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Hiya everyone~ ^^ Welcome to my little world!
This is probably just a place where I'll put my posts and such~ otherwise, probably not much is going to happen here ^^;
And the rest, I'll leave to you guys!~ Enjoy~

Art trades: Closed(sorta)
Requests: Closed
Gifties: Open(but only at my discretion, naturally)

A bit of information about me:

Name: Sayura/Sayura-chan(so friends call me)
Birthday: October 14th
Age: 20
Hobbies: Drawing, golfing, archery, playing piano, singing(some) and some other things ^^

Likes in no particular order(manga/anime/movie/game-wise):
Howl's Moving Castle-Howl/Sophie
Final Fantasy Series-Cloud/Leon/Tidus/Yuna/Vaan/Rasler/Ashe/Serah
Kingdom Hearts Series-Cloud Strife/Riku/Roxas/Namine
Hana Kimi-Izumi Sano/Mizuki Ashiya
Code:Breaker- Ogami Rei/Sakura SakuraKouji/Hitomi/Toki/Hachiouji Rui
Tegami Bachi/Letter Bee- Gauche Suede/Lag/Jiggy Pepper/Aria /Zazie
Claymore- Miria/Isley/Clare/Riful/Teresa/Raki
Bleach- Kuchiki Rukia/Kuchiki Byakuya/Kurosaki Ichigo/Ishida Uryu/Toshirou Hitsugaya
Heart No Kuni No Alice-Blood Dupre/Julius Monrey/Alice Liddell
Gakuen Alice-Mikan Sakura/Natsume Hyuuga/Imai Subaru/Ruka Nogi/Tsubasa Ando
Rurouni Kenshin-Kenshin Himura/Sojiro Seta/Aoshi Shinomori
The Gentleman's Alliance Cross-Takanari Togu/Haine Otomiya
Alice 19th-Kyo Wakamiya/Alice Seno/Frey
Shugo Chara-Ikuto Tsukiyomi/Amu Hinamori
Naruto-Sakura/Sasuke/Minato(Yondaime)/Sasori/Itachi/Naruto/Hinata/Neji
Yu Yu Hakusho-Kurama/Hiei/Yusuke
Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle-Fai D. Flourite/Syaoran Li
Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion-Lelouch Lamperouge
Gundam SEED-Athrun Zala/Cagalli Yula Atha
Watashi Ni XX Shinasai-Kitami Shigure

The list goes on to pretty much anything =P I've read many more manga so if you want to strike up a discussion about a mangaka/game/anime/movie creator on this list, don't be afraid to ask! I've looked at many works by each of the above authors/artists!

-My Deviantart(active)

Something random you should know: I LOVE it when people draw the character's personality is intact(in other words, unchanged)~ it really gives the picture a better feel because they act the same as they were made to be.

New Year Wishes!

Hiya everyone and HAPPY NEW YEAR! ^^(well, where I am anyway xD It's still 2008 where some of you guys are =P)
I've thought about it for a while and I've decided on quite a few resolutions this year~ I'm planning to be more ambitious with my goals this year...probably more than ever before!

New Year's Resolutions of 2009:
-Understand and communicate more with people around me
-Stand up for myself and get one step closer to overcoming guilt
-Begin 2 mangas this year...and get far!(KH Fan manga, and my original story! Which I've only told some of you about =P)
-Improve more in my art: more importantly, become a master of CGing and practice lots with my coloring!
-DRAW MORE ART =P I'll DEFINITELY do this one this year! Count on it! ^^
-Keep studying hard
-Find a bit more happiness with the people I'm friends with instead of focusing on myself so much sometimes
-Become more consistent!
-ULTIMATE RESOLUTION: Be a better friend to you all! =P I feel like I haven't done enough for you guys, and you deserve more than just what I gave last year!

My New Year's Wishes:
-To get the chance to maybe meet one of you this year!(I don't know how, but I hope I'll be able to some way)
-To get my parents to understand me and listen to me, finally.

That's just some of them =P There are plenty of others, but the list would go on forever otherwise xDD
I love you guys!! Happy New Year and thank you for such a wonderful 2008 with me!! ^^ Old and new friends, I appreciate every one of you: so thank you for being there for me and I'm so excited to spend another wonderful year with you all! *hugs you all* Take care!

A Thought Unto Myself

[THIS IS A RANT/THOUGHT POST, SO IF YOU DON'T WANT TO READ, PLEASE FEEL FREE TO TURN BACK ^^]
No, it is not an emo post...at least I don't think anyway....
and hiya everyone(before I begin)~

I just finished reading Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne by Arine Tanemura. It inspired me to get back into my original style...because now that I think about it for some reason, I don't think I've found my style yet. There's so many styles I want to do and that I think I might be capable of, but I just haven't discovered which.
That's besides the point though...
I had a bit of an argument with my dad. Already. And it's only been a week since he arrived.

