The names Samantha. Nicknames: Sammi, Sam, Mantha, Sammich. Call me whatever floats your boat. I'm Vietna-namese. I'm sick of my last name.
I swing. I sing. I write. I bake. I psycho-analyze you. I love you.
I'm a beta reader, so if there's any piece of writing that you want me to proofread before sending off for publication, just shoot me a PM and I'd be happy to help you!
:] <3 If you don't know me, get to know me. You'll have me for life.
Ello kids.
So, if you read my post from two days ago, (scroll down to the really long post if you missed it) I got the tests done yesterday to see if I have breast cancer.
Results came back today.
....
I am currently in stage one of breast cancer.
Mmhm, yes. I know. I'm only 15.
I started chemo today. Its a different type of chemo. It's lighter and won't kill my hair. xD Ahah. But it still made me throw up like fack. I've seriously never thrown up so much in one sitting in my life. Asides from that....
Guys, I'm gonna fight like hell against this. I know I'm gonna be okay. But if something does happen... know that I love you all. So much.
We're put on this earth for a reason. To live. So when something goes.. wrong in your life. Like you get grounded or your bf/gf breaks up with you or your best friends betray you and you feel like shit and you just "hate the world" and you "just wanna die." remember the other people in the world who have to endure so much more. And how lucky you are.
Love you guys. So much more than you'll ever know.
<3
Eyy kiddies.
[if you haven't read my last post yet, please look down]
I'm hanging on by a thread.
I think I might be losing my mind. The fear is just eating me alive. And I've never been so emotional in my life before.
The thread I'm hanging by; their name is Coldplay.
Oh there's another thread too. My best guy friend ever- taylor. That boy is amazing; the best friend a girl could ask for.
Thank you Coldplay and Taylor.
I love you. <3
Letter Time
Now see, these letters will only work, if the people they are addressed to actually love me enough to come back here and read them. Though I highly doubt that.
So, to the general public.
Hi guys. I'm sorry once again for not posting much anymore...I know that excuses are excuses, but... I have a good reason.
I'm ... having a cancer scare.
Alrighty, sooo, who knows what BREAST CANCER is? Well, in case you guys don't remember, I had surgery last year to have a lump removed. It was non cancerous. I remember the doctor saying to me "Don't worry, dear. The lump you have now is round, and small, and the edges are smooth, and its mobile, meaning you can move it around. [because if you cannot move it around, that might mean that cancer cells are clumped all around it.] And since they're all those things, I wouldn't worry."
Well I got the thing removed, and lucky me. I don't heal easily at all, and I developed a keyloid scar. (Google that kiddies.) Not a big ugly one, but you'll see why your knowledge of my not healing easily will come in handy later.
Alas, six months ago, I found another lump. This time, I did not remove it; we simply ultra-sounded it. It seemed all good, and the doctor said that if I removed this one, it would somehow make my condition worse?? Yeah, I don't get it either, but, okay.
Well, last week...I checked around my ta ta's , making sure they're okay. And by jove, they were NOT okay. The lump I found six months ago has grown. By a lot. And... there's not definite shape. Its jagged around the edges. And its not mobile.
And plus, it hurts like a mofo when you touch it.
I go to my doctor....she takes a look.... and says "....Well for now, let's do some tests." Before, she said "Oh I'm sure it's nothing, don't worry." This time.. she had a dramatic pause. And she looked at me like she pitied me. :[ She also said that we shouldn't do the biopsy just yet (they put a needle there, and draw some of it out and test it) because the needle apparently would give me another keyloid scar! D: WTF
...my aunt did die of breast cancer.
and, even though I'm a teenager, I'm still technically a "woman in her child bearing years."
my chances are as high as a normal woman. and even higher than that, because genetics are against me.
So...
I don't know what the future has in store for me. But just know, that I haven't forgotten about you guys. I love you. I'm just... busy at the moment.
I love you all.
Today ... was a saddening day.
I found out why Nami (AKA TwoFacedLullaby) left. And this time... I got the mods' side of the story. And quite frankly. I'm upset. Disappointed. Shocked. And a bit... surprised.
Nami, if you're reading this...
I'm disappointed in you. And I'm angry at you, and yet, I still miss you. You had so many friends on here, friends who were loyal to you (heck, friends that are still loyal to you.) Why did you feel the need to do what you did so many times? You were so talented; you could've been popular on your own, without the need of these shell accounts. I know that you were going through dark times, but doesn't everybody? My life is not a walk in the park. I've fought cancer amongst other diseases. But I never felt the need to resort to any form of lying to get attention or love. We loved you Nami! You didn't need to do what you did. So many people are angry with you. And yet, none can find it in their hearts to hate you. You were funny, witty, smart, and just an amazing person. But .... you just took this too far.
When you're ready to come back, if you're ever ready, please do. And clean up everything. We're here, we miss you, and we're ready to forgive you, if and only if you apologize to Adam and everyone else who works for TheO. And to all of us. You've hurt us, Nami. But ... just please. Come out of hiding, and come clean. For once and for all.
It's little me! :]] So kewt- pahah. <3
Just checking up on y'all. Hello,howareyou, loveyourshoes, loveyourhair.
I'm in okay health, how bouts you?!
I LOVE YOUS.
<3
