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Too Much For Words
These days are making me feel bipolar.
First of all, I went to church to review my Baptism.
I CANNOT WAIT!!!!
I will feel like a new person (That's kinda the point, silly boy), which I need right now because lately I have felt off.
Today I cussed a lot, which is expectable for a B-Day.
We did absolutely NOTHING in ROTC today after Inspection.
Ugh, crap! Progress Reports are locked.
And my biology grade is still a sucky 62. That's what I get for...What happened:
I got a 76 on a test, (FAIL!)
then I lost some classwork grades (FAIL!)
I won't stress about it too much, I just hope nobody else does.
They say that Progress Reports aren't really important, but they just creep me out; what if it was a Report Card.
Result-I'm a dead guy walking.
4th period...Surprisingly, not that crazy.
My irritation, however, is rising.
Especially since I'm coming down with something;
I've been sneezing and coughing all today. This sucks.
What made it terrible is that I had to take that Nyquil stuff and it tastes horrid.
However, I just tossed it back, shook my head, and had no regrets afterward.
I am amazed at how fast I chugged it, not to brag.
I've been doing some 'light' training for COLP.
40 push-ups.......*Drops dead* I can barely do 10 now, this sucks.
Yesterday I did 5, today I did 9...By the looks of it, we're going to be in trouble.
What else?!
OH, yeah, I really can't believe that I'm running for Treasurer.
The only way that I can win is if I'm running uncontested (which I am). I've been trying to make announcements about my activities and my running for the position.
Not working out well for me.
I tried at lunch time and I got a well-developed "boo" from practically everyone in the cafeteria.
...fuck.
Speaking of school, I am really sad because my Senior friends are going to be leaving, and this person who I thought was a Junior but is actually a leaving Senior.
The sadness continues. Considering the fact that I know very few Juniors who will be Seniors next year.
Time flies, man.
Final Thought.
I need help.
And a lot of time.
I've been really wanting to write but I've been so busy lately, and I've almost lost what I'm doing.
But the thing about that is; I'm torn between actually writing Episode 2 of "Warrior's Note" or if I should buckle down on "Bloodbath" and get into deeper development.
(Or if I should finally try again with "AfterMath Wars")
Either or...I need another notebook to fill stuff up.
My memory isn't enough to suffice for this anymore, I need to journal my stuff before I end up losing something really valuable.
Anyways, that's all from me tonight
Love y'all!
Good night.
Sprialing Life
My life is so complicated.
Why, I have no idea.
The fact that I'm still sane is a mystery.
Today was not horrible, but I feel like I should be doing a lot better.
Grade-wise, that's the horrible part.
I don't feel good about my Geometry grade; it's confusing sometimes.
However, English is great.
I found out that I have a 93 in English.
French...Not bad, I just need to study more. Which I am doing.
History, though.
We had a test today and I got a 70.
I hope this doesn't end up to turn out like Biology.
Speaking of which, I'll just take the L for now. My pride will sustain some pain, but at least my honor as a human being will stay intact.
I've been doing bad on tests, of life, and of grades (slightly).
Yeah.
The craziest part of my day is the resurrection of the hatchet that I supposedly 'buried'.
The same one from 1st period...
...She should never mess with me when I'm in a good mood 'cuz it just really drains my energy.
She had to take a test and wound up sticking in my 4th period class.
I tried to be nice, but apparently I should choose another option.
I won't get into detail since I don't like to bitch and whine, I'm not even upset about it, I'm just thinking in my head "Seriously? We're doing this again?"
However, I think that this was a test of will...That I failed.
I think it was God testing me to see if I'd really take the higher road and ignore or do something else like that. I've never been able to ignore, but I could've handled that a lot better.
Still, I won't stay bummed about it forever.
Live to fight another day, I guess.
I don't know, I'm just doing whatever I can to just not be pissed off.
Love y'all!
Good night.
P.S: I really have no idea what I want to do today.
Still Trying
Have you ever felt angry, but still want to keep a smile on your face?
Story of my day, right there.
I'm trying to stay optimistic, I'm trying to stay unfazed, and its working...Just a little bit, though.
So, today had its ups and downs.
1st period...No problems, but my friend wasn't there so I was bored for a while.
2nd period...Normal.
3rd period...Normal...EXCEPT!!!
I found out that I have a fucking 62 in that class! WTF!?
I know I got a 76 on one test, but I saw some missing assignments and now I'm fucked.
Unless I get some of the work done, which I will do.
I don't know how well that will fare, though.
Ugh, regarding tests and shit, 4th quarter is not my quarter so far.
I don't know when progress reports will come in, but until then; I have a lot of work to do.
Lunch was a bit weird.
This person who I've been trying to avoid because she is CRAZY...Is suddenly trying to talk to me.
Why, I have no idea, I thought I clearly stated that I wanted no further connection to this person. Whatever, I looked it over for today, next time I might just put my foot down.
Then comes 4th period.
I don't know if I've ever told you all about that class, but its insane.
Every single day the same group of people just do nothing but talk shit over and over and over. The teacher has lost his mind trying to figure out what to do. My idea, just send 'em out. If they get put back and they're still acting up, keep sending them until they get suspended or written up, or whatever.
That's just me, though.
I think that I have a right to get involved because they're saying really racially insensitive stuff about Hispanics, and my Grandfather is from Panama.
Now, I know I haven't really delved into that cultural side of my family, but I don't give a fuck.
So I've wound up getting involved. The thing about that is, I don't usually do stuff like that, I get my work done, but people still pick at my nerves and I can't ignore it.
People say stuff like that all the time. That's kindergarten stuff!
We are not 5-yaers-old anymore, ignoring is not an option.
"Sticks & Stones may break my bones..." Fuck that, too!
'Words will never hurt you'?!
Have you shitheads been listening to the news?! People COMMIT FUCKING SUICIDE over words. And if you go and say that they're weak-willed and that their deaths are irrelevant because it was 'just words'...You have no soul and no appreciation for life itself.
People get locked up for saying things...
People get killed for saying things...
It is a sin to say certain things (well, actually, its the conviction behind it that's a sin)...
Words don't hurt...Ever heard 'the pen is mightier than the sword'?
The list goes on and on.
So the guy sent me and another person out.
I never get sent out and I was just doing what almost any human being would do.
But he took it to the next level, he sent me to Sr. Chief's and said "Can he stay here before I beat the shit out of him?"
And if any of you know the person I'm talking about, he admitted from day 1 that he was a drinker, and recently he's been doing a lot.
I get that he was mad, and I mean no disrespect as a teacher, but that really didn't call for a threat.
If I can get suspended for saying stuff like that (I never have, but people say that you can) and I'm a student...I would think that a teacher would know damn well not to say it to a student.
Still.
So I was sent to the trailer and Sr. Chief said "Don't make a sound."
He was standing right beside me while he was explaining his lesson, and I dropped my ID and instinctively went "Whoops."
He got on me for that, and previously for asking that if I could participate since it was the last couple minutes of class.
Then one of his students started picking at me.
Still; so after school was over he sat me down and gave me a mini-lecture.
He said that if he hears of me doing stuff like this again, he'll drop me from ROTC.
This really irritated me!
There are a few cadets who have skipped at least 2 quarters of the ROTC class, and one guy even threatened to fight him.
Then there is more to the well of the witless, but the point is that I have not had any problem with SCPO...Now here comes one incident and he's ready to drop me from the whole program?
Where is the justice in that shit?!
I'm not harping on it forever, but it made me go "What the fucking hell?".
It's been a while since I've cussed like this, but I can honestly say that I could've done far worse.
Whatever.
-TDE
