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LIFE.. Its a diamond in the dodo (yes that dodo)

Warning this is three pages long but with a good morel :D

Howdy and hello! Its Yours Truly here with her not so daily updates!

How’s everyone doing? Good I hope. Me? It’s been a bit of those rollercoaster periods of my life mostly emotionally but I’m back on track again ready to get things started! I’ll go through it all.

In the last few weeks I’ve been debating the whole charm thing. Mostly of it going up in smoke like it will never work kind of thing, especially the fact that a lot of people make them much better then I do. I tried to make a cake with the frosting and it looks okay but messy at the most but not like I was Edward scissor hands haha.

I thought to myself “this looks like crap, but I know I’m learning so don’t be so hard.. But I want it to be right now. How do those people make there’s so good looking? I know no one starts perfect EVER but I want this to work NOW. I want to be good NOW. So I can sale these NOW and make money NOW so I can be can live out my dreams NOW, even though people say that its journey of getting there but I say fuck that. I want it NOW, NOW, NOW. Get were I’m going here?

It’s so hard being concerned with being the best now because you only get stressed out and that’s more then a pain in the ass. Life itself give me enough grief, I don’t need my hobbies that’s suppose to be fun giving me stress too.

So that was the seed of it. Fun times

I think I mentioned that my older sister was starting her business. I didn’t say any details about it since she wasn’t really telling anybody about and it was in the works. Now it’s doing well, she makes her own lip glosses. All natural, and in pretty colors. I and she made the very first ones and they came out great. The thing I really want to point out is that the ingredients that the retail lip glosses have are bad for you and sink into your lips/body. My sister doesn’t have that. Its like home made bread from scratch vs. bread from a big company that puts all kinds of shit in it that you can’t even pronounce. Anyway getting to the point my sister’s is doing good and my mom sells the glosses at her job to her co workers.

This made me think “what the hell am I’m going to do sell this stuff besides the internet? Is my stuff going to be a hit too? I don’t have all the skills of those really go ones or the equipment? “. But I reminded myself that this was my learning period. I’m using this time to learn more about business so don’t freak, you’re not in the starting line yet. I just can’t help myself some times but to worry. If I don’t think about it now I will in the future, etc, etc, emo, emo.. I try to not get myself into this twisted mind set, but I’ve been a glutton of punishment these days and forget to stop worrying about things that don’t even effect me yet and enjoy myself.

Then my mom had gotten her income tax and my sister brought more things for her lip glosses. My mom wanted to help me too of course and even asked me about using the money for hosting a real website for my store. I and my older sister talked about it a few times but nothing official. At that moment I knew I wasn’t ready for that, I haven’t even sold one charm yet and If I were to get a real website I want to know that my charms can sell. My mom told me if there was anything I needed to help launch my business she would give me the money. But actually I didn’t really know what I really wanted at that point. If anything I wanted a new game for my poor DS. I explained this in an earlier post, which I only had one game on the DS since I got it which was years aka eras ago. Not to mention my PS2 died when I was really depressed and angry, I needed something to do something positive and completely fantasy. I told my mom and she understood completely and gave me here debit card to get a game for myself and her. That’s when I got “the world ends with you” and “big bang mini”. I love both games and it was something I needed to help relive the stress, anger, and depression.

Even though I didn’t feel as bad about the whole charm business I still didn’t know what to do. Then my said that she would give me 100$ for my disposal. Weeks went by and just looking at the charms on the internet I just wasn’t feeling it. I damn there didn’t want to deal with it anymore. I didn’t want to feel this way either. I wanted to feel inspired and make charms but the mojo was gone. So then I just gave it a rest just in case it was like an artist block or something.

During all this I’m always searching tutorials on charms or anything I can make on my own with low cost materials, on the internet, books, whatever I’m there. The ones I’m most excited about was a magnet book marks and hair bows and accessories. During one of my trips I got a really good beginners sewing book for ten bucks. I want to learn sewing so this was perfect for me.

Then I was on the computer thinking about all this and decided to look in my business journal to read what I wrote down why I wanted to start charm business. Long story short I just want to do something made me happy. Something that live off of one day without working at a crappy job or struggling to pay the bills. Really gave me some insight of the deeper meaning of the whole thing, but I was still wondering if this charm business was the why to go. If the mojo was really gone for good? Should I try something else completely? I STILL have the 100$ but if I was going to spend it, it was something my heart was into.

