Hey guys!
It's TDE here, and this is my diary world, full of my day-to-day thoughts and chronologies of my boring, eventful, crazy, insane, funny, awesome, sometimes silly, angry, lazy life.

SO here's some things about me.

Name: Kyle
Age: 16
Gender: Male
Ethnicity: African-American
Zodiac Sign: Taurus
Faith: United Methodist Christian
Birthday: May 14
Occupation: High-school student
Orientation: Aromantic-Asexual
Marital Status: Eternally single
Likes: School (the institution and idea of a school, I don't like the crap that comes with it), this site, anime, watching Vines, video-games, soccer, rock music, being humbly awesome and funny.
Dislikes: Bullies, idiots, loudness, being in dull or stale atmospheres, my laziness, Facebook, the list goes on.
Good Qualities: Smart, funny, forgiving, proud of moral compass, determined, witty, eccentric
Bad Qualities (Oh this will take a while): Has anger problems, a thorn when annoyed, can't sing/dance, socially isolated, has no life, overly nonchalant, emotionally awkward, hardly gets attached, man, where do I end? I think I'll stop at the best one; I'm such an internal jackass that somewhere along the line, you will find a reason to hate me.

List of Favorites-
Anime: *Including but not limited to* Dragon Ball (Including Dragon Ball Z and Dragon Ball: GT), Naruto(:Shippuden), IGPX, Inuyasha, Zatch Bell!, Code Lyoko, Cowboy Bebop, Samurai Champloo, Baka to Test, School Rumble, Shingeki no Kyojin, Soul Eater, [C] The Money and Soul of Possibility Control, Kill la Kill, Kyoukai no Kanata, FLCL, Panty & Stocking, Spice & Wolf, Black Lagoon, RWBY (I consider it an anime), Ao no Exorcist (its okay), .hack//SIGN, Cyborg 009, JoJo's Bizarre Adventure, Astro Boy, Deadman Wonderland, Boku wa Tomadachi ga Sukunai (aka Haganai--both seasons so far), Sengoku Basara (currently watching).
the list goes on...
Video-Games: *Including but not limited to*
KINGDOM HEARTS!!!!!!!!
Tekken, Dragon Ball Z, (not the biggest fan of FPS games), Need for Speed, games coming from anime, etc.
Watch Dogs
TV Shows:
The Big Bang Theory, The Boondocks, King of The Nerds, Impractical Jokers, Sleepy Hollow, American Horror Story, Anger Management, Jeopardy!, Late Night with Seth Meyers, Saturday Night Live!, Last Week Tonight with John Oliver, Family Guy (a little).
Movies: OMG I've seen a lot of movies!!
Equilibrium (Christian Bale, Tay Diggs)
Fight Club (Edward Norton, Brad Pitt)
Sucker Punch (Emily Browning)
Ip Man *All of them* (Donnie Yen)
The Raid: Redemption (Iko Uwais)
The Raid: Berandal (Iko Uwais)
Michael Bay's "Transformers" (I STILL think the first one was the best)
The Secret Life of Walter Mitty (Ben Stiller)
Tower Heist (Ben Stiller)
Collateral (Jamie Foxx, Tom Cruise)
Oblivion (Tom Cruise)
Cop Out (Bruce Willis, Tracy Morgan)
Damaged (Steve Austin)
Resident Evil (Milla Jovovich)
Tekken (Live action was pretty good)
Fireball
Flowers in the Attic
The One (Jet Li)
Looper (Joseph Gordon Levitt)
Premium Rush (Joseph Gordon Levitt)
300 (Gerard Butler)
The Bounty Hunter (Gerard Butler)
Gamer (Gerard Butler)
The Expendables *All; the 3rd has yet to be released* (Who isn't in that movie?)
Parental Guidance
Admissions (Tina Fey)
the list will never cease...
Genre(s) of Music: Rock, JRock, Metal, Electric/Techno, (occasional Vocaloid), anime OST, video-game OST.
Band: The Pillows, Avenged Sevenfold, American Rejects, Coldplay
Song: Last Dinosaur by The Pillows & One Life by the Pillows

~!My Best Friends On Here!~

Domine Kuro
LightFykki
MangaKid
Hifsa
Klassic
XxArrancarFanxX
nimbusoak
neilly
toyotami kun
DuArMittAllt
Creshendeath
clueless101
kita mikichi
Hikari the Wolf
Team Plasma N
Larxy the Strange
RaiumitheKHFan
MintIceCream
Hana Ishida
HotRamen2Go009
Blue Tea
Elemental Ninja
Elricbrothersfan
animegirl171
Sweet Tea
Eneko
Naomi Bear
Prismblossom (Although she is no longer with us)
-Shout yourselves out!
Song of my Life I

Song of my Life II
This Fire Burns by Killswitch Engage
Song of my Life III
No More Words by Endeverafter
Song of ME
As I am by Logic

-TDE

I'm Getting Old--haha

Oh gosh, I can't believe how old I feel.

I woke up this morning thinking it was Monday, and its Sunday.

Anyways, that's the end of this post.

Equals...[rant]

Not really a rant, just a rather negative post.

Things just haven't changed much.
Not for the better at least.
Anyways.

