HEY, everyone, as I'm sure you've seen, this is SPARKLING SUNLIGHT. I am going to post pretty much everything artistic I do on here. If you like this world, then please also check out my others! :FADED SHADED STARS< STAPLED TO THE HEART, ect.
~thanks for stopping in~Sparkles~
Title: I did not cry
I did not cry a single tear, but that does not mean I don't want you here.
I do not wish to try this time, so tired of what can't be changed.
I do not lift myself too high, but still I believe I can fly.
I did not cry the day you left, because tears fix nothing,
Smiles hold my lips tight, pull the secrets out.
I do not cry for myself, I do not cry for you.
But, that does not mean, I don't want to.
It is the sun that grasps the meadow's shadows.
It is the rain clouds that breath to the earthen ground around us.
I do not cry, cannot cry for you.
I will always be there, but not always no what to do.
I will not apologize for the moments I have yelled.
I did it all for you, and you'd do it for me too.
I did not cry a single tear, but that does not mean I don't want you here anymore,
When you walk out that door,
I do not wish to grab your hand,
To pull you up, to take a stand.
I do not wish to cry, just to know why.
What will help, I do not know.
Will not speak, I will let you go.
Smiles hold my lips tight, pull the secrets out.
I do not cry for myself, I do not cry for you.
But, that does not mean, I don't want to.
Believe me I want to.
-Sparkles- for all who never cry, but always do inside.
I know the world will move on, how far, I do not know, but I know I will follow. (quote by me)
SO HERE'S ONE!
Title: Despite myself
Despite myself, I am laughing, when I need to be crying.
Despite myself, I am dreaming when reality is too real.
Despite myself, I am me when others say I shouldn't be.
Despite myself, I am reading and writing while sitting here,
When others say these habits should really disappear.
You do not have to understand the things I write,
I do and that is all that truly matters,
But it is nice if you do,
Despite myself, I am tearing apart myself.
Despite myself, I am being me,
And if that bothers you, then I am sorry.
-Thanks for reading, sparkles- Tomorrow is another day, to watch an ember dye away, or to rekindle a flame! (quote by me)
Why are all the people cruel....in this world nothing's right, some people only see in black and white. Why are all the jokes so cruel? There is no reason to complain? But then what gets done? What do I say when I am the only one? When there is no one left to take your side you can only run and hide. In this world, in this place, sadness never showed on my face, but when it does they laugh. I cannot take this much more. I fear myself and what I've said. They do not care, they wish you well with smirks of happiness at your pain. Never again will I tell a "friend" how I feel or what I need. Time will take to long to teach me, joy shall take to long to reach me. I pulled myself up before, and now I am walking out the door, as I push the sorrows away, I fall into the depth of day.
NEVER EVER AGAIN will I ever enter another otaku chatroom. I was flipping out and asking people if they knew anything about it because I didn't think it was funny. They said that it was an April fools joke, that I was STUPID for not knowing, and that I needed to get a sense of humor, well I'm not laughing, I'm literally crying at my computer now JERKS! (no offense to those who didn't do anything)
-Lately people are being so mean, and I am so upset that ....I just can't explain what I feel, but..... Never mind
-Sparkles-
I am posting this until at least one person comments for it is very personal to me!!!!!!
I managed to get a break from taking care of meh pup!
He is asleep, but I jsut wanted to take this time to post a poem that I wrote last night at 1:32! I couldn't sleep and was starting to get a little depressed because,as I've mentioned, my friends parents are getting a divorce and her mother is in the army and is scheduled to leave for Afghanistan soon. My friend may have to move to virginia with her father and since it is 4 hours away(at least) I won't be seeing much of her, so I started thinking about all the good times we had and how the worrying was keeping me awake almost every night, and I came up with this!
Hope you enjoy it, and yes for those still wondering I am still very much depressed and almost friendless! I still need support and comments, but if I don't get any comments that is no reason to stop posting, It's a wonderful way to vent! I just wish more people would pay attention... anyway, enjoy!
Title: Rest / Time wiritten: 1:32 / time taken: 5 minutes / written in notes journal of inspiration (my personal notebook)
Don't know what to do, or where I'm going.
All I know is that I'm here.
Don't know what to say,
All I know is that I'm on my way.
Don't know how to make it,or what to do.
No one to depend on: it's you and only you!
Who knows what we're thinking,or why we act this way?
All I know is tomorrow doesn't count today.
For all the problems in this world,
For all the answers left behind,
It's like a scavenger hunt.
You never know what you'll find.
For every voice in your head,
There's an echo for what's said.
Actions form from words upon your breath.
Life is not knowing when to rest!
This is THE FIRST PERSONAL POEM FROM MY JOURNAL/POETRY NOTEBOOK THAT I HAVE EVER SHARED ON HERE, so I would like to get at least one sincere comment! thanks,
-Sparkles- It is not those who fall that fail, it is those that do not get up.
Poem.
Title: ghost
Standing by the fountain,
In a garden of the past.
Castle walls surrounding a world that never was.
Silence echoes off the walls, suffocating empty halls.
Ghost of the past that no one knew.
Words whispered only to you.
The beat of the heart matching footsteps.
Corner upon corner you turn.
Walking the empty holes of the past.
Wandering the times.
Float like a ghost into forever.
Sit and watch the day.
Unseen, misunderstood.
Faceless, shapeless.
Not there at all.
Ghost of forever walking the hall.
Short but hey who cares....(no one.....
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Sparkles