Then I start looking at other kinds of homemade crafts and jewelry. Things like ribbon chocker’s and lace arm cuffs. Also simple things I can sew together like arm warmers, hats, ties. More branching out of just charms but other things that I can just as easily make and sell. So then I start making a list of things I need to make everything I wanted. I was making progress but I still wasn’t at 100% percent like I wanted.

Then about a week or two ago just I looking at more crafts and jewelry the one simple thought came to my mind.

“Why don’t I just draw designs of my own jewelry?”

Now the killer in this statement that I did sketch out some charms (less then five at different times) like last year but never sat down and draw/planed out a design. I’ve probably said to myself I want to do a cake or food item and picked some colors that I liked and tried to make one. But when it came to more jewelry and accessories I never designed any. I would see something I like and say to myself “damn that’s cool I want to make that!” and then think of what kind of things I would need to make it and/or worry about if I was able too. Instead of simply just designing something of my own style and how I would make it rather then how SHE did it and being wrapped up on her end. All the negative stuff, the things I can’t control.

I was so into the NOW thing that I didn’t seem to get this concept. WHY? I don’t know… I guess that being human in this world. So caught up with things that you can’t control or NOW that you can’t see the simple things that can get you THERE.

Now here comes the quote of the day. This was said by a brilliant women.. my older sis.

“Sip a Nantucket and just say fuck it” XD

Or in other words… Just chill, don’t stress, go and relax, do something that you can easily unwind you. It might save you many brain cells that you can use to process relaxing better and gain the insight that you need. And to never give up and the rest of that crap we’ve been hearing since forever. It’s the road getting down there that you have to learn to avoid.

To wrap this up, when I did went upstairs and draw out designs a freak’n ass load of ideas came to me. I almost couldn’t keep up. Cool, simple, awesome, designs. Finally, I was blessed by the craft and art gods. They must love me because I’ll been getting spikes of inspiration like this sometimes then fall from cloud nine then to do it over again some time later

Anyway...

I took the money and got a lot of stuff that I needed on sale including a book on jewelry making for kids and teens. I finally had a chance to work with the camera and can take real pictures of my charms. I feel renewed and hopeful again. I hope this feeling stays this time. Forever. I can really start over.

I’m done. Just one part of my life that’s been in the works.

School killed me this week. A Final project and a final exam one coming up next Friday. I have three days off so major yay.

I hope you enjoy yet another life speech on how it’s like to live though life lessons thrown under you.

God damn I hope this is my last life time… :|

Good night and all a good life.

PS2 DEAD,new DS games, V-day,

Holly ho!

How’s everyone doing! I hope everything has been good!

Well, here’s another post on the wonderful Valentines day! This has to be my second favorite holiday (after Halloween of course!). I love everything about it! The colors, meaning, those cute ass cupids, and finally chocolates! I mean it’s the celebration of love what’s not to like? Everyone loves love! I sure do! :3 BUT the biggest beef I got for the holiday is not the holiday itself but those stink’n people that’s all “I hate V-day, Love is for suckers, I have no one!, that’s what she said” bitch bitch nag nag. DUDE, SHUT UP PLEASE! No one cares if you hate V-day or your so f-ing emo < (the bad kind too) about it. There’s nothing to get bend out of shape about. You don’t have to have a partner to have a good V-day, or one at all! I never had a partner and LOVE it!

It’s Celebration of love, not your perspective of how undesirable you think you are. Tell your parents that you love them, call your friends and say “Hey! I dig this friendship, let’s keep it going” something that makes your heart 3x as big. Just feel the love, its all around! More then you think.

