I'mWideAwake

What is up every one!?
A small amount of time has passed since I have posted here...maybe about a week or two?? I dunno...
But ~ anyways I am back and I just wanted to let you all know that I have NOT been a lazy little poo with all of this time that has gone by.

I have actually decided to get some of my life together and take some damn action for me. I was tired of doing nothing (( And got tired of being scolded for doing nothing)) ~ but I don't think I just woke up and had an epiphany or anything...my mind doesn't work like that. Let's just say I had a "Wake Up Call"

I was woken up I guess from my internal sleep. Ya know? I was awake on the outside and would say I was gonna do this and that but not actually taking any type of action because...on the outside I wanted to...but on the inside I just didn't give a shit and continued to be a lazy fuck. Does that make sense?? Daah well..that is how I felt.

Now then, what was my wake up call you may wonder?? Ironically...it was where I spend majority of my lazy time...YouTube. /:
One of my favorite YouTubers ==> IISuperwomanII posted a video a while ago called "Your Wake Up Call"
Now usually her videos are pretty funny and stuff. This one was a bit more serious and such but I watched anyways cuz I was too lazy to turn away. Or maybe I couldn't turn away cuz I knew I needed to watch it. ~ anyways check it out

Yep this was the video that got me off my butt! Now then...it didn't get me up right after I watched it....especially since when I watched it...I think it was 2am..but anyways. It just took a few days or so..like I started listening to myself and how I would do all types of talking with no action..so I would remember Superwoman's video and crap.

Now then what kind of action have I taken? ....remember how I would complain about being "UNEMPLOYED"? Well I realized that it was cuz i was only giving a good...62%..of effort instead of and an actual 100% or above and beyond with 150% or something.

"I want a job so I can blah blah blah"

Those were basically my words. I'd say I want a job..but find every excuse as to why I didn't apply to a place, or just say they didn't call me back, no one wants me to work for them, all this nonsense.

But I've cut all that out, and you know what? I HAVE A JOB NOW!!
I haven't done anything major yet, just orientation and computer training. But it's something, and I wasgetting paid for orientation. But starting Monday I will actually be working!! It's only a part time gig, 4hrs a day 4 days a week. But the manager said its just til I get use to the flow of things and then I could get more hours, and my part time position could become full time ~

What is my job??
Nothing major, I'm just working in the bakery section of a grocery store. I love baking and baked goods and sweets and all that. A lot of videos I watch on YouTube are baking related and stuff...and when I had cable I would watch shows like "Cake Boss", "Cupcake Wars", "Unique Sweets" and other stuff that had anything to do with baking <3
I started orientation on Wednesday, got my uniform and stuff...it is extremely unflattering...but I can't always be a Diva Fashionista...sometimes ya gotta do whatcha gotta do...

Halloween I didn't have a chance to celebrate this year cuz I had another day of orientation...and I have to walk to my job...and it decided to rain all heavily on that day. So no candy or anything.

Friday I began the computer training and finished up yesterday ~ so I had the day off today <3
It was all basically common sense. What types of behavior is unacceptable, sexual harassment, and then how to be sanitary in a kitchen, always wash your hands, clean as you go, wear disposable gloves, tie your hair back, etc!
Monday I actually get on the floor and learn how to use the baking equipment and stuff. I'm excited, but am also very nervous cuz I don't wanna screw anything up! So wish me luck!

But that is not all that I have done. I've also decided to learn how to drive! It's something that I kept putting off. But one of my main reasons was that...drivers training/drivers ed was like...fucking $300 at my school...and you didn't even get a damn permit afterwards....just the knowledge of driving. Here in my state..because I don't know if its the same all over the U.S. ...when you turn 18 you can go to the Secretary of State and get your license for free.

So tomorrow Im gonna go to the library and check out drivers training books....like "Driving for Dummies" and I think they even have videos at the library too.
Then on the road with my mom and her truck.
I've actually like...test driven my mom's truck once...its big...and I am small...but it wasn't too bad. I wasn't terrible and I didn't crash or anything. I just get super nervous when I'm behind the wheel. But on the plus side..my parking is badass!! I be placed so neatly in those lines <3

Another decision I am debating over is...going to earn a certificate of completion to become like...a pastry chef or something. Now I know a certificate isn't as fancy as a degree but...$11,000 sounds a lot more reasonable than fucking $40,000 that college is...I just don't have that type of money...and I seriously have no patience for General Ed classes. I just wanna take classes that are for what I am trying to be. But for all you folks out there that are in college....YOU ARE AMAZING! ...I don't think I could do it. So...KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK!!
But the reason why I am debating this choice is cuz...meh..still the money thing...I'm just super stingy when it comes to that...my money...I mean now that I have a job I have to pay $50 dollars for my phone bill, and my mom wants me to pay off my phone which will probably be...$100 and something...and she wants me to pay for my own new pair of glasses....and I'm blind as fuck!! So $300something...and then I have to pay for my own laundry to get washed...$10 for a roll of quarters....and since it's just me..I probably won't use all of the quarters...so I guess I can save those for my next washing...not to mention that I have money coming out of my check each week for my uniform for work...$7 or $8 for union dues, and yeah....growing up is saddening...especially since I'm the type of person who is use to getting money and just saving up.....I still have money from last Christmas, good grades when I was in school last year, graduation money, birthday money....meh...my poor wallet...

Oh but minus money...I just am unsure if baking is my "passion". I like doing it, but I dunno if it's what I wanna base my life around...meh

Last but not least ~ I have finally updated or posted in my blog. I might revamp it again until I am completely satisfied with its appearance. My post is super pic heavy!!! So if you wanna check out what I have been up to..or just wanna look at the pictures that I have taken then check it out below my name at the end of this post.
And just a warning!! This isn't even everything that I have plans on. I'm slowly making my way to set a lot of stuff in motion!

This post was longer than I planned...but I guess that it is still okay.
Hope that all of you who bothered to read this far have enjoyed this post. It was a simple update I guess. Anything is possible when you have had your wake up call huh? What do you think??

SIDENOTE:: Anyone else feel like the day is nicely dragging since the time went back an hour??

~ CrimzonN3k0 z ~

~ KawaiiSTARcrunch!! ~

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