This, as many of you are aware, is my main world. And my only one I post in now. Here I just say whatever. When I am angry happy, sad, depressed, laughing, whatever. ^^ This is the place to be to get to know me... damn rhyme....

I am a very reclusive person as of late, but I come out of my shell a lot more when I get out of my house and go places. However, I have yet to see to doing that recently, so I am very isolated. I have built the walls of my confinement to let each day pass me by as I remain to myself, as many times more often than not, I would rather just stay out of the way of people. However, there have been times I have been known to step out and leave these four dark walls.

Name: Richard

Height: 5'8"

Age: 20

Date of Birth: May 28, 1992

I am a fan of anime, which is why I came here. Many many anime capture my interest, but many are from years past. To name a few; Sailor Moon, Trigun, Akira, Gundam (most of the franchise), Rurouni Kenshin, Samurai 7, Gungrave, Strait Jacket.

I also greatly enjoy music. I love most music except certain bands and pretty much all country save for a few songs.

Rammstein is my favorite band. Period.

More or less...... this is all the important information there is about me.

Relationship Status: *laughs his ass off* Relationship status? What the fuck is that? hahhahaha. Don't be so damned stupid Roc. It'll get ya killed out here.

._. dahell?

So. No matter how long I sleep. Lately I can get more. I just lay down, close my eyes and hours pass by. Its kinda nice. but it really sucks as well. Wish I had the net back at home or my cell phone. Least then I would be up a little bit. Just figured I'd share that


So... here we are again. :3 I must be invisible, or a ghost. :D I love it. People everywhere notice me less and less. Its almost exhilirating. Hahaha. But yes, all over the place, I am becoming like a ghost. Unnoticable by all, and despite the fact that it makes me seem like I am saying I am becoming outcasted, its rather enjoyable, gives me and others less to worry about. Just thought I'd share with you peoples.

Best 21st birthday ever?

Yep. So. I started the day off feeling sick to my stomach. Last night you see I had friends that were hanging out when we had a dinner or whatevs for the birthday which is today. ANYWAY... Yeah, even more... They were drunk loud and annoying. Two of them were. Brayton wasn't though. Anyway. I woke up and got yelled out because they did some shit to mess up the house which we had been cleaning the whole damned place up. Then, I got the great fortune to find out today... just as I was about to leave to go get my license renewed... I found out I needed two forms of ID. I have one. I went to get my W2 Tax forms off of my parents, since I gave them to them to hold on to for me. I found out mum THREW MY FUCKING TAX FORMS AWAY. MY GODDAMN W2 IS THROWN THE FUCK OUT. WHAT THE FUCK. Anyway. I go to ask for my birth certificate. ._. Guess what's missing..... My birth certificate. I need two forms of ID my Wallet was stolen, and my fucking mail is thrown out, and now to top the cherry of shit mountain off... My fucking birth certificate is gone. Well, I am not yelling at anybody. I am just taking some advil and relaxing. I'm just gonna say fuck it. If I don't get my license.... ohwell. Thats life. Not like I am unused to disappointment. Anyway. Just ranting here a bit. I am glad for all of you people who did stop to say happy birthday. That has made today just bearable enough for me not to go back to bed and say fuck it all. So in all honesty and with all my heart. Thanks guys. ^^


Have you ever:

1) Self harmed? Oh yes. You wouldn't believe how good it feels.
2) Got into a real fight? More often than not in my younger years.
3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed? No
4) Tried to commit suicide? Once.
5) Had to lie to EVERYONE about how you felt? A lie that makes people feel better is a lie that hides ones feelings. Aye, I have.
6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting? I've watched an entire TV Show in one sitting. XD
7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble? Aye
8) Accused someone of using you? I know they used me.
9) Shoplifted? Aye
10) Gotten drunk/high? Aye to both.
11) Been to a concert where your favourite artist was playing? Aye
12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game? Aye
(Right now) Are you: No
13) Suicidal? Fuck Suicide. Its pointless and unproductive.
14) Bored? No
15) Avoiding someone? Aye
16) Avoiding some task? No
17) Depressed? No
18) Crying? No
19) Annoyed with a friend? Aye
20) Worried and confused about something important to you? Aye.

Do you:

Get depressed easily? No
22) Get jealous/envious easily? No
23) Feel listening to music can take your mind off things? Aye
24) Worry about messing about your relationships a lot? No
25) Try hard in all your classes at school? No. I'm not in school.
26) Go out drinking? Aye
27) Smoke cigarettes? No
28) Smoke weed? No
29) Do any hard drugs? No
30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, Why? Both questions were answered no.
31) Believe in God/Belong to a religion of your own free will? Oh Aye. I believe in Cthulhu. Not god. Cthulhu.
32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them? No, I avoid people because I feel its necessary.
33) Agree that self harm numbs emotional pain? Self harm is more of a sexual thrill so no.
34) Believe people deserve second chances? Possibly.
35) Agree with ‘An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth’? … >_> …..<_<... Aye
36) Think things will get better? Who knows.
37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished? Aye, I'll get mine someday.
38) (be honest) Do you judge people who think differently to you? No, I judge people who have treated me wrongly.

Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend:

39) Long hair OR short hair? I usually like long hair. But Short hair has its charms.
40) (For Girls one) nice smile OR nice abs? Oh YEAH BABY!! <3 ABS..... This was a girls only one? Oh. Okay. Still answered it though. XD
41) (For Guys one) nice smile OR nice chest? If a girl has a nice chest, Thats fine. But a beautiful smile is great too.
42) Shy OR open? Either or.
43) Eyes OR body? ….. This makes no sense to me. So I'll say body just because personality isn't here. Also. The eyes are included in the body.
44) Religious OR non-religious? Depends on what they think of me worshipping a giant squid dragon man. ._.
45) Caring OR non-restricting of you? Well. It really depends. Can't she be both?
46) Straight edge OR non-straight edge? I'm not a smoker but if she drinks with me, thats cool. Hahaha.
47) Piercings OR no piercings? Her choice.
48) Tattoos OR no tattoos? Her Choice
49) Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type? I dun mind if shelikes to party. Just as long as she doesn't cheat on me.
50) Has friends you get along with OR has parents you get along with? Thats her choice.

Would you:

51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk? I did last week
52) Smoke weed? No
53) Smoke cigarettes? No
54) Get even with someone who betrayed you? Hahahahaha. Lets just say dead man walking.
55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you? I won't forgive that person. Not now, nor ever.
56) Attempt to kill yourself if everything fails you? I tried once, never again.
57) Keep your faith (any religious view) no matter what? Yeah. Cthulhu is awesome.
58) Join a band as a part time activity? I suck at instruments.
59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse? If its an adult, not really. Especially not if they made the choice to start themselves.
60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone strongly goes against them? No, fuck what they think. I know In have the right to my opinion as they do theirs.
61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what is was like? Hahaha. Vegetarian for a month? I wouldn't go vegetarian for a day.
62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family? Oh, aye.
63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online? Why?, Yes, because me as a cat would be funny as shit.
64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported? Aye, I do.
65) Be friends with someone who was nice to you, but a Jerk to other people? I have a few friends like that.
66) Not like someone simply because your friend(s) didn’t like them? No.
67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them put up with your problems? I do yes.
68) Starve yourself so you fit some certain clothes? Hell no.
69) Get surgery on any part of you? Like, plastic surgery? Only if I were a criminal.
70) Sleep naked? YUS

You can only choose one:

71) Black or Orange? Orange
72) Metalcore OR Post-Hardcore? Metalcore
73) Cellphone or Computer? Computer
74) Chocolate milk OR Coke? Coke
75) Tumblr OR Friends? Friends
76) Mac OR PC? PC
77) TV Shows OR Movies? TV Shows
78) Old bands OR new Bands? Old
79) Pop-Punk OR Alternative Rock? Alternative Rock
80) Reading OR Listening to music? Listening to music
81) Coke OR Pepsi? Define your reason for your choice. Pepsi, because I don't have it as often as I do coke, and because I prefer coke when I drink.
82) Staying who you are OR changing yourself drastically?Being me.
83) Breakdown OR Clean vocal bridge? Breakdown?
84) Jonny Craig OR Kellin Quinn? Define your reason for your choice. Don't know them
85) Ronnie OR Craig? Define your reason for your choice. Same as above
Your life as a comedy OR Your life as a documentary? Comedy
87) Go to outer space OR Go all around Europe? SPACE BITCHES
88) Shoes OR Shirts? Shirts cause i'm fat. D:
89) Chelsea Grin OR Suicide Silence? Chelsea grin, because I have listened to them before.
90) Drop out of school to get a job OR stay at school and finish your education. Define your reason for your choice. I stayed.

Almost over:

91) So far have you told 90 truths? And for fuck sake be honest. FUCK YEAH
92) Are you quiet about your social life with your family? Yes. I hardly speak to my family.
93) Do you want to travel when you are older? Aye
94) Would you let go of people who mean the most to you to follow your dreams? To say yes. But its not something I will speak further into
95) Did you notice there are no sex related questions? I thought there was. ._.
96) Rather be the opposite gender? Only for a week maybe to fondle myself for lolz.
97) What will you name your son/daughter? I dont know.
98) Do you get harassed more than most people do? No, not really.
99) What band do you hate the most? Define your reason. The eagles. Because I hate every single one of their terrible songs.
100) What makes you a bad person in your mind? Being a human being for one. For two, my lack of compassion for others.

