Almost three years since I last made a post on TheOtaku. I used to come here every day, write the uninteresting details of my boring days. Give dumb opinions on things nobody cared about. I made friends here.
Now it seems like every time I open my mouth, or type a comment on someone's social media account. I just annoy people with my very presence. I thought I was insightful, caring, kind of funny, a little charming(in an awkward way).
But apparently I'm juvenile, stupid, selfish, and grotesque.
I get that people can and will change over time. I also know that despite your best efforts, people whom you thought you couldn't live without can go years without even the slightest bit of contact.
What is the damn point? It all ends the same way, alone, scared, and the final fade to black. Curse us all for being hard wired to feel some need to belong. And when the people who once welcomed you with open arms suddenly seem to cast you aside like an old magazine, it hurts like hell. I feel like I've been the one cast aside. I was never good at fitting into any group. Dammit, I tried really hard to fit into this one. The friendships I made here I thought were going to be strong enough to last the test of time. Well, time is undefeated, and now I'm back to feeling completely alone.
