A couple of people on Youtube have already put up bits and pieces of Travis Willingham's Q&A panel from Otakon 2009... I'm happy to see it... but sad at the same time.
I really wish I could have went... my friends led me on and ditched me last minute and I had no way to get there. I wouldn't have been as sad if Travis wasn't there. He is my all time favorite VA and my hero. I was pretty heart broken... ;-; Stupid me for looking at the Guest list...
But, it's okay... My Sis/Best friend Ace said one day we'd go to a Con together. >:D I just have to meet Travis one day because my life won't be complete otherwise. O:
BUT... Hey, a few of my friends here got to go so I hope they had a great time. ^-^d I hope they go again next year so I can meet them... it'd make my first Con experience a good one.
Moving on before I get upset again... Haha... well... I'm upset that Hot Topic doesn't have any Draco Malfoy shirts but sssh... I should have went to that 'Meet Tom Felton' thing in Paramus, NJ... I could have bought a limited edition T-shirt. July isn't a good month, apparently. xD Not for me.
I saw the new Harry Potter movie today. Sad to say... I was disappointed. I did enjoy every second that Draco was on screen though. And the one fight scene made me really sad. Poor Draco. </3 ;-; I feel weird admitting I'm a HP fan for some odd reason. LOL.
Well, not much to say really... anyone else see/will eventually see the Harry Potter movie? :3
*Skips off to listen to Feltbeats* x3
Nothing has changed since my last post.
He still treats me like crap. :/ All my friends are telling me to just break up with him since he doesn't seem to care about my feelings... but I can't bring myself to do that. I can't keep pouring my heart out to him... since all I get is the same answers. If I tell him what's wrong and how he is treating me... All he says is, 'I'm sorry' and when I actually tell him I love him... When I spell it out... all I get is, 'Ily2' Do you really? I doubt it. Everyone frackin' agrees. Everything > Me... That's how it is. I've lost importance. It won't change... he says he is trying... BS. Plain and simple. And honestly... right now... I'm not sad... I'm completely, 100% PISSED.
But anyway... I went to Wall Stadium today for this big 150 lap race. I forgot what it was called... Garden State something or other... xD It was awesome. But the driver I wanted to win spent like... the majority of the race in third and then second place but the whole time he wasn't on the leader board. When the yellow flag was out... he got mad and then apparently was disqualified. I wasn't sure why... my Dad wasn't too sure either. Apparently it was something about riding right behind the car in front and something about the wheels. I don't know. It ruined the end of the race. I died inside. xD
Last little notes... I have four books to read for school and essays and crap to write on them... I'm still procrastinating. My brother is going to the golf course with my Dad tomorrow night so my Mom said we could go to the movies. She wants to see Public Enemies... honestly, I'm dying to see Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen again. She said no. TIME TO NAG. LOL. Kidding. I want to see the new Harry Potter but we can't see that till my brother can come... he wants to see it, too.
This is getting long... soooo... I'll stop here.
I'll get around to commenting again soon. I've commented a few art and such here and there... it's the laziness. xD And the stress and depression from my uncaring boyfriend. :P
If you don't care, ignore this.
It's more of a rant/vent for myself.
I don't need people to read it... but right now... I just want to get my feelings out and I'm not in the mood to write or draw... I'll just type.
My friend, Keiti, has already talked with me about this... she's cheered me up a great deal... and so has my ex and best friend, Ty but even with the help of the two greatest people I have ever met... I still can't get rid of the emptiness I feel right now. I thought I finally had something... someone that would make me feel like I was special. A lot of my friends who like someone feel the same way. They want to feel loved and be cared for. I thought I had that... and maybe I was wrong. I can kind of understand though... I'm currently in a long distance relationship... as my one friend, Djayy said... they can be hard to maintain when you need that trust and affection and the like... but Ty, my ex, I dated him long distance and we didn't really have any problems. Scratch that... he could drive.
But honestly, right now... I feel betrayed... in a sense. I don't think I have been. But when this all started... I felt loved and I was happy... now I'm back to being the way I used to be. Sad... and out of place. Am I seriously that easy to be forgotten... and seemingly unimportant. Because... he kinda makes me feel that way now.
I could continue this rant... but now I'm just whining and being immature. Hey, at least I'll admit it. Haha... I feel like crying, though... and I'm shaking a bit. ^^;
EDIT: I'm crying... can't stop... I better go listen to Big Bang to make me feel better. Heh...
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I'm sorry for the pointless rant... and I didn't mean to waste your time if you read this. Like I said, it was for me.
I hope no one takes offence... expecially him... because I love him... I'm just hurt right now and I honestly don't know if it matters anymore.
I like when my friends are really nice when they either want something or when there is no one else to talk to...
And then when someone else comes along... you're so easily forgotten.
And I like it more when they start acting all bitchy to you for every simple mistake, etc, etc.
I have two 'friends' who I'm having these issues with. Dx But the second person I can't mention here.
But anyway... my horseback riding lesson has been cancelled over and over again and I seriously want to start riding again. It's annoying having to work around my two friends just so we can all go together. Group lessons are a bitch. xD
My next lesson isn't till next Friday. D:
So for now... I'm doing the same things every day... while procrastinating on my summer reading. Oh, I'm replaying Eternal Sonata though. Which sucks because some of the boss fights and the dungeons are uber annoying. But I want to fight Captain Dolce every single time to get all the treasure and I want to resurrect Claves. -o-; Stupid Noise Dunes and the screen that repeats itself like four times... No Encore Mode yet.
AAAAH~ I am no longer a Frederic Fangirl anymore. Fugue is the best. xD And Polka will forever annoy me. I finally found out how to get the voices to be in Japanese since it's right in the menu screen. *Head/Wall*
Time to play~ 8D
Oh, yes, I got a web cam not too long ago... and I also got an account on MSN so if you wanna chat... PM me for details. xD Or comment. Whatever~
My feet hurt. My four friends and I walked foreverrrrr. xD
And now I'm just typing a short post before I leave to take a shower and go rent The Unborn so we can watch it and make fun of it at my friend Whitneys house. x3 We have no lives. O: I'll be staying over her house for the night. Should be fun.
My other friend said she would bring her laptop so if I can I may be around for a little. No idea though. >~<;
That's about it. xD
Bye for now. :D
I love you, Kyle. <333
