Currently experiencing Introduction difficulties....Will fix soon.
Until then, enjoy the theme song of TDE and the best picture of a chameleon ever found on Google.
(Instead of elevator music, this is here)

Feeling Like Shit

Not really, I just had a bad day.

I was still a bit angry, and the day I had really didn't help much.
I just came to school knowing that I wasn't going to have a good day, and I had already woken up on the wrong side and was feeling cranky so it was just inevitable.

The girl from 1st period...We had a small clash, after that, nothing.
Not really enough to make my day worse, but it went down-hill later.
ROTC, I got some laughs, but I was still depressed.
(I also got some more signatures. I am 7 away from being eligible.)
But on my way to 3rd period, I almost got into a fight. But I backed down (a smash to my pride, but fuck it.) but I had to...If I got suspended it would look bad for me running for treasurer.

But after that, my anger was possessing me.
It was messed up.
I was so angry, I punched another wall, I haven't done that in (it feels like, even though I did about 2 weeks ago) months!
And when I do, I don't hit it like I'm serious! I've worked so hard to control myself, and it feels like my tower just got its rubble rocked.
What pissed me off the most is that I was feeling my control being sapped from me, slowly, painfully, aggressively.
It felt like a dark demonic version of myself was pulling me into an abyss of darkness...I was staring down at the monster in me. He was just tempting me as if he was Nine-Tails...To go back down that path.

I really hate myself for that.
It makes me feel inadequate and worthless.

Even though I've tried to crack a smile on my face, it would be somewhat fake.
Eventually, I calmed down, but I am still feeling bummed.

I just really want next Friday to come so I can do some work here. Write that episode, post that little surprise that I had...Stuff like that.
I can't do it during weekdays, I have too much to do.

That's all on my mind now
Love y'all
Good night.

I Cannot Lie About What I've Done

I have never been a person who sugarcoats anything.
I prefer too tell the truth as much as I possibly can.

Today was not the brightest day, but as always, your dear friend over here will survive.
What I cannot do, though, is keep doing what I'm doing. I'm trying to be a better person. Emphasis on trying, because according to my harsh OCD drill-sergeant standards, I cannot do it.
I get angry a lot, and people are testing my patience at school.

If you have previously been paying attention, you might be able to decipher why I am irritated.
It is Juan again. I really cannot stand him.
Now that I remembered this song ("Fuck You" by Archive), that's a little bit how I feel about him. Except I am not the type of person to ever say the phrase "You're going to hell."

I just can't stand him, I really want to beat the living shit out of him so badly!
I hope...I hope one day we can just slug it out. I really can't find another way, the things he's said and done, and the way other people see him. How they just walk over me like I am not human, despite how much I can't stand it sometimes (Sometimes, even though humans are the superior species, we are stupid and idiotic. There are times where I wander off and think "What if I was an animal on a secluded community; like a wolf...No matter how much I hate the winter...Or a penguin, but a chameleon will always be one of the top animal species that I love.).

Other than that...Today was normal. Well, no, it isn't.
We had tests in all but one class today.
One of which I had no idea about. And I failed it.
*Goes outside and roars "FUCK!"*
I'll live, though...French. Ohhh, dear French!
Please pardon my language, because I am in an unstable mood, but I fucked that test all the way up and down the street like it was my bitch.

And History...I think I brutalized that test!
I felt prepared like I was a fully-armed samurai in a field of blunt spears.

I got a surprise in that class, though.
My teacher (my 2nd favorite teacher) said that she needed to talk to me. Either I was in trouble (which almost never happens) or something cool was about to happen. This was on the cool side, a little bit.
She hoodwinked me into running for Class Treasurer. Now, I'm not the Student Government Buff, but I am not as lazy as I used to be; I take this offer with pride and honor. So I am actually going to try at this!
I'm a bit scared because this is the last week, and I need 50 signatures by Thursday, I have an interview and a speech to write! Some of which I do not think I can do, but I would face an incredible amount of shame and dishonor if I didn't even try.

Sad part about that, I'm running against Juan.
And when he chose to step out of his boundary when he knows that I will knock his teeth out if I was any more crazy. I feel like I've improved, but I feel so much anger swelling within me. And I can barely keep myself content.
Please, my friends, pray that I don't snap and do something stupid. I've one all year without having to fight someone, but I don't want to be screwed over this late in the game. Not like this!!

Anyway, back to the Chest.
I think I'd make a good treasurer, my Mom is always telling me how frugal and tight I am with money. (Plus, I'm a Taurus...Not a very good example, but some of that stuff does hold some truth.)
It wouldn't be impossible, but if I don't try, my very chance will be in vain.
But there are so many obstacles.
I am running for treasurer of 9th grade...Nobody in 9th grade likes me. And I can't get signatures from anyone in any other class.
Ugh! Fucking shit, man! I need to quit stressin'.

Ok, that's about it.
I'll try to get some work done this Friday, but wait, no, I have somewhere to be the following day. I'll get to it, eventually.
I'm contemplating on writing episode 2 of "Warrior's Note". There is a lot of action in that one.

Well, that's all on my plate for now.
Love y'all!
Good night.

Not What I Expected At All

Today did not go as originally planned. Nevertheless, I enjoyed it.

I woke up at a decent time, 8:40. But I stayed down until 9:15; still not a bad time.
I ate, showered, then I wanted to laze for a second, but my aunt forced me to clean up ahead of my internal schedule. Anyways, I got it done and I started doing C/CR homework. So far that's the only thing I got done.

