Gone forever

Well... It`s official Lia never wants to speak with me again... And I`m not exaggerating this time. She told me herself... So I basically have no one now. I`m furious, but as usual not at her. Only myself. If I learned anything from past relationships it's only my fault. I'm the one who should have tried harder, I'm the one who should have been better... It's no one's fault but my own... I should have never talked to her anyway... She has an arranged marriage planned which I think is complete bull shit. It's not so much that we can't be together it's that she can't find true love. And that's just shit. Who else thinks so huh? ...Huh? ... Who am I kidding? It's not gonna change anything? I'm sorta glad she's never talking to me again... I can't hurt her any more... She told me herself that I'm hurting her... I'm useless. And now. I'm caught between the feeling of being pulled apart... Or sucked into a cell... God help me... Well, good night and God bless... Be safe Lia, and only one last time... I love you...

Depression and worry

Well... I should have known... A good friend of mine, as screw it you know who she is... I think she finally had enough of me... she doesn't talk to me anymore... I heard from her friends that she doesn't want to talk to me... And she told me today that hearing that I care about her hurts her... She hates me... She said she'd never be able to but she hates me... My life is meaningless now... I should have known... I'll always just be the clingy ex that can't move on and now... I don't think she'll ever talk to me again... I should just break ties with her next time we talk... save her the trouble... I don't know... I don't know, I don't know, I don't know... I might just give up so I never get hurt again. And so nobody else does either...

Worst Day Ever

Well, yesterday was the worst day ever. Officially. Let's list off what went wrong shall we? Okay, least to greatest. I forgot my lunch card and didn't get to eat, learned that I may be failing a clas, grades are huge at my place, lost one of my best friends, then I made him bleed by nailing him in the back of the head with a metal ruler. Then something wonderful happened Lia started talking with me again, then something more, not going into detail. Then while she was in the shower, her sister posed as her(Lia) and lead me on. Second time! Second time I fell for the same trick! So I'm pissed, I might of officially lost Lia forever, relationship and friend wise. I want to cry, but no tears come and I just fell it builing up inside. And now I'm starting my long voyage to prove to Lia that I didn't know that her sister was her sister. I have gotten a few new insights. There maid told me some things that help with my investigation. Now I just need to piece everything together, present my pfroof. And get her to talk to me... This might not even work with my proof... But Lia if your reading this, which I doubt you will. I'm sorry and I honestly didn't know. Have I ever lied to you? Ever? I love you Lia... I really do...

Awesome!

This is Ghost Walking by Lamb of God! (I do not own any rights to either of those things blah,blah,blah...) It's a kick ass song! For all my Heavy metal fans.

Link to the video; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T2vwM4wQ6wU

I think it was the official video, It said so anyway.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T2vwM4wQ6wU&feature=player_detailpage

Awesome!

This is Ghost Walking by Lamb of God! (I do not own any rights to either of those things blah,blah,blah...) It's a kick ass song! For all my Heavy metal fans.

Link to the video; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T2vwM4wQ6wU

I think it was the official video, It said so anyway.