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I already know how eager you all are to get to know me, so I suppose I shall have to explain myself. I'm 20, I like to read (normal books, but occasionally a manga ya know), I like to play some video games once in a while because they simply are a joy and I have a sweet passion for anything that’s sweet or spicy! I love cookies, and pastries and I love cuisine that’s so hot it would send my face bright red! I also take requests on my pictures! Im very fun to talk to, so please PM me any time you want! I love music. Mostly indie and ska music. Heavy metal isn't really my thing, but I'm an open book. If they have a good song, then I'll tune in. I give credit to Opeth because he has a gorgeous voice. I'm pretty open minded about life and people. I don't judge right off the bat and I hate gossiping. I also don't like it when people whine too much. Extremely hyper people sometimes tick me off, but maybe you can grow on me. You just MIGHT be lucky. Some would say I am lazy, but I am very hard working. Anyways, enjoy my life and appreciate life. That's all I have to say
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Favorite anime/manga: Shaman King, Naruto, Peach Girl, Cardcaptor Sakura, Samurai Deeper Kyo, Saiyuki, Kuroshitsuji, Loveless...anything YAOI
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Favorite video games: Devil May Cry, Final Fantasy, Legend of Zelda, Disgaea, Kingdom Hearts 2!!!
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First of all, I would like to wonderfully thank everyone who commented on my last blog, that really really meant a lot to me. I needed to hear those words, and it was very encouraging to know that you're all behind me in this. Thanks a million, I wish I could give you something, so if there's anything you want just ask, I am grateful
My little sister drew me a picture of Jax isn't it like, awesome? She's only 11 years old! You can see her Naruto sketch in the background because the paper was so thin, but just ignore it!! XD
I just got back from the hospital where I was diagnosed with severe anorexia. I weigh 100 pounds and my liver is on the verge of destruction. I slightly missed it being damaged when they ran all the tests on me. I have a kidney infection, high blood pressure, low sugar, and am 30% underweight. The doctor has me on 3 different meds and injections. I have to take the injections every other day. Mom started crying as well as everyone else. I told the doctor that my heart sometimes hurt at night and he said it's because the heart is working itself too hard. It's trying to compensate for what the liver can't do anymore and I am at risk of falling into cardiac arrest. I have to eat this diet of 1500 calories, but it's really hard. Mom bought me these protein drinks that are loaded with calories so I don't feel so fat at the end of the day. I am really sick and I need your emotional support right now. I am pretty scared to die, I don't want to die, but it's so hard. I see everyone hurting around me, but I can't bring myself to just eat normally. Please pray for me I need all the help I can get. The doctor wanted to hospitalize me, but luckily the test results weren't that bad, we can do outpatient treatment. Yesterday I ate 1300 calories, counting the drinks my mom gave me. It was a huge step, but I need the motivation to keep this up. I have to go back in 10 days, the doctor told me not to lose any more weight.
Well I had a TON of fun yesterday when my aunt came to visit. More fun than I have had in such a long time. She made me buy a whole new outfit and she bought me books and food and coffee XD XD XD COFFEEEE!! I told her and my uncle I liked coffee and they both agreed to buy me some. I was pretty happy about that. I ate some tofu at the resturaunt and didn't feel bad because it was hard to feel bad with all the love floating in the air. I felt so loved the whole day and when they hugged me, it was so tight like they didn't want to let go. We went to 3 different malls and we stopped at Borders. I almost died when I went in there, it was overhwleming, I didn't even know where to begin, the smell of all the books was making me faint from happiness.
I bought three sweater vests, a baggy yellow tank top thing, some industrial colored skinny jeans and they wanted me to get shoes but I couldn't find any. They said they were going to visit again in October, I just can't wait!! I didn't even want the evening to end, but atleast I have new memories to carry with me
I am anxious and a tad bit nervous right now. In a mere hour my aunt is coming to meet me at this asian resturaunt. She is visiting from Arizona, so I am pretty excited, I haven't seen her in 2 and a half years!! I don't know what I am going to say, but I am pretty excited about it. I spritzed myself all over with cocunut spray and now I smell delicious but I am scared to eat in a resturaunt. Because of my anorexia I hate eating in front of others, I avoid it at all costs. I have to be polite though. My mom says I have to get over the fear and she told me just to have a good time and be grateful. I am going to try really hard, we are also supposed to be doing something aftwerwards but we haven't decided on what yet. I hope we go shopping, even though trying on clothes makes me pretty depressed
My friend Quica said that if I put an egg at the end of my bed where my head goes and then in the moring it's kinda cooked, that means I am cursed. Well, I did it last night after she said some prayer over the egg, and when I woke up in the morning it was still a regular old egg. Quica just looked at it and said, Well, looks like you're not cursed! I dont know where she gets all these ancient traditions from! I thought it was pretty weird, but whatever I just let her do her own thing
As for everything else in my life...well my mom bought me a new mediation CD. It's really cool and takes me to a different world. She always buys me those CDs because I like to relax and just sit and do nothing when I am not feeling well. they help a lot, and I just meditate and yeah it's cool. Oh and another cool thing is my friend Dante brought me a peanut butter and jelly sandwhich on raisin bread the other day out of nowhere. it was so cute I just had to literally say awww when he gave it to me. We always share recipes, I let him taste some of my pasta the other day and he liked it so much he had to take more than one bite from it! It made me feel special