Then I got a call from my mom saying that we were going to a play.
The play was that day!
I was so caught off...And a little frustrated.
I just got back less than a half hour ago.
But it was worth the wait.
We saw "Oklahoma!", and it was redone by some kids that my mom knew.

I met them last summer, but I didn't even know about the play until today.
I really can't stand being caught off guard with stuff like that. It makes me feel hoodwinked into doing something, which I don't like.

It was WAY worth it!
It was so funny, so well-coordinated, and just all-around awesome!
And I don't really like musicals that much.
Plays, they're okay, if I were to be participating, it'd take me a while to get into the right setting to be able to do it correctly.

Yeah, I haven't gotten to do much O-work here.
I was a little bit in the mood to write today, but I wanted to do some homework that I didn't get to do.
Forget about it, I'll just do it on Monday.
It's not due 'till Tuesday, but I don't like doing things at the last minute. And there is no way I'll be able to get it done on Sunday...Well, no, it could be possible.

Someone please remind me to do something special on here...I'm trying to get to it but I haven't been able to.
I'm a busy guy sometimes.
Whatever, though!

Love y'all!
Good night.

Remind me Later

Someone please remind me (even though I should do it now) to make this quiz?

It's a surprise, I can't tell ya!

But tomorrow I'm too busy. I have a thing to go to at church for new members (like myself), and I have to get down on this homework. I want to get it all done so I'll have Saturday off to clean.
Maybe I'll get to write an episode in my spare time, I don't know, wish me luck.

Other than that today was okay.
I might be screwed when my teacher gets back, but that's sure to not happen.

French was okay, but History was a trial.
Now I am on the verge of doing something that I shouldn't do. I really cannot stand that guy and someone needs to kick his ass a good time.
I really don't want to be the one to do it because it violates everything that I've worked so hard to create. My morals.
But in the heat of the moment, anything can happen. I'm not saying that I want it to happen, but sometimes people need to get what they deserve.
Y'know...It's like one of those feelings like good things happen to bad people.

It didn't go that deep, it just made me feel a bit irritated.

Tomorrow, though...Pray for me.
I am really on a no-nonsense base for the trick in 1st period and the pricks in 4th period.
For some reason I've been a bit lazy this week. I need to break that.
I didn't do some of the stuff I should've done.

NEXT
I am really giving the finger to Khalil. He's being a little bitch like usual and I'm getting tired of it.
We were joking around and he made a low-blow-joke and I said "You'll have to give me 2 for that." (Give me 2 means tap the back of your neck twice...It doesn't hurt, it just tickles a little bit) and he snapped on me and started yelling "Don't fucking touch me!"
He, like I, don't appreciate being randomly touched. But he (and sometimes I do this) is constantly touching people...The difference between him and I is that he is being a creep about it, whereas I am too rough sometimes.
So by each day I tell him "It's gonna be 2 more tomorrow."
And today it was 8, but he flipped out and grabbed me on the wrist and I held back my instinct to hit him in the stomach.

If he does it again, I'm not letting it slide, I'm going to show him not to buck up to me like that. I am not a cruel person, I just don't like people who are my friends and just act like I killed their family and just treats me badly.
I mean, when he hangs around other people, he's that irritating but funny little sprite that flutters around. When he sees me, he gives me the death-face.
I don't care what his problem is, but I am not the person that someone goes to punch for it.
Let me stop since I'm rambling.

Um...That's it for now.

Love y'all!
Good night.

Facing My Final Fears

The title was a bit botched but forgive me.

I left out a detail from my earlier post. How could I have possibly forgotten?

Ok. So at the middle-ish near beginning of the year, Jailyn told us of a collab story that we were going to do and asked if we were interested. Knowing the person I am, I said 'heck yeah!' and signed up.
Turns out its like a movie...With a script and everything. She's been working on it all year, and we haven't heard much about it since.

That is until recently, when I questioned her about it.
She said that she wanted us to meet during the summer and perform it and stuff. Someone's gonna record it...Do some weird click-click-click-click and some tap tap taps on it and BOOM we have a mini-movie.

It's basically about werewolves vs. vampires (Vamps for the win!) and she got all of her friends to make up a character and she'll assign roles and stuff.
So my character's name was Alexander Valast; and from what I remember, he's like some sort of priest who was turned into a vampire and now is a guardian of some princess. I forget, but it sounded cool and all. In my head ('cuz I'm a cosplay geek on the inside!) I was thinking about getting this cool costume and stuff like that, it's epic just thinking about it.

BUT!!
There is a big problem!
I haven't told my folks about A SINGLE THING...But we were going to act them out on school grounds over the summer.
And given with my...Phobias...I don't think I'll be able to participate. Parents have work, of course, my grandmother...I don't know what she'd be doing. Probably on a cruise somewhere...I can't drive, walking is unsafe, I don't trust people swinging by and picking me up...It's a hassle.
By the looks of it, I won't be able to join. Sucks.
However...I could always go for the Hail Mary and ask my parents to drop me off...But then they'd most likely be watching.
Damn my paranoia and the fear that comes from it!!

I don't know how to handle this...So I came to the post box to whine like I usually do.
Why is life so hard?!!?

Don't let the doubts and droughts of my life discourage you, though, my dear friends. This was not meant to play the victim...I just came to bitch like I usually do about how life screws me.
Disregard the previous couple of lines.
I don't even know what I'm trying to say.

Love y'all!
Good night