This, as many of you are aware, is my main world. And my only one I post in now. Here I just say whatever. When I am angry happy, sad, depressed, laughing, whatever. ^^ This is the place to be to get to know me... damn rhyme....

I live in the realm of Reality. I go to a 10 to 8 job. I spend four days of the week at work. I take care of people. I used to be so angry about everything, and in some ways.... I still am. This, however, isn't what I am all about. I leave my house. I have fun at work, and I smile. Those of you who know me.... know I wasn't always so happy, but that was some time ago. I found something out in this wasteland we call life. I found something far more profound than religion, or even love. I found the ability to push ahead, no matter how hard it gets. I refuse to back away from any challenge, and I won't let anything bring me back to that dumbass child I was, but that being said.... That old flame of the maniac Shimu isn't completely dead, just some of those murky bits polished. Haha.

Name: Richard

Height: 5'5" (Lost Height somehow....

Age: 23

Date of Birth: May 28, 1992

I am a fan of anime, which is why I came here. Many many anime capture my interest, but many are from years past, save for my number two stand alone series now. To name a few; Sailor Moon, Trigun, Akira, Gundam (most of the franchise), Rurouni Kenshin, Samurai 7, Gungrave, Strait Jacket. That stand alone series at the number 2 spot of my favorites..... Is Psychopass

I also greatly enjoy music. I love most music except certain bands and pretty much all country save for a few songs.

Rammstein is my favorite band. Period.

More or less...... this is all the important information there is about me.

Relationship Status: Single.

A Glitch in the system

Have you ever been enjoying a night of drinking and things go instantly from great to terrible? Seriously this was my night the other night. I'm sitting here at a party and playing a few drinking games with friends. Another friend is in the back getting their hair dyed. Outta nowhere, these two people who came to the party stomp out of the back room where my friend was getting their hair dyed, screaming at each other. It literally pulled a 180. We were all happy and having a good time, then these two come out screaming at one another, and step out the door. Next thing we know the whole mood is killed. Anybody who was starting to get a buzz lost it, and those too drunk to be buzzed gained it. It was in a period of about 5 minutes that things went from good times to get the hell out. So I call up my ride, and tell him,"Hey man, I need you to come get me, this shit went south and it boring as f*ck now." I swear I hate buzzkills. I was even drunk. It kinda blew shit. What will ya do though? Anyway, Anime on my otakuites, and otakuettes. Have a good one.

The Falling Out

It finally happened..... November 10.... 2015... The bombs fell, and the world was silenced by Nuclear Fire. AND THAT SHIT WAS AWESOME!!!! FALLOUT 4!!!!! I have spent..... SSSOOOOOO MMUUUUCCCHHHH TIME.... Playing that shit. I have already marked in roughly 4 days of gameplay. I'd have a whole hell of a lot more than 97 hours, but..... I have work and all. I don't think anything.... but.... I KNOW that its better than even Skyrim... AND THATS A HELL OF A LARGE STATEMENT TO MAKE.

New Jacket and funny junk

Okay, so I am buying Kougamie's jacket from Psycho pass. I had to gt my measurements taken since the people who are making it, do custom tailoring. Its pretty frickin' sweet though. I can't wait for it to get here, so I can wear it. I noticed my last post was super depressing, and I want to think that I am able to deal with shit a little better than that, so I have been keeping myself in a positive outlook these last few days. I am getting a new manager at work, and I hope that soon, I can get back on track with my life. I plan to go to college soon, and I want to say, that its gonna be awesome. I found out the company I work for will actually reimburse me tuition if I go to a college that they support witin our company guidelines. I will have to go and see HR about it in the very near future. I am planning to go for Business management. If I get a few years of that under my belt, maybe I can move to a better job with steady hours, and that I will go home like a japanese business man. I will stop off at the same bar every Friday night. Every monday I will go to the same park bench and reflect on why I hate my life, and every wednesday I will remember that its hump day and reflect in the same park on the same bench as monday..... about why I hate camels. XDDDDD

old man

Blegh. I'm shaking cobwebs off at this point. I feel like I shouldn't though. I'm just posting here to satisfy my own need to type. lol. I haven't typed or written anything in such a long time. Its a sad feeling when I can't let my fingers do what they want. I found a job taking care of people. I help out people with developmental disabilities, working for a non profit organization, near where I live. They work all over the southern part of my state making sure people who have developmental disabilities are taken care of, and able to go out into the community and be treated proper. Other than that, I have been rotting away in my home playing my xbox one offline. I feel like I should have some kind of resentment towards certain things, but I can never find the heart to be hateful of people i once cared about. I'm just to busy trying to satisfy my own ego, by convincing myself that I can earn the respect of my peers. Hell, I wish I had the courage to face the things I can't stand about myself, but honestly I find that to be too daunting a challenge. Either way, I will see it through to the end. I'll be around.


I have been feeling angry the past few days. I can't really explain why, but I can say I miss someone special to me. This isn't what's upsetting me though. It would just help put my heart at ease. I have been working myself incredibly hard at work this weekend as a result from my rage, not to mention, I haven't been sleeping or really eating. It feels like I could explode at any moment, but I try to force my anger from myself. Keeping my mind on work helps out some but I this keeps up, I'm not sure I will be able to hold it back. I hope it ends soon...