I know I haven't posted in a while, but I am going to vent now! and its more of a question on your opinions than a vent really but here goes!
I noticed that most of the friends I have are really shallow(not preppy shallow,but "never talks seriously, and is air headed" shallow!)
I think it's because I am a really serious and dour person most of the time and I have a really sarcastic and bitter sense of humor. I love all the friends I have because they are the only people insane enough to stand me! I wonder sometimes, however, if that part of the reason I have shallow friends is because I need someone to pull my out of my gloom and away from myself. I admit I do think too much,yet my parents are convinced that it is part of my being a "literary genius". Which I don't think I am. Maybe I am just a really depressing person? I don't know, maybe I speak my mind too often also. I enjoy most of my friends, don't get me wrong, but I just wonder, because maybe I am just a really serious person by nature, and maybe I over think and over analyze myself until there is nothing good left. If any good ever existed at all!
ANyway, I would like your opinions, if you don't care, or don't want to share, fine, just asking!
-Sparkles- I may have to face the darkness of myself alone, without you or anyone else. Who will pull me out then, who will notice if I pretend? (quote by me)
But I did manage to piece together a poem, enjoy!
Title: Dry Tears
When the dawn arises and the footsteps in the snow mirror your reflection and the places you will go,
When the sky calls to you,
Know that I am waiting, looking at the moon,
Hand in front of my face, pulling the moon.
The stars are tears upon my face,
The light of the moon will leave no trace,
My footprints shall soon be erased,
Sorry that I must go, leaving into the night.
Upon the night winds travels the song that echoes a story so long,
Our minds never seem to forget our hearts.
Close your eyes and I'll be gone, away into the white and pink of the cherry blossoms that shade the path.
The snow that coats my heart is as thick as that that coats the ground.
I cannot return a love I was never given.
When the dawn arises and the footsteps in the snow mirror your reflection and the places you will go,
When the sky calls to you,
Know that I am crying dry tears.
-Thanks for reading you guys, comments are appreciated, and so are IDEAS!
SPARKLES- Is forever ever enough? -(quote by me)
I am posting this until at least one person comments for it is very personal to me!!!!!
I managed to get a break from taking care of meh pup!
He is asleep, but I jsut wanted to take this time to post a poem that I wrote last night at 1:32! I couldn't sleep and was starting to get a little depressed because,as I've mentioned, my friends parents are getting a divorce and her mother is in the army and is scheduled to leave for Afghanistan soon. My friend may have to move to virginia with her father and since it is 4 hours away(at least) I won't be seeing much of her, so I started thinking about all the good times we had and how the worrying was keeping me awake almost every night, and I came up with this!
Hope you enjoy it, and yes for those still wondering I am still very much depressed and almost friendless! I still need support and comments, but if I don't get any comments that is no reason to stop posting, It's a wonderful way to vent! I just wish more people would pay attention... anyway, enjoy!
Title: Rest / Time writted: 1:32 / time taken: 5 minutes / written in notes journal of inspiration (my personal notebook)
Don't know what to do, or where I'm going.
All I know is that I'm here.
Don't know what to say,
All I know is that I'm on my way.
Don't know how to make it,or what to do.
No one to depend on: it's you and only you!
Who knows what we're thinking,or why we act this way?
All I know is tomorrow doesn't count today.
For all the problems in this world,
For all the answers left behind,
It's like a scavanger hunt.
You never know what you'll find.
For every voice in your head,
There's an echo for what's said.
Actions form from words upon your breath.
Life is not knowing when to rest!
This is THE FIRST PERSONAL POEM FROM MY JOURNAL/POETRY NOTEBOOK THAT I HAVE EVER SHARED ON HERE, so I would like to get at least one sincere comment! thanks,
-Sparkles- It is not those who fall that fail, it is those that do not get up.
Oh well, I guess I'll just leave a poem for now!
Title:For the Scars
For the scars that will not heal,
For the reality that is not real,
For all the voices left to choose,
For all the winners that had to lose.
Carry on, move along,
When all is lost, and all is wrong,
Find the right, don't let go.
Come spring's rain, or winter's snow,
Don't let go!
Hold on fast to what is left in the past,
Released in all the fate at hand,
Never ceasing,
Time repeating,
For the scars,
For the pain,
For the wind and for the rain.
Don't let go, hold on strong,
Don't give up, move along.
Better thing, brighter days,
Await in the dawn.
Darkness comes, light erase,
Faith and hope, time and place,
Don;t let go, don't move on,
Holding, holding, waiting, move along.
Daylight burries the darkness in the grave.
Nightlight haunts us, amongst the eve.
Upon the stones, all names erased,
Finding now the hope of time and place,
For the scars, years that pasted,
RAced with the stars,
Don't let go, revenge is new,
Don't move on, move along.
For the scars, for the tears, shed non stop throughout the years,
Don't let them go.
-Sparklingwave- word of the day: remembrance/ "Time heals most anything that you could not alone."
I'm not gonna sugar coat this, but hey, feel free to read on! The first post sounded a bit generc(guess cause I was nervous..) But I'm just here to post things about life and take requests, So hey, leave a comment, ya never know! I may suprise you!
-Sparkles-I live,
I breath,I'm on my knees, begging the world to save me.