I had such plans for tonight but I got forced out and we just got back...Pretty bummed about that. Gosh, I really hate times like that.
Y'know when you think you have everything sorted out and Godzilla just comes and steps on your project? Irritates the crap out of me.

I can't even really explain all that well because I'm "Emotionally intoxicated" as I now dub it.
By that I mean how you can't describe or explain what your feeling is, but you just know its sucks and it hurts...I hate getting like that.
Makes me feel like I'm a mopey little crybaby.

Trying not to sound or act childish is all--
I am just mentally gone--I'm not even here.

And I have to wake up super freaking early tomorrow.
It's sort of a "Kill me now--why am I even here" type of feeling.

This whole movie ordeal--I'm kinda getting over it. Still sucks and still feels pretty lame considering how its the only thing I've looked forward to in a while.

I don't know, maybe if my crazy plan/idea actually works it might work out alright?
Jeez, why do I keep talking about it...The fact that I keep talking about it contributes to this crappy feeling I have, its so nerve-wrecking.

I sound super childish.
Everything is just boring right now.

I wish I could just fall asleep and wake up not remembering half of the past couple of hours...Put me out of my misery because this is just a painstaking and awful feeling I have.
Lack of motivation.
Not happy with anything.
Trouble finding joy.
Self criticism.
Complaining about complaining.
Irritation.
A little bit of anger.
Negative thoughts and perceptions of self.

WTF?
I hope this post changes some of that...Even in the slightest.
This is all lame.

Grawl...

I'm freaking bored.

And hungry.

Horrible combination.

What is wrong with me?
After I eat I should do the other part of that homework page.
If I complete the whole page tonight I'll be on fire.
Considering how nothing else is important.

I'm trying to do something else though--hope it goes well.

Meh--Doing It Quick

I'm running out of awesome titles.

ANYWAYS.
No formal or informal intro, I'll just go--
I have no idea why but my dreams have been getting crazier and crazier. I won't get into detail about them but this one involved snow...And I forget the rest.

Lately that's been what happens with my dreams.
I don't even know what time I went to sleep but I know it was early--and then I kept trying to do some other things but I ended up drifting.

As for my day it was alright.
Finally I'm getting the jump on this history homework. At the rate I'm going I should be done by the end of the week, but then comes more studying. So I'll have quite a time with it.

I really didn't want to do it because its just--so awfully painful but eventually I grinded and got through another page...Now I have 5 or 6 more pages to go...Great.
The worst part of it is how long it takes to find the answers you're looking for. I don't mind reading but I feel like a lot of the stuff I'm reading is getting me NOWHERE...And besides, a lot of the answers aren't even in the book. Plus its all anachronistic so there's a lot of flipping back and forth between chapters of chapters of information. It sucks.

Like chapters 5 and 8 are about Chinese history...But Chapters 6 and 7 have absolutely nothing to do with Chinese history, and each chapter is about 20 to 30 pages so I'm sticking pencils and pens in certain pages so I can just go back and recollect information and piece it all together.
Feel like I'm trying to solve the Da Vinci Code...And I've never even seen that movie.

Speaking of movies, there's absolutely nothing on TV. I deleted yesterday's Late Night w/ Seth Meyers because Joan Rivers is annoying and horrible. But immediately after I did that I thought "Oh crap, John Meyers (yes that is Seth Meyers' brother) was on that episode."
*Face Palm*

And another thing about movies, I think this DBZ thing is done. I looked it up and the only theaters left are in different towns or counties--and the last showing is at noon on Saturday, the closest I could find. And my mom is super busy so its a no-go...I'll have to ask my aunt or uncle and they probably have to work so--bleh, that sucks.
TBH I've already come to terms with it...So I take this time to express my displeasure at the situation by doing this:

Damn.

I'm done.

I'm trying not to overthink it because honestly everything else has been boring lately and I was really looking forward to this. Plus the more I think about it the worse I feel.
Puts such a damper on things...Now I'm bored.

Well now we're moving on to the anime portion of this post:
Will be watching RWBY after I post this, Naruto, and probably Watamote or Jojo...I've given up Basara.

That's the one thing I regret about this whole summer is that I have not completed any anime at all...Unless the ones that are ending on Toonami count...But a good thing is that I've started the Enies Lobby arc.

ALSO to all "Legend of Korra" fans out there--they took it off of Nick and is sticking to digital (online) episodes because people kept illegally uploading it or something of that nature.
I was wondering why in the heck it would only come on like once every 2 weeks then disappeared, then came back, it was starting to be annoying.

I might just do homework 'till hours of the night--or until someone wonders why my bedroom light is on past 11:00...
Yawn.

Love y'all
-TDE

Forgot the P.S

Darn it, right as I clicked the "Publish" button I forgot about the P.S.

P.S:
What else bummed me out was that my phone wouldn't work.
Lately I've been carrying my headphones (I now have a back-up pair) with me because we're doing a lot of driving and waiting...So I would listen to music wherever I go--but yesterday it just refused to work anywhere.

With all of what went down yesterday I was really in the mood for this one song I've lately been listening to but I couldn't even hear it 'till now...
So that sucked.