But I will say this! If you’re that caught up on the negative aspects (which V-day does not celebrate) of it then shit, you deserve to but sad. Grab that gallon of ice cream and eat your way to happiness! I’m sure THAT works every time :p

Anyway, I’m sad to say that my PS2 had died a few weeks ago. I knew it was kicking the can so when the start up screen didn’t come up, I knew my baby had passed. Oh, she treated me well for 7-8 years. So many memories. R.I.P baby

But on the bright side I got two new shiny DS games! I was dying for some new games for years. Not to mention I only had one DS game since I got the DS years ago :. I wanted something that will have me playing for weeks and not get boring yet something that didn’t have a deep learning curve or retardedly hard. So I got “The world ends with you” and “Big Bang mini”. I love both games and if you’re a cheap ass like me and want a REALLY fun game Big Bang Mini is for you! Only 20 bucks and brand new! You shoot fire works at wacky enemies and there’s loads of eye candy to look at. But at the same time its not super easy and it gets challenging. Buy it for your loved one (or yourself). :3

Oh and the world ends with you is great but WAY TOO MUCH Talking. My god, shiki talk so much and she got that generic thing with her. Pink hair (whatever color), want’s to help everybody, want’s Neku to” open up” all the time (for a good reason but still), somewhat stupid but knows how to fight, well I might add (I love her moves) YET “spoiler alert! When Neku tries to kill her she doesn’t find back just “oh don’t kill me, I’m so fucking helpless even though I can kick your ass right now. And after it, shes all like “Aww, its okay! Shit happens Desu!... What? o_o0… , . I was thinking they was going to avoid that cliché all together. I don’t “hate” her but expected much more. But I love Neku even though he has that “I hate people, no one understands me, I trust no one, I use too much gel in my angular hair.” Cliché, but I like that kind of thing from boy… Its sexy, then it reminds me of myself a bit D:. Now I want to draw him, dammit too much stuff I want to draw >_<0.

Other then that I love the game so far. The fighting is awesome once you get the hang of it. But you have to save constantly because you get your ass kicked so much and start where you last saved, no questions asked, and you will have to go through the entire dialog AGAIN which can get frustrating. Oh yeah, one last thing! When you scan and Neku said “open your senses” or whatever I laughed so hard and did every time he said something scanning people. XD

I’m a mess…

Okay, that’s it for today. This post is long enough! XD Thank you for all the hugs, favorites and postings on Café Mew Mew! Have a Great V-day and weekend while I’m at school!

(hopefully nobody died off the mass typos and gammer errors in reading of this post)

3 hour delay ._.0

Okay I just hustle my butt to school to find out that theres a 3 hour delay... Morning classes start at 12:00PM... WTF....

WHY have classes at all?! People start leaving at 12:30PM so wtf seriously... I guess I can't be that pissed, I can catch up on posting,commenting, and drawing etc. Not to mention that I can print out pictures to my hearts desire.

This is going to be one hell of a day.

Busy bee

Hey all!

Just updating on things and letting you guys know what happening on the other side of your screen :D.

I’ve been busy. Busy, busy, busy working on things. Like my other two mascots for the candy sanctuary. I got the girl one (doesn’t have a name yet) drawn and inked, all I have to do is color. The other boy one Xavier is really to be drawn. I was supposed to do it last night but I got wrapped up in trying to find good Sonic the Hedgehog remixes XD. And that I was tired. So I just let it slide. Oh, yeah the main one (the one I submitted) is name Bon Bon! Its soo cute I had to name him that! They all have back stories and Bon Bon’s story is how the candy sanctuary came into existence. I was working on it a few days ago and I love it! The others pretty much found their way there. I’ll post all the stories and in that world once it’s written. I also have to make the banner for that world too but I have to finish the pictures colored and all to do that so I should have them done soon.

I’ve been busy with other things also too like my new TMM café world! Once again thanks for all the comments, hugs, and tips, they are all greatly appreciated. I’m going to post there again soon on the café maid outfits. Some drawn refs from me and how to make one successfully. I’m also writing everything that I want to post there so I’ll never be stuck and have the world active and full of members! If you want to join to start posting pictures and receiving help and stuff just PM me. I already have two members that I’ve have yet to give them the guest posting rights or whatever, I’m sorry I’ve been busy and wanted to think of more member fun stuff but it will come when it come so I’ll give you guys a PM within two days. Bear with me guys XD.

Ummm, what else? Oh, I made a cake charm. I don’t think it looks that good but I don’t try to be all hard and strict with my self because it discourage and burns me out fast. I am STILL new to clay and making a cake charm so yeah ^_^; I still learning and I’ll get better with each one!

