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I feel?.........

yesterday i was realy happy
i was playing tenis with this guy and i was owning him!!! lol

then this randome guy comes up to the tenis corts and my friend asks him " what are you doing here you dont even go to this school carsy"he chukels.
and i look up and the guy going in to the corts [the guy that was talking to him was my friend but not the one i was playing against]
and hes hot!!!!
lol he kinda looks asain but hes mexican [or some kind of latino lol] [witch kinda makes it better cause then i dont have to translte...ah feget it lol]
so i found something out about him
one hes awesome at tennis
two hes a pervert lol!
well after we got done playing we put all of out tenis suff up and went out side to for them to wait for their rides[and me to walk home ]
and i see my mom and she was looking for me !!!
so then i new right their that i was intruble!
blah blah blah blah
i told her the day before that i would be at tennis practive and she didnt care all she does is go on and off about how ppl should have no bissines beeing at shool after hours! and i try to reason with her ....but she doesent care
and then i feal so mentaly handy cap ...so verbaly cheated because my spanish sucks and she doesent know english!!!!!
so what could i do i felt like yelling at her in english not in a mean way because shes my mom but to reason with her...
but nothing can get through...
and then all i am able to tell her is that all she wants to do is control me and that im nothing but a caged bird to her and that my house is a cage!!!
because in reality to me it is !!!
and its more frustraiting cause its half true!!! not just something i come up with through my anger and frustraitons...
so im angry cause my mom doesent let me stay after school and she tells me that if i do for any AFTER SCHOOL ACTIVITY witch every parent should be happy that theri kids are doing
that she is going to pick me up right at the end of class at the door of my class room
WTF !!! SHE TREETS ME LIKE A CRIMANAL!!! and it pisses me off!!!
and it makes it worse because iv actualy have felt pasionate about playing the game ...and i havent felt that way in fore ever!!!

she told me i could only stay two days a week but i still feel compleatly defeated cause even though all of that she is still compleatly.....
i hate it ...

"look at the moon, all the clowns are cucleing around it "

[talking to my brother
"did i just say clowns?"
brother "yah"
me"...."
over the week end i found out that my 22 year old manager watches anime
witch is cool except for the fact that he is an ass[and im not the first to say that XD] so its like ....no i will not talk to you about anime!!!!
i found out cause i started talking to him in french over the drive though walkytalky/headset in french
and he was like what?
and then he says something in italian
and i say something i spanish
and then he says something in japanese
ok me beeing an anime watcher im like -w-
lol! your in my teratory now XD!
so im like urusai baka!
and he fliks me off ![knowing what i said]
nani?
lol so i told him i new more but i just didnt have any use for it at the moment and that i pick it off of watching anime shows and he askes if its anime and im like yah
and he was like OMG I WATHC THAT TOO!!!
....change of topic!
while i was wrighting this post [yesterday] the powere whent out!
and i was like aAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRggg!!!!!!!!
and then i was like 0.0
thats right i have fire fox and it saves it !!!<3
anyway i was reading the gentelmens aliance cross and i read it all the way till the ending!
dont wory i wont spoil anything on this post!
but it was such a beautifull ending !!!!!omg !!!
*cries*
anyway i gota go now...i have tons of home work to do and no time to do it....

no,bad kitty its my potpie!

geh
today was rather stressful! gah i hate it
First i whent to speel urly but not to urly because i know it can result in revers clock work on your body [intead you feel like you didnt sleep at all!} so i wake up and im still tyered as hell! gah! and i was like that the WHOLE DAY i would fall asleep in clas except if it werent for the fact that the desks are uncomfortable
then i had work to do that i pland on doing durning my teachers asistance class...and i couldint find the asighned pages or numbers! so i brought the book for that subject to school that day instead of briging the one i actualy needed!
T.T
other than that i was stressed for reasons unexplained....
me today;stresed,bored, sleepy,depressed!
have you guys ever tryed talking about your feelings to some one and have them compleatly not take anything you were saying as a consideration? like their like "i know you and your nothing like that"or say something like "your not sad !" mabe they didnt think i was serious. but how dare they you know?! first of all they tell me that their here for me to talk to [not here as in theo here]and then when i try to talk to them and i try to explain to them what is on my mind, and im a very intreverted person so talking about thous things is VERY hard and akward to me !they through my imperfections back at me and dismis anything i said !!!!
i was like wtf..... but i didnt say anything because then i know what would happen they would some how make it my fould or make me forgive them witch is totaly unfair because they never take and "im sory" and forgive!
i wonder if they realise when their smiling am i their to smile with them....
im often faded in to the back ground and id rather not be so i just leave...
mabe im better off being alone like always....

heday:one of the leading mails[well a spacificly clasified as one] in Soulryuki
[one of my mangas on theo]

halloween

yesterday...
im so soar!!!
my right arm hurts and my left leg hurts!!
and i have to go to work today !!!!
damn you hevy tenis rackit!!!{shakes fist at it even tho they are at my locker at school]
my right arm is my diping arm for ice cream too
waaaaa
....................
so yesterday was so fun
we were all in the back of my freinds truck as her parents drove us around
the anoying part was having to go back in the back of the truck and getting off
[sence i had a skirt and boots on -.-]
i was a gaishia for halloween ^^
well my sisters version of one anyway
[she made my costume]
iv never felt so old in my life
so now idisided that if i ever go trick or treating again i am soooooo dressing up like a littel kidd woould [this is where my friend tifany would tell me that their no escapin phisical parportions T.T ]
* sulks in corner*
i dont wana grow up waaaaaa!!! and i hate seeing my littel brother grow up too!!!
it ends now i tells you!!! iz will stay at 17 fore ever!!!

well anyway a cuple of weard things happend yesterday
like we were driving then sudenly we get on the street and out of nowhere the temputer drops like 10 fricken degrees! my freind that was sleeping even woke up!
it was like woah! that street is totaly honted!
....
then lattter we were sining in the back of their truck [we were doing it alot and freacking out onging trick or treaters XD yes we were those crasy ppl that you randomly see !]
one of the songs we sung was the "he has the whole world in his hands" song
and thats all we know to the song
then i disided that when ever it says "in his hands" we all point in unison at my friends sister wich was hilarious cause his sister tranaja was all "no"
lol!
but other than that we didnt get much candy [i gave up quick cause it was akward geting off the back of the car....] and i only got like a hand full
not to mention while we were on the free way my wig that i was whereing was histing my face with its hair realy hard
[i even held it up to my freind to show him how it felt XD]
the wether was awesome though !
yep and we whent to this old victorian house that was restored and met the pepole who lived their !
they had such a beutifull house!!!and so many ppl too @.@
well i guess ill stop boring you guys now lol

see yah
oh and i will try to post some picks latter when ever my friend uploads them

yay^.^

i just thought id post to day sence it is my birthday i dont realy have much to say right now
but i will try to post latter cause i dont have much time to get on right now
[is at school ]
im having a good time though ! ^^