Anxiety

My stress and anxiety are really high right now... School is probably part of it, i have a huge assignment in health due way too soon. theres not been enough time to work on it. and its due friday, its everyother day so not much time! And not much time to start with! Another reason is most definatly that i haven't heard from my girlfriend in a long time. I'm getting worried, i talked to her father and he said he didn't approve of me, but he would let us be together. He's a great guy her father told her the same thing he told me, but the next day when i tried to talk to her, she was a little spacy and when i asked whats wrong she said that she was just thinking, so i offered to leave her alone for a little while... that was about 5 days ago... i'm worried... *sigh* I need loud music, something to settle my nerves...

Saturday

Ah Saturday~ Favorite day of the week. I already got three first place spots on an online match, in a row. (that was in like, 2 in the morning(I don't sleep all too much xP) I finally re-friended Lia (I un-friended her because i thought she hated me) If anyone reads Kairi517's post you know whats happening between us, and if you don't i ain't telling you. So i'm kinda waiting for her. I hate waiting... It's the bane of my very existance... I'm very impatient, and i don't like to wait, but i'll wait for Lia 'cause she's awesome. Anyway. I'm gonna give you all something random to think about! (the three people, if that reading these things) "You can't reuse a bigdaddy suit, your skin and organs are grafted onto the inside of the suit." (i forgot the rest,but i don't feel like playing bioshock right now...) I am listening to some rock, you can get me away from my i-pod, i use it for everything, studying, eating/ making chili, playing video games, drawing, talking to people (when you like it cranked up all the way like i do, it serves it's challenges.), daydreaming, it puts a new perspective on everything. Also at book fair in my middle school. I'm not sure if other middle schools/ high schools do that but mine does. RIFLES ARE FOR LONG to SHORT range, CARBINES are for MEDIUM to CLOSE, i spent all of lunch yelling at the book, when i wasn't eating. I'm a gun geek. I like them ok? That so wrong? They influenced history so much, and i think there fasinating. Well I need to go do something, later people.

New(ish) Music

I down loaded new music woo! spring break was only 3 days off school... Lia is my friend again! (trying my best not to screw it up.)I Somehow screw things up so badly and not even now how or why. Thats a fact i wish i could change. "You might win, one battle. But know this, I'll win the f***ing war!" I love that song it's way of the fist by none other than five finger death punch! I got it stuck in my head. Mah drawings getting better too! My computers really fast now too! i can stream music videos fast. I need more itunes gift cards. If you haven't noticed this world's just full of random shit i think up. all true, but random as hell. i lost first place on an online mach my eight points! 8! Were killing people gives you 100 points how'd i lose by eight! ...I wish i had a tail... life would be so much better if i had a tail... especially if it was a wolf tail that could be used a spear... I wish i was in rapture from Bioshock before it's downfall, i'd get doctor Steinman to make me one. (Before he went insane) RANDOM! I need to calm down, take a secong to get organized and everything. My quest for new love isn't going so smooth... *sigh* Well i gotta go later everyone. try to post more frequently, but i be busy with stuff.

Back in black, well, more green...

A parody of one of ACDC's most famous songs. (like thats original) -.- Well the only computer in the house had a virus so it took a while to get fixed. Right now, i have a crush on a girl at my school, i have a huge test in history, huge work packet in math, I didn't miss any school, i have a huge research paper in english, I have a cold to. Which su-ucks. I'm working on all of that at once + this so, I'm, stresssed! I'm working on my drawing though;
Legs: good
torso: Great
Arms: Good
Extra Equipment: Pretty good
Hands: Really good
Feet: I covered them in a dost cloud, whick is part of the backround.
Head: I erased it, all of it, it was terrible, i really need to work on heads.
Eyes: I put goggles over them, big military goggles, used by minigun operaters, and machine gunners, to help with flash, that got erased too.

Sub total: I'm probably going to finish it, but i might make a new one with it.

Rant

Hey everyone, i had a long, shitty day. ^^ So if you want to escape my rantting leave now... I just grabbed dinner so i'm feeling alittle better. But i'm still pissed and i need to rant. If i don't rant and get stuff off my chest i become a very bad person. ^^ Let's begin. Oh listen to this while i yell. Warning it has some real nasty lyrics. It expresses how I feel right now. Ok now let's get started. ^^ And remember i'm just ranting it's not directly aimed at anyone, so don't take any offense to it. Or do, i don't care if your thin skinned or not. I'm thin skinned to. And if you don't like it, back button's that way.

I HATE ALL THOOSE STUPID F***ING PEOPLE AT MY SCHOOL THAT PURPOSLY TRY TO PISS ME OFF AND GET UNDER MY SKIN! I HATE ALL THE POINTLESS HOMEWORK! I PICK THINGS UP QUICK! I'M TIRED OF THE REPETITION! And all you people that keep telling me to move on. Shut the F*** up! The more you tell me the harder it is! I get it and i've been trying! And I hate all of you more who've been telling me that because you made me break my promise about talking about it assholes! I hate all these people sometimes! They never shut up or get their facts straight, or pay attention or do anything right! People wonder why i talk about war so much. It's because i want all of them to get drafted and die! Horribly! Like a shotgun blast to the face or a getting shot by a tank! Or being tortured to death as prisoners of war! I hate stupid people! There so f***ing stupid! I hate them! Politicians, greedy people, just the plain stupid and ignorant, annoying people, sometimes my own friends and family... Alot of people! And i regret nothing i said! Nothing! I told you all from the start so if this mad you mad, i warned you!

Woo, I feel better, thanks for listening. ^^ I need to blow something up still, on to Battlefield 3 online!!! Lets bust some m****rf***ers up!!!