Stolen from Spec

200: My crush's name is: Crush? hehe. I have none. :3
199: I was born in: 1992
198: I am really: a delicate young flower with a passionate fire that burns around my soul.If you don't believe that, then you can say I am an unforgiving asshole off a person who refuses to hold back in life.
197: My cellphone company is: Don't have one.
196: My eye color is: Brown
195: My shoe size is: 13
194: My ring size is: lol No idea.
193: My height is: 5'8"
192: I am allergic to: NOTHING
191: My 1st car was: None of your business. :3
190: My 1st job was: Wal-mart..... as far as it needs to be known.
189: Last book you read: What is a book? Does porn count? if so, a Doujin. It had a really really good story.
188: My bed is: my bed.
187: My pet: I have three.
186: My best friend: Is three people.
185: My favorite shampoo is: Orange Scented
184: Xbox or ps3: Sexbox 360
183: Piggy banks are: easier to break into than a safe.
182: In my pockets: My flashdrive.
181: On my calendar: There is another calendar.... but both of them are not calendars, because I have no calendar.
180: Marriage is: something i could care less about right now.
179: Spongebob can: kick the ass of most other american cartoons.
178: My mom: Is Wonderful
177: The last three songs I bought were: Illegally downloaded.
176: Last YouTube video watched: Sessler's Something
175: How many cousins do you have? No clue
174: Do you have any siblings? 2
173: Are your parents divorced? No
172: Are you taller than your mom? Yep
171: Do you play an instrument? No.
170: What did you do yesterday? Hung out with my friends.
[ I Believe In ]
169: Love at first sight: Not a chance in hell.
168: Luck: Yes
167: Fate: No
166: Yourself: Fuck yeah
165: Aliens: Yes
164: Heaven: Nope
163: Hell: Nope
162: God: I believe in Cthulhu. Not God, CTHULHU. ^^
161: Horoscopes: Not a chance
160: Soul mates: The only thing a soul is good for is trade bargaining with people, and thats about it.
159: Ghosts: Define ghosts. Like Apparitions? Yeah. Government agents. PFFFT HELL YEAH!
158: Gay Marriage: If homosexuals want to be marriaed, cool. Let them do it. Fuck what haters think.
157: War: Of course I believe in it. Anybody who doesn't is a dumbass, because its existance is proven.
156: Orbs: The fuck is an orb?
155: Magic: Dude, I'm a wizard. So yeah, I think it's a safe bet to say I believe in magic.

[ This or That ]
154: Hugs or Kisses: Your choice budday.
153: Drunk or High: Depends on what kind of high and what kind of liquor.
152: Phone or Online: Either
151: Red heads or Black haired: Black hair
150: Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes
149: Hot or cold: Cold
148: Summer or winter: Winter
147: Autumn or Spring: Spring
146: Chocolate or vanilla: Both
145: Night or Day: Night
144: Oranges or Apples:Fuck yo Apples, I'll take my Oranges thank you.
143: Curly or Straight hair: Straight
142: McDonalds or Burger King: The King
141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: Either
140: Mac or PC: PC
139: Flip flops or high heals: High heels cause if imma look like a woman, I'll do it in style. But I am gonna say neither and stick to boots
138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: Money! .... can lick my nads.
137: Coke or Pepsi: either
136: Hillary or Obama: I would rather have had Roseanne Barr
135: Burried or cremated: A funeral pyre at sea. Eff the other two,, this is just how it will be.
134: Singing or Dancing: Neither.
133: Coach or Chanel: Like Chanel West Coast? Cause I choose her.
132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: Neither because I just don't care. hahaha.
131: Small town or Big city: BIGGEST CITY
130: Wal-Mart or Target: Fuck wal-mart. I'll take target for my job.
129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Sandler
128: Manicure or Pedicure: Either.
127: East Coast or West Coast: U.K.
126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Halloween
125: Chocolate or Flowers:
124: Disney or Six Flags: Who cares?
123: Yankees or Red Sox: >_> Neither of them matter because baseball sucks to watch.

