- Created By ShadowWolfWarrior
Well Singles Awareness Day is coming up, I'm celebrating it with all my other single brethren ( and sistren) but today I had a very unValentine experience.
Setting: Mr. Turner's class, second floor. Subject Matter: Western Civ.
So this guy is giving out cookies. And I'm sitting at my desk, getting my stuff out, being studious as usual. The guy then ran out of cookies and pronounced:
"Okay, last one your gonna have to fight for it," of coarse this was jokingly but this is where me, not one to deny a challenge, decided to "bum rush" the two guys play fighting over it. The guys who had it were a half a foot shorter or more, but I'm six one so I guess that's usual? Anyway, I grabbed him, tucking my knee into his upper thigh, bending him over and wrapping my right arm around his back with my hand frantically grabbing for the cookies. Someone broke it up soon after.
After this he got mad and threatens me, I forget what he said, but then a grin spread over his face he laughed and said we were cool and gave me the cookie. It was pretty cool. Plus, I got a cookie. ^^
Today was amazing If the title is not clear enough, in Western civilization, I love history, favorite subject, especially with Mr. Turner, he's really cool, been in the marine corps., teaches German, actually spent some time there, he's really cool. Every chapter, or we'll every other chapter He picks a student and let's them dress up as a historical figure. There's been a roman legionnaire, a Viking foot soldier, and now the Crusaider. Which I was picked for. I even got a photo. Although my head did not quite fit the helmet.
It's raining today wish it was snowing the weather in Montana sucks... It snowed yesterday and now the rain melted it all. Usually rain doesn't bother I was actually happy when I woke up at 9 today and heard the soft drumming of rain against the walkway of my house. Me and my mom listened to old classic metal videos on TV from the70s I think. Then we watched South Park got some lunch But on the ride home, I did something I really regret. I remembered her... I remembered rainy days when we'd snuggle up she'd read a book and we'd just talk and hold each other... She's say she was cold and I'd snuggle closer id rap a blanket around us, we'd share a soft kiss and watch the rain fall... I hate myself for remembering its so hard to let go when all you do is remember... I wish I could just forget and move on already, but my mind won't forget and it's starting to wear me down... I almost completely forgot about her until today, I just reopened some old wounds again... I need tofind a way to forget...
Fru(add an umloute over the 'u')lichen Wirnachten! Und alles gute zum Neu Jahr! Yah, that's German, more or less, for merry Christmas and happy new year. Ok, so this year, I know most of what's going to happen, I'm going to finish this school year and then my family and I are moving into a double-wide trailor in North Dakota, because we're paying double rent and that's where my parents can earn the most money, I was excited when I first heard the news, I was with her and we'd only have an hours difference, I'm almost 16 so I could have gotten a part time job, and make enough money to see her, but she decided I was 'thick' and it would never work. So now I'm loosing some of my best friends(hey, at least half of them are seniors, so yeah) but the friends I made since 6th grade when I moved here, I'm going to miss, but I guess that's just life, right?
Well, anyway, I made some pretty awesome friends here too, so it won't be all bad, and I'll find some mild-mannered freaks to make friends with. So, it'll be fine. (Plus there's talk of my mom getting a gun for self defense and I'm going to go too! Whenever that is. Well, happy New Years Otakus see you next year!
Okay, well I finally got promoted, which is pretty cool. Amestar also got promoted go Ames! Okay, so now for the rant part. Beware foul language might ensue so leave or deal.
Okay look, I've been having a crappy day. This whole break-up thing isn't helping either, I've been a knot of emotions; fine one moment, depressed the next, then crying, then furious, then numb. I landed on fury. And I'm pissed at Liea, Kairi, whatever. Usually, I'd be saying, Liea, don't read the rest of this, but she doesn't give a Damn about me so I don't care if she reads it or not. She's always wanted more people to be harder on her, congrats, at least you get your wish... Right now your causing me to be living my own personal hell. I bet your happy. I guess your sister was right when we first started dating. You are really just going to play with my emotions. And I think she's right. All you've ever did was lull me into your love trap, made me so happy, and as soon as I was happy as ever, she tossed me away and made me miserable, and she repeated that over and over. All I was, was a toy to be played with and then thrown away. She was never loyal, I was willing to wait months, true story, just for the few hours until school started again. And she never, NEVER, returned the favor. I was willing to do anything for her, I wait hours, just for a few minutes with her. I always supported her, I always tried to make things work, I always compromised for her. And that whole bullshit about `I'd never say it if I didn't mean it` BULLSHIT! You told me you loved me and you ran away for 3 fucking months and it turns out you did it to get away from me, you, you, you... Heartless bitch! Argh! Why did you do that? Why didn't you just tell me? ARGH! ...
Thanks for listening guys. I needed that.