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I already know how eager you all are to get to know me, so I suppose I shall have to explain myself. I'm 20, I like to read (normal books, but occasionally a manga ya know), I like to play some video games once in a while because they simply are a joy and I have a sweet passion for anything that’s sweet or spicy! I love cookies, and pastries and I love cuisine that’s so hot it would send my face bright red! I also take requests on my pictures! Im very fun to talk to, so please PM me any time you want! I love music. Mostly indie and ska music. Heavy metal isn't really my thing, but I'm an open book. If they have a good song, then I'll tune in. I give credit to Opeth because he has a gorgeous voice. I'm pretty open minded about life and people. I don't judge right off the bat and I hate gossiping. I also don't like it when people whine too much. Extremely hyper people sometimes tick me off, but maybe you can grow on me. You just MIGHT be lucky. Some would say I am lazy, but I am very hard working. Anyways, enjoy my life and appreciate life. That's all I have to say

Property of Starlight Unichu

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Favorite anime/manga: Shaman King, Naruto, Peach Girl, Cardcaptor Sakura, Samurai Deeper Kyo, Saiyuki, Kuroshitsuji, Loveless...anything YAOI

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Favorite video games: Devil May Cry, Final Fantasy, Legend of Zelda, Disgaea, Kingdom Hearts 2!!!

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http://www.myspace.com/joinmeforacupoftea

I need you

I need prayers, so please pray for me. I went to take tests to find out if anything is wrong with me again. I had to take a thyroid test and an overall checkup of blood sugar and all that. My heart is hurting and I'm scared. I get shortness of breath and don't know what's wrong with me. It's an accumulation of not eating. The test reslts will be ready today, but I have to wait until my next day off which is who knows when to find out what they mean. Oh my gosh, that makes me so stressed out even more. I want to hurry up and find out what's wrong with my heart. What if I faint at work or something!? I'm scared, so yeah please pray for me extra hard because this stress is not helping me any better. And yesterday my heart was burning ALL DAY. It was scary. I didn't have a lot of shortness of breath, but it felt like it was on fire at some points. Even though I ate normally yesterday, but I just want something to make me feel better now. I'm scared I won't survive my 8 hours shifts at work

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Life Happens

Lately I have been having shortness of breath lately. I don't know why, I have been trying to eat a little more because I decided I don't want to die, considering I almost did about 3 days ago. It was the scariest thing ever. I literally felt myself black out for a second and I couldn't stand straight, I had to clutch the chair and try to get a hold of myself. That really scared me, but yesterday I had a really bad urge to puke even though I knew the conseqeunce. I hate this disease, it's taking over me. Last night I was attacked with negativity so I just prayed myself to sleep and filled my mind with positivity. It's so hard.

I have relatives coming to visit in October. It's pretty exciting, they are going to give me a new computer! Well, it's not new, but it's not old either. Okay, it's a hand me down computer, but they are going to fix it up nice and new. That's great news, now I don't have to pay Paco anymore to use his internet! Lucky lucky moi

I have been working my ass off. I don't even have the time and energy to read everyone's blog. I have to start school soon so I have been using my internet time looking things up and trying to put everything where it belongs. I don't have all the time in the world, so I'm sorry if I haven't been around to everyone's blog. I haven't forgotten about you, it's just my busy schedule. People have to make appointments with me to see me now! I wish it weren't so, but I try my hardest

Quiz Time

No food

Currently reading: Anton Chekhovs short stories
Currently playing: Final Fantasy 8 (whenever I have time)

I have been working like a maniac. Marilu was even calling me one last night while singing ¨she's a maniac, maniac...on the floor¨ because I was moving so fast and it was just too much for anyone to do at the end of the day. It was just because I drank a shitload of diet coke though to keep me going. I couldn't even walk to work yesterday because I haven't been eating and I have been throwing up more than usual and the only way was to buy a diet coke from McDonalds to give me a quick boost. I told my mom about all this, and everyone is scared and frustrated with me. I don't know what to do. But..I feel like dying most days. People tell me to just eat, but they don't realize how hard that is for me. it'd be like telling you to go jump off a cliff or go crash your brand new car on purpose

My visit with my brother was a lot of fun by the way. We went to the movies, we went a lot of places and he brought some funny DVDs from the states and a lot of new books for me to read.

Soy Tonto

Currently Reading: The Lost Continent by Bill Bryson
Currently Playing: Disgaea

I am depressed, I hate to say it, but it's the truth. A clinal way of saying I feel sorry for myself. I know I should be happy that my brother is coming and all, but it's hard when my mom keeps putting me down all the time and making me feel like an idiot. I requested the Thursday off because that's when my brother is coming, but they didn't give me the day so I talked to my manager about it and then he gave me 3 days off instead of Thursday. My mom was pissed *sigh* I was scheduled already and I got 30 hours, but because I had to go and talk to the manager now I only have 16. My family needs the money and I just blew it.

But that's not all I am depressed about...