aaahhh I'm so stressed out right now and it's pretty much my fault because I'm the worst with time management.
I keep getting headaches and every sort of pain you get from stress and I barely eat or sleep well.
I want to curl into a ball and let everything work out on its own.
I'm too overwhelmed and it's not even that much and I hate myself for feeling this way.
I'm crying over the pettiest things but I have to keep my head up and face the world or else everything would fall apart.
I don't know what to do.
I want to take a break from everything but I can't.
My schedule won't let me.
I have responsibilities.
I can't back down but I'm too scared to stay aground.
I have to hide the tears and these petty feelings because they'd think I'm being too emotional and I don't want them to think that way.
I don't want to be a burden.
But I keep on becoming one. To everyone. All the time.
I'm so sorry for posting something too personal and depressing.
I need to let out these feeling that I've been keeping to myself. Because if I don't, I'll break down and fall apart.
A Mad Artist with A Blog
It's not that interesting. Just stuff and such. Don't even bother, ahahahaha
I AM GOING I AM SOOO GOING NO WAY IN HELL I AM NOT GOING I'VE NEVER PROPERLY BEEN TO ONE AND I AM SO GOING AND I HAVE A FEW FRIENDS WHO ARE GOING SO I AM SO GOING
YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW EXCITED I AM AT THIS AND IT'S ONLY ONE JEEPNEY RIDE AWAY FROM HOME AND AGAHGAGHAGG I MIGHT COSPLAY IF I GET THE CHANCE OH MY GOD I MIGHT SEE PEOPLE AND COSPLAY AND STUFF AND I JUST CAN'T
I am ashamed, I'm so sorry
Hey ho theO! I'm already a sophomore. Ehehehehe. ♥
Wahaha, I can't believe it's been so long since I've been on theO like where did time go.
I'm starting to watch Death Note! (I know I'm so late but hey at least I started watching it) I also saw Man of Steel with my family the other day and it didn't disappoint. I thought I might not like it because soooo many movie adaptations and remakes disappointed me so I didn't expect much even after watching the trailer BUT I WAS SO SO WRONG AND IT WAS AMAZING AND BRILLIANTLY DONE AND THE CINEMATOGRAPHY, WOOOOOW. GO WATCH ITTTT.
(copy/pasted from my dA journal because I'm a lazybutt ahahaha)
So! My summer, basically:
- raising ELEVEN puppies (and then giving them away except for Sherlock and Sammy ♥)
- summer magazine production (layouting eight pages within a few weeks is no joke, that I've learned. But the results were astounding, for me. The production was smooth sailing, thank God.)
- crying over Doctor Who (season 7 SEASON 7 SEASON SEVEN SEVENTH SEASON FEEEEELINGS ALL OVER I CAN'T GO ON I'M SOBBING SOMEBODY SKIN ME INTO A PAIR OF SHOES)
- tumblring (tbh I think it's a routine now)
- watching Supernatural (season 2 left me emotionally scarred HAHA NO /awaits season 3/ )
- sketching (not that much but hey if I don't practice I'll unlearn my drawing skills and I don't want that to happen).
- watched Iron Man 3 (IT'S AMAZING AND PEPPER WAS BADASS AND UGH MY FEELINGSSSS)
- weird Doctor Who related dreams (one had a weird plot with a paradox going on and even Weeping Angels were in it, and it felt like being in DW episode and I'm just WOW-- gonna tell the whole story in my dream world)
- MAY FOUR (attended a family reunion, went to this mall for the first time, saw cosplayers, cried and frustrated with myself because I was too shy to ask them to have pictures taken of/with them, saw a few old friends again-- basically that day I feel emotional and you wouldn't understand why)
- shopped for myself (a couple of brassieres, a shirt and short pants)
- made poems
- fell in love with David Tennant
- shipping Doctor/Rose likE NO TOMMOROW
SO ME SUMMED UP IN A GIF:
And my debut's coming up this July. YOU'RE ALL INVITED OKAY SO YOU GUYS BETTER GO I'm kinda planning for my debut (not whole-heartedly though- I don't want a debut, I want a ticket to London or Disneyland or have a roadtrip or travel with the Doctor---*coughs*)
I hope I could throw in a few fandom references without ruining a few things (I might get meself a TARDIS cake or something, ehehehehehe)
SO HEEEEY HOW YOU GUYS DOIN
and yeah, I'm alive
barely
HUGS FOR EVERYONE!
I caught a flu the night she gave birth to her puppies. AND I SUFFERED FOR ONE WEEK. And I didn't use my bedroom for that long, HEEE.
She gave birth to eight puppies, the biggest batch she had so far! :'D We lost two of them though (the first white one and a black one, both girls ;___; ) so we're left with six male puppies. AHHHH THEY'RE SO ADORABLE I JUST, AHHHH.
THEY'RE SLEEPING ON HER FACE.
Days later, Prettie gives birth (gave me so much of a scare because she kept trying but the puppies seemed to be stuck inside. Q_Q)She gave birth to five, big puppies. In our living room. In front of the TV/stereo area. ♥
So we have ELEVEN PUPPIESYAAAY. Currently, Beautie's babies are walking while Prettie's have their eyes open. It's gonna be havoc when they start walking too. 8DDD