That’s it really; I haven’t worked on any templates yet or anything besides “what to do list” things XD. So uh yeah haha…

Have a good day!

More updates! store closing, new club!

Hey guys!

Sorry that I haven’t posted any art or commented as much in the last week or so, I’ve been busy thinking of new things and organizing ideas. By the time your done reading this journal you’ll definitely be as exited as I am about them!

As far as the charm online store I feel like that I opened it prematurely, I think I need to gather more information on business and getting my name out there before I can just “open a store” XD. My sister is in to business and knows more then I do. She is also is starting a business and is in the same kind of boat as I am (she didn’t open any stores though ha-ha).

All and all I think I need to sort of start over and start fresh. Read more on the subject and on myself, to really understand everything so I won’t hit any major walls or pit falls and to let this new journey as joyful as possible. So for now the store will be closed, but I will still post up my creations and if anyone wants to buy it they can. As for as making charms (stock/inventory) and placing them for the sole purpose for people to buy them, that will be put on hold for a while.

But when’s there death there birth! I’ll be making mini comics about the mascots in The Candy Sanctuary! Think it’s a good way to keep the world active besides the charms, and I think it would be fun to make. I have to draw out the two other mascots too. I have there basic design in my head all I have to do is to draw it out.

I’ve been lacking in the art department for over a week thinking over all the new ideas and business plans, not to mention school. I’m always beat after school and pretty much scrapped drawing for the night. It will sure pay off and I’ll get to work tomorrow pronto!

My second plan is a TMM club called “Café mew mew”. I think I touched on it last post but I organized the details about it and really excited about it! I made sure that it’s unique then the rest of the traditional TMM clubs. I want it to be a place that people can come relax, to get help with there mew drawings, designs, etc, and most of all to have fun! I also put a twist on the “contest” instead the club will have “fashion shows” where I’ll pick a theme and everyone can draw an outfit to that theme. To really pump it up the prizes will be my hand made charms for free! Like mew pendants, heart earrings, weapons etc. I also have other competition ideas in mind too! I have other things that the club will offer in the list below since I don’t want you guys read a huge block of wordsXD

Here are some the things my club will be offering:

• Character intros- You can post a sketch a possible fan mew and get comments and/or advice on it by me or the rest of the members of the club or just post it there if you don’t want to submit it to TheO.

• The café help line- You can seek advice to how to improve your character like the bio, costume, back-story, weapons, mew names, etc.

• Tutorials and resource discovery- I will post tutorials and guides how to make a mew (including my own). I’ll post pictures of poses, bodies, reference pictures, etc made by me. I’ll post links around the web of great stock pictures, inspiration, character development, drawing information, free Photoshop brushes and tutorials, etc so will never hit art block again and stay inspired!

• Mew repair- If your mew needs a full revamp, needs work, or you just hit a road block that you can’t go over, and you can submit your mew to get a design repair/option!

• Fashion shows- Hold themed fashion contests for members to have a chance to win custom jewelry from me!

• Fanfics/ Mini stories- I’m really debating this one, there are so many other clubs that offer fanfics that I think it would be kinda useless for one more club to have it (but if you guys want it that’s fine) D:. The mini stories would be short stories about my mews (not the sweet collection ones) that I really don’t pay much attention too anymore or wanted to do more with but way to busy to do it.

I really want this club to be about helping the artists (those who draw TMM and those who don’t) on this site. I also think it will bring the artists around here together more :3. I always wanted a club like this but I never thought I would have the time or be 100% commented to it. I think it wasn’t the time but I ready for it! >:D

Tell me what you think; this club is gearing towards the members!

Last but not least my plans in the art direction!

While asking myself questions in my business state of mind I’ve notice that I love designing things. Like logos, web graphics, websites, clothes, and lap top skins etc. I also want to sell those designs too in the future. So in the mean time I decided to gather as many blank templates as possible. I was so excited downloading them all and seeing other peoples designs on them I wanted to burst with creative energy! I’m so set and ready and I can’t wait. Today was my last day for school this week so the next three days will be nothing but creating starting with the café mew mew club.

Soo…

Ready, Set, DESIGN! >;D

P.S I'm sorry if I missed any contests that I say I would enter D: I forget things easily if I don't write it down or remind myself for days!