[ Here's What I Think About ]
122: War: is the most amazing thing ever, and it is the only thing humans are actually good at.
121: George Bush: He was pro war, so why not right?
120: Gay Marriage: Hey, I answered this already damnit.
119: The presidential election: is a joke.
118: Abortion: I don't really care one way or another. Let people make their own choices.
117: MySpace: is dead.
116: Reality TV: shit
115: Parents: Are my parents. And I love them.
114: Back stabbers: Are common place.
113: Ebay: Is untrustworthy...
112: Facebook: is useless and useful at the same time.
111: Work: Is something I miss.
110: My Neighbors: FUCK EM
109: Gas Prices: LOOK ABOVE
108: Designer Clothes: aren't worth the money, because I wear clothes that are destroyed by the way I live. Hahaha.
107: College: Is as useful as well. y'know what. eff it. I got nothing.
106: Sports: Are wonderful.... to play and watch idiots get hurt. otherwise blah
105: My family: hates me. :D
104: The future: Is hilarious.
[ Last time I ]
103: Hugged someone: 4 months ago?
102: Last time you ate: yesterday.
101: Saw someone I haven't seen in awhile: is most likely on my shit list.
100: Cried in front of someone: too long ago to remember.
99: Went to a movie theater: when taken 2 came out? It sucked.
98: Took a vacation: never.
97: Swam in a pool: recently
96: Changed a diaper: never
95: Got my nails done: Never
94: Went to a wedding: no idea
93: Broke a bone: more than I can count
92: Got a peircing: define peircing.... like an actual one or a hole in my body from an injury?
91: Broke the law: None ya business.
90: Texted: 2 months ago
[ MISC ]
89: Who makes you laugh the most: Religion
88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: My 360
87: The last movie I saw: Wreck-it Ralph.... MOVIE WAS AWESOME
86: The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: Death
85: The thing im not looking forward to: Most other things.
84: People call me: an Asshole
83: The most difficult thing to do is: trust someone who broke your trust.
82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: Nope
81: My zodiac sign is: Gemini
80: The first person i talked to today was: Someone.
79: First time you had a crush: no clue.
78: The one person who i can't hide things from: None of your damn business
77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: No idea
76: Right now I am talking to: Pan Pan, Ij, Spec, and Thats it.
75: What are you going to do when you grow up: Die at an age earlier than most people and still live a fuller life than most other people.
74: I have/will get a job: Yep. Gonna get one again.
73: Tomorrow: is another day.
72: Today: is today.
71: Next Summer: No clue
70: Next Weekend: still no clue.
69: I have these pets: Dogs and a cat.
68: The worst sound in the world: loud obnoxious idiots.
67: The person that makes me cry the most is: I don't cry. I deal with my problems in a more reasonable way.
66: People that make you happy: People I know.
65: Last time I cried: 2.5 years ago in a drunken slur of emotions.
64: My friends are: kickass.
63: My computer is: full of music.
62: My School: Is non existant.
61: My Car: a piece.
60: I lose all respect for people who: are human beings?
59: The movie I cried at was: not being talked about.
58: Your hair color is: Black
57: TV shows you watch: Rectify, Defiance, Adventure Time, Top Gear, Black Lagoon... like a million others.
56: Favorite web site: Youtube. Lot of music.
55: Your dream vacation: Hell.
54: The worst pain I was ever in was: No clue. Lot of pain in life. lol
53: How do you like your steak cooked: Medium well.
52: My room is: a mess
51: My favorite celebrity is: Cthulhu
50: Where would you like to be: gone.
49: Do you want children: Yes
48: Ever been in love: Yes
47: Who's your best friend: Spec
46: More guy friends or girl friends: Guys
45: One thing that makes you feel great is: Alcohol
44: One person that you wish you could see right now: Jack Daniels
43: Do you have a 5 year plan: Yeah. Live 5 years. then make a new plan.
42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: Die is on that list. Does that count?
41: Have you pre-named your children: No. Not my kinda thing.
40: Last person I got mad at: Take your fuckin pick. There is a huge list.
39: I would like to move to: The UK
38: I wish I was a professional: can't say but spec knows.
[ My Favorites ]
37: Candy: Heath
36: Vehicle: A new Jetta
35: President: Bill Clinton or Richard Nixon
34: State visited: State of Emergency?
33: Cellphone provider: Sprint
32: Athlete: That guy from the Geico commecial who blocks shots
31: Actor:Too many
30: Actress: Still Too many
29: Singer: Till from Rammstein
28: Band: Rammstein
27: Clothing store: Jinx
26: Grocery store: Wherever
25: TV show: Gungrave
24: Movie: Akira
23: Website: Youtube
22: Animal: not answerin.
21: Theme park: The one in my head.
20: Holiday: Halloween
19: Sport to watch: None
18: Sport to play: Rugby, or Snowboarding.
17: Magazine: Otaku USA
16: Book: Dragonlance.
15: Day of the week: Anyday but sunday.
14: Beach: I don't know
13: Concert attended: Backroom Conspiracy
12: Thing to cook: Mexican
11: Food: Mexican
10: Restaurant: Olive Garden
9: Radio station: 93.1 The Fox Rocks
8: Yankee candle scent: Strawberry
7: Perfume: None
6: Flower: Roses, Cherry Blossoms
5: Color: Orange
4: Talk show host: Topgear BBC's three hosts.
3: Comedian: A lot.
2: Dog breed: German Shepherd
1: Did you answer all these truthfully: Fuck yeah