I was reading Ima-chan's quiz thing, about the questions concering beliefs...and it really made me think.
If I had to make my own version of that section and answer them, this is probably what I'd put:

Do you believe in...
-Yourself: I try, but sometimes it's really hard.
-Friends: I got hurt once. But Innocent-chan told me that someone once said that people are too busy looking at closed doors to notice the open ones before them. And I realized that I've really seen the light shining in you guys. Even if you barely talk to me, or just visit once awhile, thank you guys for having a role in my life as my friends ^^ Just know that even if my family may not trust you, you guys have kept me really strong and I believe in you all with all my heart! ^^
-Family: I've really asked myself this question a lot. I always tell myself and others that I do, but there is always a point where a person isn't sure.
In fact, it's probably been my family that's hurt me more than any other person in the world. They've also helped me through the worst as well. I just wonder if I've helped them enough in return.
-God: Hm. I really don't like it when people ask me this question because I really don't know ^^; I believe that everyone has a right to believe in what they believe or not, and they have just as much right to voice that opinion no matter who they are. I personally believe that God is just as probable to exist as not to exist, but I'll leave that up to the spirits up above(because something tells me, God does exist)

What...
-Feelings do you not want to feel the most: Everyone doesn't want to feel sadness, regret, rejection, loneliness and heartbreak along with other things, but it can't be helped. We all live in fear of feeling these emotions but somehow we get through. There is no feeling that I do not want to feel the most, because really we all will feel them, but if there's any that's hurt me the most in my life it's been guilt.
-Feelings do you wish to feel: Satisfaction, Confidence, and Trust. I feel like I'm one of those people that see the bottle half empty..but sometimes I'm the one that sees it half full. I just wish I knew how to fill the bottle first ^^:

My father and I get into arguments. He hates them, and sometimes doesn't even want to admit them...and I don't want to either.
I don't know if I've ever told you guys this, but I'm really hard on myself as a person...I don't know what it is either. Because people always tell me "you shouldn't be so nice, it's not your fault" or "have a bit more faith in yourself, it doesn't have anything to do with you", I feel like I should do just that. Put it on other people...but I just can't do it, I feel so guilty all of the time.
My dad said he wanted to study 2-3 hours everyday for the next days until school begins...and I told him that would be too much Chemistry for me. He said "why is that too much? If I were you, I'd actually APPRECIATE that someone is trying to teach you because it's a privelege to learn!" But the truth was that I didn't want to get into another argument because of the stress it puts on me to work so hard.
I told him that and he said "you're afraid of getting into an argument?? What argument?! And why does your voice always change whenever I talk to you?! Why can't you just do what I say to do and not get so mad!"
I was just SO sad and for the first time I actually cursed out loud to myself because I was crying and saying I wasn't mad, but I knew he wouldn't believe me.
I was misunderstood again...I hate it SO much, no one hears me. I really wish that they would but they just don't. You guys are probably the only people that have heard me and that's why I trust you all so much!
Last time we argued after I had studied for 3 hours, I said I was tired and I kept making mistakes. He said "well maybe you're just making mistakes because my english is bad" AND IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THAT. So I felt guilty for him accusing himself over mistakes I was making...I SHOULD have been getting it! But people tell me that I shouldn't be saying that...
My dad says I need to appreciate him and the rest of the family more. And he always gets upset in the fact that I don't. The only problem is I DO appreciate them, I just don't know how...
But anyway, this is probably the largest rant post I've ever written xD This was just to let you all in to a deeper space in my mind, and tell you all how much you guys really mean to me ^^ Thank you all for being there, and if you read this, you have no idea what you've just done for me ^^

After a Merry Christmas!~

Hiya everyone!!<3 I'm SOOOO sorry I haven't commented much, I've just been so lazy and busy working on some new art(currently Ima-chan's contest entry which I'll have posted tonight!)
My Christmas was GREAT! I spent it with my neighbors, the Marcums like we do every year and we had such a nice lunch along with lots of gifts to open! ^^ Here's some of the things I got for Christmas!~

-Kingdom Hearts: Re-Chain of Memories(YEAH!)
-Final Fantasy XII ^^
-Fuzzy Gator Socks
-Fluffy Sheep Plushies
-iPod nano case
-Winnie the Pooh Art book
-Shirts and a scarf
-$20 gift card to Borders~
-A NEW DESK! YEAH!!(it took 8 hours to assemble, but it counts as a gift xD)

I didn't get as many gifts as a lot of you got LOL but that's okay I'm very happy with what I have! ^^ I'm glad to hear that a lot of you had a really amazing Christmas~!
By the way, I'm like Innocent-chan in the fact I feel really bad for leaving a post and not commenting on you guys's stuff, so if you don't comment, I totally understand!
Take care everyone~! Expect art tonight ^^

12:05am: Merry Christmas!!~ ^^

Hiya everyone, and MERRY CHRISTMAS!!~ ^^ I hope all of you get wonderful Christmas gifts and enjoy your time with family and friends!~ *super hugs you all*

And I'll be starting off my Christmas on Otaku with a piccy that I will submit in the afternoon ^^ My contest entry for Ima-chan, to be specific~ then I'll be on to art trades and I guarantee they are going to be pretty great!<3 Well, at least I hope so anyway xDD
I spent most of my Christmas eve putting together my new desk with my family(it took a LOONNNGG time, like 8 hours xDDD)~ but I LOVE it!!<33 And it's got all of my art and manga in with it, so all of my stuff is right on-hand! ^^

OH and I never properly thanked you all for 100 Subscribers!!!!<333333333 THANKIES SOOO MUCH YOU GUYS!! ^^ *super massive tackle hugs you all*

Anyways, I've gotta finish up this contest entry and snack on some midnight M&Ms~ maybe Santa will come, maybe he won't xD It IS kinda late xD
But even so, I hope you all have an amazing Christmas!!!<33 Take care! ^^

Winter Break and freedom(for now~)~

Hiya everyone! I'm back after a mini absence! =P
My dad just came home a few days ago so I've been spending lots of time outside and such golfing, shopping and other things ^^ I've been having lots of fun with him so yeah, that's pretty much why I've been gone~
The best part I have to let you guys know is MY ARTISTS BLOCK IS GONE!! BWHAHAHAHAHHA! So now I'm drawing like crazy xDD My first up is my contest entry for Ima-chan(because the deadline is in like 3 days xD) and then my art trades are coming up~
I'm REALLY sorry I haven't been commenting but I'm getting around to them today!! So be on the lookout! Take care everyone and see you around! ^^