july party. we almost went out in the kayaks but i found a huge two- or three-inch spider in mine, it hid under the seat and i couldn't get it out. i wasn't about to be stranded in the middle of the creek with that thing crawling onto my lap. so then we went in to swim, except it was low tide so it was more like wading. and then minnows attacked our feet and we felt unwelcome.
so then we went to the grocery store after just pulling on shorts. i will never ever go to the grocery store in a bikini top again, i swear. i should've known better in the first place. some really old guy in one of those motorized golf-cart-like things with the shopping basket built on came up and pointed at us for like, a full minute. i was on the phone trying to talk to my mom so i didn't catch all of what he said but it was something along the lines of that we were lovely and he was falling in love with us. or something equally creepy. we ignored him and he went away after a while. then we ninja'd around the store trying to keep from encountering him again. it was epic. almost like the two-hours-in-costco thing.
then we went in dollar tree and i saw my drivers' ed teacher. that kind of jarred the whole "summer" feeling. at least i already have my license so i don't have to be particularly afraid of her anymore. she's fierce though :D
now i'm back at my house with my parents and our british friends, which is ironic, since it's yay-the-british-don't-own-our-asses-anymore day. even though i almost wish they still did. i don't think we do so well when left to our own devices. 'least not nowadays XD
oh hey i've heard that hilary is obama's new VP. can anybody verify that for me? i saw it on tv but my parents don't believe me. i really hope it is true, because that means they stand a waaay better chance than obama on his own.
..if i'm wrong and mccain wins, i'm going on a killing spree. then to canada. after the killing spree is over, that is. and from there i will plot an assassination attempt on that unbearable old geezer. :D
...i always get political. maybe this means nobody will invite me to parties when i'm older. that would actually be nice, because i hate parties. political and social parties.
anyway, tomorrow is our 3-year anniversary for gabe(fury) and i. and he's going to be at my house in 24 days. I CAN'T WAIT :D
anyway, tatah for now. observe my svelte god:
Life: 07/05/08 | Posted By: ShadowsCastByDusk | 3 comments |
Nostalgia, You Sneaky Bitch.
ahh, it's 12:15 A.M. and i feel nostalgic. for how the otaku used to be. a bit for how life used to be. i don't much like getting older sometimes. not that i'm decrepit and crumbly YET. i'm a teenager for christ's sake. i should be reveling in driving myself places and... being teenagerly. the reveling doesn't really last long for me though.
me, i have a terrible memory for events and stuff that i'm required to remember. but i can remember the randomest, most specific trivia or details. i could recite the entire script of the movie The Last Unicorn, and i don't exactly watch it everyday (well, not anymore.) i spew obscure quotes from movies, books, and people and nobody ever knows what i'm talking about. well almost nobody. and i don't so much remember events as i remember feelings. and it's AMAZING, i mean REALLY amazing, how smells can jog your memory. i found this scented candle in a blue wineglass my friend and i used to always use in these dark fantasy games we used to play (we thought we were so cool and myterious). i took one whiff of the thing and BAM! i was right back there something like seven years ago. it was incredible, i tell you. and me, i'm always finding things. i never throw anything away unless it's biodegradable or wrapperishly crinkly. everything else gets saved. everything. inadvertently or on purpose. i still have halloween candy from five years ago buried somewhere in my room. i advise anybody who ever might excavate it to NOT touch it. knox ate some once by accident. don't try THAT at home.
also the other day i was cleaning out this alcove i used to keep all my Mystic Knight action figures and all my dragons and blocks and all that fantastic shit. mom forced me to go and get rid of some of that stuff because she wants to be able to get into the alcove (i mean, can you believe the nerve?)
the funny thing is, whenever she makes me do something like that, and nobody's looking, i play. and i can remember where i left off years ago the last time i did it. and it so fun. except not as fun as it used to be, because when you get older you forget how to play. that makes me sad. i think the closest adults and teenagers can get to playing is acting, and i'm kind of stage shy. though i did used to enjoy acting when i was younger and more brazen. hell, when i was really little i ballet-danced on tables at the nursing home my grandmother was in. hey, the old people were a captive audience and that's all i needed.
..i have no idea why i'm writing this or why it's getting so alarmingly long all by itself but it IS, after all, 12:20 in the morning now and i can't be held responsible for my actions. GOD, i'm tired.
i don't think anybody is going to read this but i just needed something to do with my hands. they were twitchy. they were saying to me, "naia, you 'tard, you stopped playing Dynasty Warriors too soon and we didn't get the 1000 K.O.'s we wanted and then you watched that awful movie and we had nothing to do. so let us demonstrate our awesome powers of 75 WMP with no errors. it doesn't matter what you say. they won't hold it against you."
THEY LIE!
just to get their own damn way.
you know what the problem is? i didn't have any caffeine today. now as it is 12:25, i've been awake for 14 hours. that is too much fo rme. oh, god, my eyes are stinging.
oh right, i did do one thing anime-related. i bought the 6th death note manga and finished it in about five minutes. i whirl right through those, they're awesome. i really don't keep up on any of the mangas i read anymore, though. i just never seem to have any money and when i do i get shifty-eyed and do not distribute it to Barnes & Noble employees. i'm actually more likely to get guilted into giving money to Defenders of Wildlife (they've got their hooks into me now and they won't stop sending me letters and email) and then i'm low again. but they're not getting anything from me for a while, i just gave them $50 and i'm not working for the next few weeks.
OH MY GOD I'M TIRED!
does anybody know how to make your fingers stop typing? because mine are not being cooperative.
...does anybody else here think that i sound like Junie B. Jones right now? because i'm noticing i disturbing resemblance.
fuck. i'm going to bed. i don't care what they say. they can unravel the blanket while i sleep and curse me for not letting them get enough K.O.'s. i got 663, shouldn't that be enough?
WHEN WILL THE KILLING END?
..........
yeah.
goodnight.
Life: 06/22/08 | Posted By: ShadowsCastByDusk | 2 comments | Personal |
