Hey guys!
It's TDE here, and this is my diary world, full of my day-to-day thoughts and chronologies of my boring, eventful, crazy, insane, funny, awesome, sometimes silly, angry, lazy life.

SO here's some things about me.

Name: Kyle
Age: 16
Gender: Male
Ethnicity: African-American
Zodiac Sign: Taurus
Faith: United Methodist Christian
Birthday: May 14
Occupation: High-school student
Orientation: Aromantic-Asexual
Marital Status: Eternally single
Likes: School (the institution and idea of a school, I don't like the crap that comes with it), this site, anime, watching Vines, video-games, soccer, rock music, being humbly awesome and funny.
Dislikes: Bullies, idiots, loudness, being in dull or stale atmospheres, my laziness, Facebook, the list goes on.
Good Qualities: Smart, funny, forgiving, proud of moral compass, determined, witty, eccentric
Bad Qualities (Oh this will take a while): Has anger problems, a thorn when annoyed, can't sing/dance, socially isolated, has no life, overly nonchalant, emotionally awkward, hardly gets attached, man, where do I end? I think I'll stop at the best one; I'm such an internal jackass that somewhere along the line, you will find a reason to hate me.

List of Favorites-
Anime: *Including but not limited to* Dragon Ball (Including Dragon Ball Z and Dragon Ball: GT), Naruto(:Shippuden), IGPX, Inuyasha, Zatch Bell!, Code Lyoko, Cowboy Bebop, Samurai Champloo, Baka to Test, School Rumble, Shingeki no Kyojin, Soul Eater, [C] The Money and Soul of Possibility Control, Kill la Kill, Kyoukai no Kanata, FLCL, Panty & Stocking, Spice & Wolf, Black Lagoon, RWBY (I consider it an anime), Ao no Exorcist (its okay), .hack//SIGN, Cyborg 009, JoJo's Bizarre Adventure, Astro Boy, Deadman Wonderland, Boku wa Tomadachi ga Sukunai (aka Haganai--both seasons so far), Sengoku Basara (currently watching).
the list goes on...
Video-Games: *Including but not limited to*
Tekken, Dragon Ball Z, (not the biggest fan of FPS games), Need for Speed, games coming from anime, etc.
Watch Dogs
TV Shows:
The Big Bang Theory, The Boondocks, King of The Nerds, Impractical Jokers, Sleepy Hollow, American Horror Story, Anger Management, Jeopardy!, Late Night with Seth Meyers, Saturday Night Live!, Last Week Tonight with John Oliver, Family Guy (a little).
Movies: OMG I've seen a lot of movies!!
Equilibrium (Christian Bale, Tay Diggs)
Fight Club (Edward Norton, Brad Pitt)
Sucker Punch (Emily Browning)
Ip Man *All of them* (Donnie Yen)
The Raid: Redemption (Iko Uwais)
The Raid: Berandal (Iko Uwais)
Michael Bay's "Transformers" (I STILL think the first one was the best)
The Secret Life of Walter Mitty (Ben Stiller)
Tower Heist (Ben Stiller)
Collateral (Jamie Foxx, Tom Cruise)
Oblivion (Tom Cruise)
Cop Out (Bruce Willis, Tracy Morgan)
Damaged (Steve Austin)
Resident Evil (Milla Jovovich)
Tekken (Live action was pretty good)
Flowers in the Attic
The One (Jet Li)
Looper (Joseph Gordon Levitt)
Premium Rush (Joseph Gordon Levitt)
300 (Gerard Butler)
The Bounty Hunter (Gerard Butler)
Gamer (Gerard Butler)
The Expendables *All; the 3rd has yet to be released* (Who isn't in that movie?)
Parental Guidance
Admissions (Tina Fey)
the list will never cease...
Genre(s) of Music: Rock, JRock, Metal, Electric/Techno, (occasional Vocaloid), anime OST, video-game OST.
Band: The Pillows, Avenged Sevenfold, American Rejects, Coldplay
Song: Last Dinosaur by The Pillows & One Life by the Pillows

~!My Best Friends On Here!~

Domine Kuro
toyotami kun
kita mikichi
Hikari the Wolf
Team Plasma N
Larxy the Strange
Hana Ishida
Blue Tea
Elemental Ninja
Sweet Tea
Naomi Bear
Prismblossom (Although she is no longer with us)
-Shout yourselves out!
Song of my Life I

Song of my Life II
This Fire Burns by Killswitch Engage
Song of my Life III
No More Words by Endeverafter
Song of ME
As I am by Logic


This Is Why!

