I'm Shen. Nice to meet you.
Occupation: Computer and Electrical Engineering Student
Work: IEOP teacher (I teach foreigners how to speak english...not good)
I don't know what else you want to know?
If you need help at all, I'd be happy to help. I know a lot about programming and overall how this works, considering I've been here for years and I'm going to school for computer engineering. So, I hope you enjoy your stay and that I don't offend you.
I was weak. Thats why I needed you...needed someone to punish me for my sins...but thats all over now...I know the truth.
-James Sunderland: Silent Hill 2
College - Graduated
Job - Acquired
Apartment - My own
Car - Mostly my own, had to have my father co-sign
Pet - I NOW OWN MY OWN CAT
That's right. I'm now 24 and a proper adult. I have gone past my own mental disorders and now have a job at a school district as an IT Consultant. I Enjoy my apartment and have my own money to do with as I please. That's not to say this is my first EVER job, because I've always had a job. I'm just happy because I am completely unrelient to my parents. I live in an apartment with my own money, take care of my cat with my own money, own a car with my own money, and I live with my own money!
I'm thinking to write about some of the funny things I see because of two good reasons. One: I'm IT. And Two: I work in an elementary school. Those kids can be so cute!
Yeah, and you know most of it wasn't even that bad! I mean seriously, I was going home for a god damn wedding for a couple I knew in high school. The wedding was great, and I got to talk to a lot of people I hadn't seen in years! I even found out about a reunion happening soon. Hopefully its where I recommended because they have good prices and the best beer.
So I go out drinking and I go to the casino and help my friend win $100. All around it was a good night.
Then Saturday. I find out my cousin was molested by a neighbor who was wanted somewhere else for doing the same thing. The only reason we found out was because she had been cutting herself. It was a shock. And I'm sure my brother still doesn't know. And then we found out that an old family friend broke their femur and had to have surgery to fix it. So that's what happened Saturday and Sunday. Dealing with family and surgery and all those things.
Monday morning right before I leave to go back to Ames, I find out my sister is now engaged. The same women that always told me she was never going to marry is engaged to the guy my father doesn't like most of all the boyfriends she has had.
All I wanted was news that someone wanted to give me an interview for a job and here I get all this instead. It was a roller-coaster, but hopefully it all ends well. Ugh.
Ready for a long post? Thought so
I have officially graduated with a degree in computer engineering from college. The journey to finding a job starts when I get over my insecurities. See, I really wanted this job at IBM in Ohio. I went through four interviews, got encouraged by one of the interviewers, and really enjoyed the area. I didn't get the job. Ever since I really don't know if its even worth the hassle of trying.
Its a weird insecurity to have, but its there none the less. Its unfortunate.
I know I started this pretty close to the end of middle school, and its actually really funny to look back at my life since then. I do know I found out I have a genetic disorder in my eyes that will make me lose my peripheral vision. I also found out I am a sociopath. I am not a killer though. Its actually really mild. I feel anger, I feel happiness, and I feel grief. I don't feel sadness, I don't feel anxiety. Most of the complex emotions are lost on me.
I don't know if I ever admitted that I am also asexual. I may have to go back and see if I ever said anything around the time I found out. All the way back in the myo days.
What else? I'm not with anyone and that's just fine. I think that the last post was about Charlie dying, so I don't need to update about that. Martha is in the hospice now, and my cousin just graduated high school. I just really think I need to focus on smaller things as I try to make a life. Hopefully I follow thru now that I don't have a emotional compromise.
