Feeling Discouraged

Ladies and gentlemen, Queen.

Hello again everyone. I'm mainly doing this post to vent about some stuff before sitting down to do some writing, so you're all free to ignore everything that follows.

Actually, this post has pretty much everything to do with my writing, though not the story I plan to work on this afternoon. I guess I should start by talking about something I did yesterday. On the spur of the moment, I logged into my Crunchyroll account and checked to see if they had any of the Digimon anime shows in their catalog. It turns out they had just about every Digimon anime series ever done... except for Digimon Adventure Tri, oddly enough. I had previously seen the first eight episodes of Tri last spring and was thinking about watching it over again from the beginning (I kind of gave up on it a bit last fall). Anyway, I had at least added the Digimon Tamers anime to my queue thinking that I might watch it later. In fact I had planned on watching the first two or three episodes before going to bed last night, but my dad really wanted to watch a movie, and by the time the film was over it was just too late to try streaming anything before bed.

The idea of watching Tamers again here in the near future though made me ponder the possibility of maybe doing a new Digimon Tamers related story for this series of Digimon fanfics that I started a few years back. In fact the very first stories in the series were my debut on FanFiction.Net. The thing that's discouraging me right now though is the realization that if I did in fact do a new Digimon story, chances are nobody would read it. I actually started work on another Digimon fanfic almost a year ago and practically no one was reading it. That caused me to stop work on the story because it just felt like a waste of energy.

When you get right down to it, there probably aren't a lot of people who read Digimon fanfics anymore of have even seen any of the anime shows in the franchise. The fact is that by anime fan standards, I am basically an old geezer. The Digimon franchise has gotten pretty old, and I'm probably one of the few people left on this site who still remembers it. The other discouraging part of all this is that since that Digimon Adventure Tri series came out, my previous Digimon fanfics have seemed pretty irrelevant. I did those old stories as a sequel for Digimon Adventure and Adventure 02, but since an actual sequel exists, why bother with meaningless fan fiction stories?

I also can't help but think that this idea of doing a new Digimon fanfic was just my way of trying to recapture the past. I was pretty pleased with those first Digimon stories of mine, and I guess a part of me can't help but try to recreate that magic somehow. I think that pretty much covers all that I wanted to get off my chest. I'd like to thank anyone who actually read this entire post all the way to this point.

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