Ladies and gentlemen, the legendary Genesis.
There are just some days where I get up in the morning and just feel down about myself. And today has been one of those days. This time the reason is due to a kind of messed up dream I had last night. I don't really remember a lot of it. Anymore I only remember fragments of the dreams I have. What I do remember was this one part where I ended up driving to this mall out of town, and I kind of feel like I was forced or at least obligated to do so. The mall was crowded, yet it also looked like it was really run down. It was at this place where I ended up meeting with my aunt. And I don't remember what she said in the dream, but it kind of seemed like she said I had disappointed her.
I woke up with that feeling this morning. I kind of made it just a tiny bit hard to pull myself out of bed, and it sure didn't help that my room is like a meat locker at this time of the year. But today I sort of feel like I haven't been doing enough or that I haven't changed enough. It's like I've been trying, but I haven't been trying hard enough. Then again, thinking about this dream now as I write this post, I wonder if I'm just being too hard on myself. I mean I have made some progress with things, yet I still wonder if it's been enough. Maybe I could be doing more. Maybe I haven't been putting enough effort into some things.
On a more positive note though, it seems I'm a little more efficient than I first thought. I went into the archives this morning and found that there were a ton of books left for me to label. Usually when I have books to label, I save doing it for Thursday because of some of the other stuff I do there. But this pile looked like it was going to take two days to do. So I went ahead and got to work on it. To my surprise though, I ended up getting it all finished today. So either there weren't as many books as I thought there were, or I'm just fast at what I do.
So today hasn't been totally bad I guess. I hope everyone else is having a better day than I am.
