"sure it hurts, it hurts like hell, but the bigger pain is what keeps most of my attention, and that pain, is right here. *points to heart*"
~what I told a friend today.~
..WELL, I just found out that one of my friends is moving sunday. She just found out also. She is going to Tampa Florida because her mom got a job there. She had to leave school today. She came in my science class to get stuff and I hugged her and cried (something I never do in public) and our nice science teacher cried with us a little.
....Today would have been my first good in the whole entire school year if that hadn't happened.
..I mean, I even had fun blowing up bottles with vinegar and baking soda in science (and we dented the ceiling with it!LOL)
..Oh well...
I feel a little low, because now I feel so alone.
..I miss her, but I have to start my scuence fair project this weekend, so there isn't time to hesitate.
~But I'm gonna go draw a picture in her honor now~ And I am writing a poem for her cold: "November is cold Without You." and then another that has nothing to do with friendship called: "Fire Burning In My Eyes" THESE WILL ALL BE TYPED UP AND DISPLAYED TO YOU GUYS SOMETIME NEXT WEEK!^^, so hang in there with me kay?
~sorry I can't type them now, I'm too busy...and depressed....
~"I am left cold and stone still with indecisive sadness. Do I run down the first road I see for fear of being left behind, or do I swallow my pride and continue on alone; waiting to turn around when needed. It is hard to walk forward while looking back, but it is impossible not to look. Especially when your heart is parting in that direction. The saddest thing I've ever seen, or will live to see, is a friend this dear, this true, waving good bye to me, and me lifting my own hand across the distance in the same bittersweet motion. It is hard to find enough space in one's chest for that many pieces of one's own heart. And, even more difficult to find space for the fragments they must feel. How can the world just look on? No second glances, other than those from us, frozen in the moment we refuse to fully take in, until only we and the silence are left."
~part of my journal~
~SPWAVE~CRUMBLING AND CRACKING IN MY VOID~No voice to raise screams, no eyes to cry tears. I am blind, and bound by your absence~(quote by me)
Life: 11/06/09 | Posted By: sparklingwave | 0 comments