Right now I have to express something.
That expression is slight frustration.
Frustration with how my year has been, my Sophomore year. So far this Calendar Year has gone off to a great start, but my Sophomore year just from start to now, its near end, has been crap!

Well once again, I have made Honor Roll, but I am disappointed. I'm disappointed because I received a solid 3.0, that's a fraction of a point away from a 2.9 which wouldn't have been considered Honor Roll, that kinda sucks if I put it in perspective.
Like I've reiterated in the past, the institution I want to go into desperately, the one thing that I know I want to do, requires that I have a 3.5 GPA, which I have not been receiving lately. That really bums me out.
Especially because its been...Built into me, if you would, that I've always been revered for being smart, for being good at school, for always being able to excel at this. Now, I've come to a huge brick wall and that hubris is just looking back at me and it feels like a huge punch to the face.

That's why I hate flattery! I don't mind an occasional compliment, but I really hate it when people flatter me. Softening blows with light comments does more harm than good to me. When it comes to my self-esteem, its hard to explain...If I had a Self-Esteem meter, the meter would read *Absolute Indifferent* or one of those infinite symbols or *Error*
Not in a bad way...I literally could not care less what people thought of me or said about me, I am trying to know who I am but its kinda hard to considering how much of a perfectionist I usually am (Which has been decreasing lately and now I kinda want some of it back!) and how I'm only 15 years old...I HAVE NO IDENTITY!
At the same time I know who I am...How does this make sense?

Anyways, lately I've been significantly less of a perfectionist, and now I kinda want that back. That perfectionist uptight part of me always made sure that I checked back, that I crossed my "T"s and dotted my "I"s, that I've tried to stop being lazy. Now that part of me isn't really present; nowadays I'm far too relaxed, I've become too lazy! I wanted no "C"s on my Progress Report (and I'm actually somewhat satisfied with it) and I got a few...And I managed to scrap a 60 in Chemistry, this is pathetic!

Huff, and its getting worse.
I'm really just upset by this, I'm really mad at myself for letting my laziness get to me.
Plus its my mom's birthday today and I've been trying to dedicate my Saturdays to studying, but instead either I get lazy or things come up. Not saying that my mom's birthday is trivial, but it just really seems messed up how I keep trying and it only makes things worse.
Usually I'm more of a patient person, but now with things like this I get very anxious so I just really feel on edge about it.

I'm definitely downsizing this rant because right now I just feel like I need to be alone but I shouldn't at the same time.
I really can't stand these feelings. Not motivated enough to do anything and too mad at myself to fix it.
Really makes me feel inadequate.

I'm saving my rant about my family for later, if I ever do it.

This Is So Wrong!!

What the hell is wrong with me?!?!?!?!
I'm so lazy....
I don't want to do ay work, huff!!

P.S: Why did I stay up till 2:00 in the morning and end up waking up at 6:30?

Switch Stop Trip, Fail!

Yeah this day has been face-paced, man. Let me just speed through this because I still have hectic amounts of studying to do, which I don't even know if I'll be able to do. Gosh, I'm so backed up and stuffed with work that its not funny! ...

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TDE's Ether Time: "Test-Ti-Cult!!"

Hello everyone...Today is Thursday March 6th, 2014...It is 6:47 here where I am. My life, as you all know, has crazy parts to it. And another great thing, it is the second day of Lent! Cool. Now one of the things I said that I'd give...

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Now You're Just Going Out Of Your Way!

Yeah, that's pretty much my day. Yet again I needed another 5 minutes of sleep, but this time I didn't take too long to eat. Okay, no biggie. But here is the one thing that really made me face-palm myself. I forgot my watch and my c...

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