This is my own personal Blog. Not to be confused OC Blog. I can begin with a basic profile on myself.

Tenshi=Angel
Hoshino=Of Stars

Name: Stephen (Strange name, eh? Means Crown, so does that make me royalty? IFso I will be Emperor.)
Online names: Tenshi-kun. (Myotaku and TV.com (I am the blacksheep of TV.com, long story behind that) Professor Shade (Youtube)

Age: 24 years young, too bad I'm not so wise.

Country: Canada (Wow, strange how it's nowhere, like that song nowhere Man.)

Notable feature: bright blue protuberant eyes. (Yep I have blue eyes, wanna fight about it? Cause I don't like fighting.), Dirty blonde hair.

Talents: Over-active imagination, Gamin' (Good at video games:, Art, Writing ideas down, can put my right foot over my head, double jointed, Researching on Wikipedia religiously,Can do a few songs on harmonica, Make lady-types in a trance when they look at my eyes, Easily persuaded to do dumb things, Rode a Mattress down a fire exit, Good with computers, My laugh can easily make others laugh, Can make Shadow Puppets.

Weaknesses: Backgrounds (Someone teach me), writing organized stories (Last story was killed with too many main characters), Math (Numbers just don't compute), Being shy, Sometimes aloof, Bored easily, Computer is too addictive, Games, Understanding really technical words, Fear of sharp things, Fear of letting people down, the list goes on...

Wish list: A Blue scarf

Mottos:

"Life is like a boxing game you got to roll with the punches, and take them as they come."

"You gotta stay strong."

"Never say Die!"

"Scars of the past only show where you have been, not where your gonna go."

"It's when you can keep a good clear mind even in the bad times it shows inner-strength."

That's about it. My friends of Theotaku,com, Later.

Feeling betrayed and Mom is Sick "My day sucked!"

So how have you all been theotaku chat was fun. It helped me get over some of my sadness. Yesterday, I found out the girl, I really cared for and we cared about each other for months got some other guy to be her BF. I feel, she betrayed us. and she said she did it because I wasn't always there and online, etc. But frankly, the fact I found out through his Stickam profile makes me sick. She didn't say she felt anything was wrong. She assumed I didn't care after me spend months and months together like that. I can never Love her or even give my heart to her again. I did a super great picture of us. Now I can't bear to finish it, it brings the pain up in my heart. She said "I'm sorry" over and over and we can be friends. That didn't really help. I can I not be hurt when someone doesn't even take into account the guy who loved her. Even if there relationship dies out, I can never try to be with her. What she did, I can never love her the way I did. I'm movin' on to a girl, who will treat me right. The thing that pains me was my two friends were right on the situation. They told me she was an attention grabber, needs to grow up, Needy. I didn't want to believe this. But what they said was true in many ways. She acted childish in not thinking how I would feel when she did what she did. She said because I wasn't always on Aim, she had no one there for her all the time (Clingy. She used that I didn't kiss her every time I logged off as another excuse. I told her at the time I was goin through a phobia too, must have slipped her mind.

But to make matters worse my Mama is in hospital since Sunday, for a bit too. I pray for her to come home soon. She is a bit sick again, but I think she'll be back in a few days. I hope. My Mom, should be fine.

Some stuff was cleaned from her lungs luckily.

Theotaku chat was fun tho, the happiness in that helped me heal but even in bed last night I couldn't shake the feeling. If it wasn't for my L detective skills, she'd of probably led me on and never tell me about Luis. God, she threw about 2/3 a year of relationship over a few weeks. What a waste. And now, I don't think I can ever want her back if this relationship sinks she's in now. How I found out I wouldn't wish on my own enemy. Her only excuse was assumption. Great throw away almost a years worth of love and you destroy over assumption. I wasn't the one with Trust issues. She was. and even if she wanted to break up, why'd she fling herself at Luis. She says excuses but I think she planned this all along. and she don't want me to tell friends cuz it may make her look bad in their eyes. No Matter how yu slice it. It looks bad she didn't tell me jack, and I felt stabbed over and over and hit by a car's tread. My heartaches. and I dunno, If i can even be her friend after this. Seeing her makes me hurt I may unsubscribe her on YT. I don't think I can watch her videos or be kind with her after this. The guy who did it apologized but it felt cut and paste. I hope she's happy she had her one chance with a nice guy. Hope, she loves her jerk artificial BF. She said when I said it she should've asked me to be BF, but felt I wasn't ready. WTF! She is thinkin shit like behind my back, why would yu tell me you LOVE ME, and not want to be with me. That makes no sense at ALL.

Life: 07/18/08 | Posted By: Tenshihoshino | 7 comments | Tags: anger, broken, dead love, ex, love, mom