Have you ever seen that scene in "Tom and Jerry" where Jerry gulps after being caught by Tom and sees his life being in danger? That's how I'm feeling right now.
I received the news already about the results of the screening for the university newspaper (which I took part on, by the way). It turned out I was now chosen to be a part of the editorial staff.
And now I go . . . WHAT?!?! Well actually, it was more like "S--T! WHAT IN THE HELL HAVE I DONE?!"
Okay, here's the thing. When I applied for TC, I was hoping to get a shot at being a reporter/correspondent or as a non-serious have-fun-in-life feature writer. And now I'm told that I'm part of the editorial staff. HOLY CRAP! GOOD GRIEF! WHAT HAVE I DONE?!
Could it be because of my crappy news reporting? (It wasn't my fault; the test was so confusing, so how could I make a decent piece of news out of that?) Could it be because of my editorial about the US elections? (With all my blah-blah on how it affects my country, not to mention the fact that I mentioned the third-party candidates, I have a feeling they mistook me for a fearless opinion maker.) I just don't get it.
When I first heard about it, I felt shivers around my body. In fact, I still have it now. At one point, I was simply swaying my body left and right, thinking about what just happened. This wasn't part of my plan; I didn't wanna be the boss and feel the ultimate pressure in campus journalism.
I even fear for what "editorial staff" even means. How is it different from "editorial board"? Which one makes those strong, fearless, sometimes unfounded opinions for the newspaper? Am I part of that, or am I just some sort of a manager/editor who checks that everyone did their job and oversees the spelling and grammar of the writeups? The Internet ain't giving me clear answers.
AHHH!!! I'M PANICKING RIGHT NOW!!!
Trust me, once I go to sleep after typing this post, the anxiety will not go away. I just hope for the best later. (Please don't make me the opinion maker. Please, oh please. I'm no vocal activist, I'm just a clumsy and geeky otaku.)
P.S. Do check out my previous post. I simply liked this post due to the content that I've given in it.
Life: 09/29/08 | Posted By: The Mask | 3 comments | Personal
