I've been thinking about faith and religion a lot lately. It started when someone I was interested in told me he was a devote christian and didn't know if he could date me since I am an Atheist. I completely understand that and when I told him I did he was shocked. This confused me and has led me to look into why he would possibly be shocked and what faith and religion really should be.
I've been a part of three churches, each a different christian denomination. The first Lutheran, the second evangelical, and the third Methodist. This means that I have read the bible more than once, and I have heard different interpretations of it, so I can successfully say I can hold a good argument in terms of Christianity. Having said that, I have also made it a point in my life to study other religions in case I found that I could believe in them when I no longer liked the idea of Christianity. To make a long story short, I understand many different religions and can have a very informed discussion of the pros and cons of each.
Now, I have been rereading a webcomic called something Positive, and I have always enjoyed it. While I have been thinking about the reason people are the way they are when it comes to religion, I found the story arc that touches on exactly what I was thinking. The best part of the arc is at the end, Fred is talking to some young adults about he takes offense to being told christians are all crazy and are mean to everyone they try to convert. The guys were shocked and told Fred they were surprised because every christian they had ever met tried to tell the young men they were better. The scene ends with Fred crying and praying by his bedside.
This sparked in me that its true. As I'm growing older I notice that those who are trying to spread the word of god are those who think they are better than those who don't. I've also noticed that the Atheists I know try to get others to be depressed sacks of meat. Atheism is one of the worst in my book because it is just so depressing. Even if you go to hell, you still exist in some fashion. As an atheist you are just done when you are dead. There isn't anymore. That is why I try not to convert people. If it makes them happy to believe in God, they should believe with all they have.
I understand that Christians want to convert others so that these other people could be saved and go to heaven, but isn't the very fact that they are trying to convert people with scare tactics and by preaching just false? Don't they know that scaring someone into believing isn't true belief? Why even want someone to be unhappy because they are doing something they didn't choose on their own?
I remember what it felt like to truly believe in a higher power. It was powerful and made me extremely happy. I think it would detract from that feeling if someone joined a religion for reasons that weren't that they just believed. This doesn't only apply for Christianity. Muslims have that feeling as well. It was a fascinating discussion I had with some Muslim friends of mine when they were surprised that you can achieve that same happiness that they could with their religion. They truly felt connected with Allah while they were praying to Mecca and that they were whole. I have Buddhist and Hindu friends, and I even have Wicca and friends who mix and match because they see the need for somethings, but not all.
So his shock started to make sense. He was expecting that I would tell him that Christianity was stupid and these are the reasons. In actuality, I'm hoping I refind that faith I used to have, because it truly was a miraculous feeling. Religion is such a part of who we are as human beings, its like out sexuality, our idea of who we are, part of our identity. Shouldn't that mean that not all of us will be the exact same, just like how we are all individuals? Why should we all be the same religion? It would make it so there was no diversity, no need for discussion, we would all just accept like and sheep and not question to be anything else.
The world needs diversity, and unfortunately, that probably means that blood will never stop flowing out onto the ground.
My mother's cat died today. I don't know what happened...and that cat was...he had the best personality I've ever seen a cat have. He may not have been smart, and he may not have listened, but he was a good cat. The worst part about it was that he was only 2 years old. He hadn't even lived that long. And he was so pretty. My poor mother.
I will always remember how he played fetch, and here I am sitting here crying and I didn't even know him that well since he came in after I moved out. He really became part of the family in a short amount of time. I just wish he would have shown signs of being sick earlier. Maybe he wouldn't have had to...
Anyway, I just needed to share this and get it out of my system.
NOW THAT I HAVE WINDOWS AND NOT A MAC I CAN SEE MY LAYERS IN GIMP!!!!!!!!!!!
That is all.
My computer is working yet again! The world is a fabulous place and I can use my computer as I want.
So, I haven't been on in a while. I would make an excuse as to way, but honestly I just didn't want to. I didn't want to do a lot of things this summer because I've been depressed and had nothing to do since my hours at my job were lower than usual. It was a rather boring and not very interesting summer to be honest.
The reason I'm on is because I found out earlier today that a man who has been like a grandfather to be has cancer. He went in to the hospital to get a cyst removed and instead they found a tumor the size of an apple. They say its probably already in stage 3. I...I honestly don't know what to think.
Charlie and Martha Pearl are in my memories ever since I could start remembering things. They were best friends with my real grandma and grandfather and stayed that way for over 50 years. Charlie was there for my mothers birth and all the years she grew up. They are such amazing people and they love the outdoors and are so outgoing. For this to happen is just...it hurts. The only comfort I can take is that Charlie has lived for over 90 years. That doesn't really help me though when I think of how much pain he'll have to go through at the end.
I am going to go to a meeting for STAT 330 now. Hopefully I don't start crying in the middle of it.
